myendless-sayings;

Not Anymore

2009-11-11T22:54:00.002+08:00

I am back and changed my link to:

http://tinybitsoflove.blogspot.com

`x estee x`

LOVEE! <3

2009-05-22T23:13:00.007+08:00

My whole collection of soft toys on my bed/in my room! :)

Chocolate cake by Delia, Ying Heng, Kathy, Wai Yan, Yi Jia, Yu Ying. :)Sera, Vivian, Me, Emmeline, Teresa! xoxo'Dearest Debbie! :)Dearest 4 beloved juniors, VETS!VETS! The sweet cards they made! :D

Judaxil! C:Dexter, Jun An, Regan! :DWai Yan! :DChristyyy! :D Desmond, Emrys, Gordon, Priscilla, Titus! :D

To be continued :)

`x estee x`

Happy Birthday to Me? :|

2009-05-22T15:53:00.001+08:00

Screwed sixteen, It's just getting worst.

`x estee x`

-

2009-05-21T15:36:00.001+08:00

Empty, promises? :/

`x estee x`

我们的纪念 <3

2009-05-20T23:48:00.003+08:00

数不清的泪
我又哭了好几回
幻化沉淀停留在这片屋檐
被封化得雪埋藏在千年以前
我用尽一生的思念
只为等着你出现

回忆渐渐都是躲在我身边
换我醒原来还跳动的画面

就让我留在轮回的边缘
等一道光线
看见某年某月
我们之间曾经说过的预言
就让他带走你的那瞬间
成为我们的纪念
谁能发现我的世界曾经有过你的脸

`x estee x`

-

2009-05-20T00:53:00.002+08:00

You're so pathetic man, girl. - Estee Kho

-
Happy birthday Delia! <3

`x estee x`

Randomnized Thoughts

2009-05-18T21:14:00.002+08:00

I'm beginning to wonder myself, if this is even going to work.

The power lines went out
And I am all alone
But I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Couldn't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains

Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste
You're invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face

Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

One day
You will wake up
With nothing but "you're sorrys"
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

Why am I even losing all the motivation that I was given, in this last paper that is my very,
last hope?
I thought through and through,
if you're even feeling the least bit guilty,
at least it shows that you have that last bit of conscience.
Why even break yourself so bad, when the last result always strike it so hard,
that even the mirror reflects the shattered pieces?

`x estee x`

Nobody Dance!

2009-05-18T16:32:00.002+08:00

NO WAY IRIS TAN SWEE LING, WE ARE SO NOT GONNA DO THIS! ._.
THOUGH IT'S DAMN CUTE! :P

UNLESS...
WE CAN BE LIKE THIS :

`x estee x`

Pris! <3

2009-05-16T23:24:00.003+08:00

Thank you Priscilla Sim Si Min for the treat and a memorable birthday celebration today!
Haaa, and thank you for the drink! =x

Met up with SIL at T1's main entrance around 6 plus! :x
First time going out with her alone then I late, ahhh 失败 ah! :/
Haha, we didn't know what to do first so we decided to walk up T1.
Who knows, we couldn't stand the noise and the crowd that we decided to just head straight to Secret Recipe and get out of there as soon as possible!

Ordered the Kiddy set of Fish&Chips.
Didn't really feel like eating much, and I know SIL ate a lot of food earlier today!
Haaa, so we decided to eat the really cute kiddy meal fish&chips!
It's like my lovee at Secret Recipe can! :D
I love the alphabets fries,
but I think today's one changed to stars and smileys! :D
heee, what a nice way to make me smile like a child! :)

Pris was so bad today, she say must eat a lot a lot!
Haiyooo, I where got 舍得 to 花你的钱!?!
But she still insisted that I should get a cake,
so I decided on Chocolate Strawberry!
OH MY TIAN, IT'S HEAVENLICIOUSLY DELICIOUS TO THE MAX!
Photos up soon, with the one yesteday with 思恩! :D
haaaa, I realised all the people with the chinese name 思 are very nice people!
思敏, 思恩, 思慧, 思颍...! :D

Haaa, right don't digress!
So after our dinner, we headed to NTUC to buy some snacks.
& also, SIL ended up buying 6 Kinder Bueno's for me and the clique (boys)! ._.
WHAT THE... GUYS YOU BETTER APPRECIATE HER OKAYY! :)
ULTIMATE LOVEEE! :D
Haaa, then we headed to Cheers and bought a bottle of Pink Dolphin and Bacardi Peach! :)
Walked to Blk 250 and sat at the small tentage to drink,talk,eat and camwhore!

Kept asking that stupid CL to come and join us,
he just simply refused to.
So, had no choice but to went up to SIL's house and scare him!
HAHAHA!
Stayed at their house till 9.05, then SIL walked me down and I headed home! :D
HEE!

`x estee x`

Candles by Jon & Amander

2009-05-16T22:11:00.003+08:00

I am so envious of Jon's gf voice, is so niceeee lah!
You've found a gem man, liu! ^^
ISN'T SHE A DIVAAAA?!? :D

`x estee x`

Angels & Demons

2009-05-15T21:54:00.002+08:00

Thank you, Joycelyn, for the day.

-

Angels & Demons was a blast, like totally!
Last minute decision to go for a movie with Si En..! :)
Met up with her around 2 plus at School Gate 3.
Then headed to Esso Bus Stop and took a bus there!
Dialled Iris to join us, but she couldn't!

We headed on to EHub by 12!
I sincerely swear that those bastards at the back on the second deck were totally on my nerves.
I even told Si En that I really hoped...(inside joke!)!
So we finally pull through the insane and irritating bus ride and drop at Downtown East.
We had to think through so much to decide what we eat!
So we thought we should check out the movie time slot first!

Reached Cathay and found out that Wolverine was 'gone',
so we decided to settle between Angels & Demons or Star Trek.

Me: Which movie do you intend to watch with Eugene?
Joycelyn: Eugene wanna watch Star Trek.
Me: Okay, Angels & Demons then! :D
Both: *Laughs like crazy people*

Hahaaa:)
What a funny way to choose a movie, lmao. :P
After which, we saw SuperDog and decided to settle that for lunch.
When we were told that we would have to wait 10 minutes,
we both looked at each other and laughed again.
NTUC, rofl!
We bought Sushi and two bags of chips!

Okay, halfway through the movie, I think we both regretted watching the movie!
There was much gory scenes please!
But till the end, HO MY GOD!
It's a major blast please! :D
No regrets at all!
Then we got another surprise at the end.

Manager: We apologise for the sound system halfway through the movie, and therefore please retain your ticket stub. You are allowed to go to any Cathay Cineplexes and watch any movie of your choice with it. Once again, sorry!
Viewers: *screams* & hooray!

HAH! :D

Joycelyn: Wow, you treat me to two movies siah!
Me: Oh ya hor! haaaaaa! :D

We didn't manage to eat anything during the movie cause we were still full from SuperDog.
We decided to head to Elias Park and finish the food. :D
Bare our hearts, emo-ed to each other. :)
Haaa, Joycelyn was a dear to walk home with me from the park through the park connector.

Me: Hey, let's sing choir songs!
Joycelyn: Okay!
Both: O~~~~magnum~mysterium...~
haaaaa! :D
We got breathless and decided to sing hard core songs.
Both: What if I wanted to break, Laugh it all off in your face,What would you do? Come break me down, Marry me, bury me, I am finished with you.~

Sent Si En to the bus stop and she gave me a heartwarming hug and left when 18 came! :)
Thank you once again, Joycelyn Xie Si En! :D

`x estee x`

-

2009-05-15T21:48:00.002+08:00

You scarred me, once again.
You never fail to do this.
You know it's never the physical pain.
You know it's really nothing to me at all.
You know, each time this happens,
I'm just closing up once again.

I can really begin to feel the suicidal thoughts coming back, again.
You know I am capable of doing anything,
You know, it's not the first.

REGRET. BLOOD. HATE.

`x estee x`

DADDY~!

2009-05-15T11:24:00.002+08:00

Didn't know talking to Daddy on Msn could be this funny, lmao :)
Daddy's in Batam now, I miss him. :/

`x estee x`

-

2009-05-11T00:02:00.007+08:00

Okay, Iris Tan Swee Ling.
The shitty feeling is back again, fuck.

I'm making a pact to myself that I shall not swear so often anymore,
unless it's something major.

`x estee x`

MAMA <3

2009-05-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

Headed to TTS hospital in the evening to visit Mama after having tuition with Miss Koh at San yi's house.
Grah, it pains me to see Mama's hand being poked with so many drips.
There are even bruises please! :/
But on the contrary, her bed is like the most happy/kiddy/fun/cute decorated bed...!
Hahaha, it's like filled with flower soft toys and a cute cute bean bag pillow from Da jiu jiu! :D
Then there's even a winnie the pooh with piglet balloon!
Hahahaha :)

Really glad she's looking so much better!
Mama, buay sai luan luan xio hor!
We loveee youuuu! :D

P.S: Happy Birthday DumbDumb! :)

`x estee x`

STUDY, SUBWAY, TABLE TENNIS, STUDY...!

2009-05-09T23:35:00.004+08:00

I'm here to ensure that I am fine and no longer brooding over emotional matters, for now. :)

Today started out pretty funny,
I could not drag myself out of the bed to meet Teddy Bear at 0930hrs,
so I smsed him thrice to postpone the timing.
In the end, managed to meet him for Subway at 1111hrs!
We miracurously spent 1 whole hour at Subway,
which made me think back now,
it's like soooooo dumb. ._.

Then we headed to medium Mac and he started going through my MCQ mistakes I made on the questions I did.
Hahaaa, he teach very funny!
But it got into my hair pretty smoothly like a steep gradient of a river!
Ahhh, is this a hint that I should hit back on Geog!?
Heck, but yeah then Brother, Sister, Jason and Kelvin came over to Mac for lunch.
Around 2plus 3, all of us except for Sister who had already departed for Bishan,
headed to Tampines Sports Hall for Table Tennis! :D
Haaaa, it's been ages since I had my fun time of playing Table Tennis!
Grah, it brought back memories of '乒乓员' issue. :/
A once in a lifetime opportunity, and yet I gave up for my passion!
I don't think I regret, just feel it's perhaps just kind of a pity.

So reached home around 5 plus and slacked a lil'while! :x
Tried to study around 7 plus but I ended up packing my books again.
It's just a never-ending packing for me!
So managed to start studying Geog at around 8 plus?
Skipped dinner, ( I counted Subway at 11 for lunch! Though it's just brunch! :P)
Yep, so it's like I survived the whole day with only Subway.
Haaaaa, Double Chocolate Chip Cookie is daaaaa loveeee! :D
Definitely make me smile like this - C:

Okay, I really think I should hit back to my geography for now though it's already 2355hrs and I have to wake up at 9? :)
Sleep early humans, we've got to mug a whole day tomorrow! :)

Hopefully the people I messaged to motivate them to study work for them,
if I never sms ya, it just means I know you can do it. :)
So let's all give it our all and smack down the papers this upcoming week! (=

Nights once again Earth! :)

`x estee x`

Just another emotional account.

2009-05-08T20:50:00.002+08:00

I stared the reflection on the glass panel,who is that girl I see?
I can't seem to revert back to think about the past me.
I can't seem to remember a single detail about how I was as a person last time.
I vividly remember I had always this low self-esteem carrying around with me all the time.
Then as I entered my first Secondary School,
Life was a major torture, I even wished I was dead.
Crying buckets and running away from reality had become a daily routine for me.

Then as I entered my second Secondary School,
I thought all was going really well for me.
I made new friends, regained back my old self of being sociable,
always keeping a smile on me as much as I can.

Then this Sec Two senior, whom I'll never forget for my whole life,
came into my life; Judaxil brought us together.
The hilarious moments during Sec One whereby he started calling me "Jerome's Brother",
and I got really mad cause I was obviously a GIRL.
It was also around that period that I got myself a boyfriend,
it was all sweet and nice.
Then, all the emotional days begun,
communication problems and not being able to trust each other,
we reckoned that we were better off friends.
And yes indeed, we are really good friends now.
Then, him being my first love after all, ( I don't count Joseph cause it was PUPPY LOVE )
things got rather out of hand/emotional.

For the whole of my Secondary Two life,
I was stuck in my own world yet again.
There were great friends that backed me up, really great friends.
Though some stayed as close friends now,
few had already departed from my world.
All the bitch war/cat fight started,
and now I begin to wonder perhaps it was all my fault at the very start.
Perhaps, 'forgiving and forget' may really seem as a hypocritical thing.
Then I began to lose my sense of judgement,
things really got out of hand.
But it was also at that point of time when I felt all the warmth I needed,
from the people who cared.

I met an "Angel" that has been really kind to me till today.
She's really a great friend, a great listener, a great motivator.
Don't know why, I can't seem to be able to divide my time to my friends proportionately.
And my friends can never get along well together.
Maybe I made a really wrong decision to step into my present school.
I suppose the lives of the people I know in this school would have been much better,
without my presence from the very beginning.
I should have stayed on at my first school,
suffer from depression. ( I guessed there's nothing to hide anymore.)
Yeah, I suffered from depression before.
Unbelievable? Maybe that's why I have such low self-esteem,
and maybe a lil' too sensitive.

Sec Three was a whole new life with a whole new clique.
Got separated from certain people,
but am contented that I can at least get back with one of them now.
Though I still feel that our friendship should not even have drifted
cause of her relationship with her boyfriend then.
But now, it's about looking forward, anticipating change, staying relevant.
And we are definitely staying relevant,
from the previous posts of webcam madness.

Now, my life revolves around with a whole new group of people again,
and I am beginning to wonder, where do I even begin with naming any one of them,
"A truly sincerely best friend", besides my present guy best friend,
who is now most probably packed with his JC life,
and me with my sec four O' levels life.

Why must time move on like as if everyone are able to move on,
from where they left, from where they have to pick themselves up,
when they themselves, don't even know where to start?

`x estee x`

Webcam madness / MAMA! :/

2009-05-08T17:55:00.009+08:00

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Just received news that mama got admitted into hospital! ):
Though latest news is that she is better now,
I really hope nothing's happening! :/

`x estee x`

Declan Galbraith - Tell Me Why

2009-05-08T15:49:00.005+08:00

In my dreams, Children sing
A song of love for every boy and girl
The sky is blue, the fields are green
And laughter is the language of the world
Then I wake and all I see is a world full of people in need

Tell me why,(why) does it have to be like this
Tell me why, (why) is there something I have missed
Tell me why, (why) cause I don't understand
When so many need somebody
We don't give a helping hand
Tell me why

Every day, I ask myself
what will I have to do to be a man
Do I have, to stand and fight
To prove to everybody who I am
Is that what my life is for?
To waste in a world full of war

Tell me why, (why) does it have to be like this
Tell me why, (why) is there something I have missed
Tell me why,(why) cause I don't understand
When so many need somebody
We don't give a helping hand
Tell me why (Tell me why)
Tell me why (Tell me why)
Tell me why (Tell me why)
Just tell me why (why, why, why)

Tell me why, (why) does it have to be like this
Tell me why, (why) is there something I have missed
Tell me why, (why) cause I don't understand
When so many need somebody
We don't give a helping hand
Tell me why (Why why, does the tigers run?)
Tell me why (Why why, do we shoot the gun?)
Tell me why (Why why, do we never learn?)
Can someone tell us why we let the forests burn

(why why do we say we care?) tell me why
(why why do we stand and stare?) tell me why
(why why do the dolphins cry?) tell me why
can someone tell us why we let the ocean die

(why why if we're all the same?) tell me why
(why why do we pass the blame?) tell me why
(why why does it never end?)
can someone tell us why we cannot just be friends (x2)

why why?

I'm lost for words, beautiful. :O
Ahhhh...! :/

`x estee x`

Bless!

2009-05-03T02:00:00.003+08:00

Have you ever had this blissful emotion that you just can't help but
keep smiling and grinning to yourself?
This simple happiness, ecstatic joy that surrounds.

Estee feels really really blissful! :D
& If MBY were to ask the usual question again,
I'd reply her my answer with full of confidence!

Nothing else can express this happiness that I'm feeling now.
Not even GWH, not even getting 7 straight A's. :)

Cause I'd die for you, Skyway Avenue!

`x estee x`

A Once Upon a Time.

2009-05-01T23:14:00.005+08:00

有些事，放下了会比较好过。因为一直紧握住的事情会让自己更难受。明明知道没有结果的东西还一直想要保留着，是最傻的。放下了过后，你也不需要这么痛苦。
因为我也在学着渐渐的放弃了。这样子，因该会比较快乐吧。对你自己也好，对他也好吧？

You were there for me when my life has reached its darkest moment,
And now just when this situation has taken a turn,
I really wish we are still in twenty-oh-seven.
The things we said may contradict the things that we are saying,
but take a turn and look back at the past,
How did we even get into this point,
When our friendship was inseparable last time?

-

You told me that quote above when I feel like giving up my everything,
I braced myself up and thank God for blessing me with you as my friend.
But now I ask myself, is God even making a fool of me?
How did things even turn out this way,
When a genuine "hello" even mean as a hidden intention filled with hypocrisy.

`x estee x`

Daily Update/ Books<3

2009-04-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

April 30th!
And then 5th may till 19th may!
Luckily my sweet sixteen would be three days after that! :P
But "yay", Chinese O's 1st June!
How can we have a life?!

Anyway, today's been cool. :)
Animation did not turn out as bad as I thought!
But some problems cracked up when I tried to render.
Ahhh...! :/

Hanging out with Wai Yan today after Animation was cool! :D
Subway with Wai Yan, Si En~ and Yi Ge was way cooler!
Haha, Eugene! Stop pestering me with your question! :P
OH YA BUDDAYE, I HAVE AN ULTIMATE GAY PHOTO TO SHOW YOU! :O

And anyway, talking about Wai Yan,
I'm kinda worried about what happened after we departed! :0
Take care alrightsy!

After breaking away from that two lovebirds,
I decided to head over to the library to borrow back my Belle!
But to my utmost disappointment, :/ someone has loaned the book out!
But I still managed to get back Wild Orchid and found The Important of Being Married by Emma Townley! :D

Time to hit the books in another twenty! :)
Then a night call and sweet dreamsy! :D
AND JUN ANNN, YOU BETTER SLEEP EARLY AH! RAWR! C:

Studying with ANGEL at her house tomorrow!
Intensive studying! :D YIPEEEE!
I LOVE MY BOOKS, HAHAHA! =)

`x estee x`

Emoism!

2009-04-29T22:25:00.002+08:00

It seems like everyone around me are in their "emoism" state now!
Bryan, Jun An, Dexter, Regan, Gordon(I know you are emo!), Iris?,etc.
My mood, too, has been plummeting up and down like a cosine graph.
Then you'll begin to see all the Chem terms and A Math formulae out.

Got back our A Math Mock Exam today.
Scored a 7. I expected it.
The first few moment, I was rather liberal about my result and had like been resigned to fate that my mock would score that bad.
I just don't understand how a person who has been getting F9 all the way,
will be able to get a A1 or even a B3 at O's. :/
Though it may seem like I'm much more free now after stepping down from Choir,
the pending work and revision that has been casted aside,
is an insurmountable amount of workload for me to catch up with! :/
Talk about politics, life's been so hectic.

But I'm just not going to resigned to fate and give up A Math,
or even other subjects like Physics or Geography.
My weakest link.
The problem about Geog is that my passion for it is as thin as my hair.
I just still prefer History! :/
But I've accepted my fate of taking these subjects,
so I must not give up.
I need a real boost of motivation again!

So long...!

`x estee x`

DmnChoir<3

2009-04-26T01:40:00.003+08:00

Stepping down from choir, putting behind the memories that we all had gone through with each other,
it's really a tedious, impossible task to do.

I miss singing as an Alto,
I miss singing as a Soprano.
I miss singing together with the other sections as a Choir.
I miss my juniors.
I miss my seniors.
I miss my conductor, Mr Toh!
I miss my teachers, Miss Yeo, Ms Chin, Mdm Fadillah, Mdm Ng.
I miss Mrs Chan!
I miss the period whereby we had to restrain ourselves from the FORBIDDEN food.
I miss the fun we had singing with our audition groups.
I miss spending my Tuesday's and Friday's with choir.
I miss spending my other days for Sectionals.
I miss the basketball times.
I miss the dining at KFC times.
I miss the good old' songs that we used to sing.
I miss donning on the maroon gown.
I miss standing on stage, performing for my audience.
I miss Friday the 17th 2009.
I miss screaming/crying for joy upon receiving the results.
I miss every lil' bits and pieces of my Choir time.

`x estee x`

Airport, M.O.F

2009-04-26T00:46:00.004+08:00

Ah...! I've got a heap of photos to update on Facebook but I'm not using the desktop now! ):
Omg, I owe Kang Qi, Michelle they all photos for Han's birthday,
Fish & Co. pics for WC's birthday celebration!
Oh my mama! :/

Oh well, studied with Judaxil at Airport in the afternoon just now ( Saturday! )!
Lol, surprise surprise!
Coincidentally, Gordon's cousin/ Iris's friend,
Godwin was there with his friends.
Lol, I don't know why I like to say Gordon's & Iris's! :x
HAHAHA! okay, there's really nothing about them!
I'm just crapping and zi-highing!
It's a good sign all right!
Past few days had been madness,
and I seriously mean MADNESS.

I don't understand why or what. It's back again?
Sec One's experience was a torture for the first two months.
I don't know why, and totally don't see any reason why it should be back again.
Anyway, I have a confession.
I earnestly hate that voice that keeps ringing in my head.
Perhaps you are the reason why I'm in this state.
I just never understand, why can't you provide me the same warmth
as a member of the family like others, to me.
When I see my friends having such a close,
sweet relationship with their member of the family, I feel sad.
You totally don't know what I need.
And I do not want to bother to patch this up.
I've had enough.
If you think you were right for saying all that you've said in the afternoon,
and not feel in the least bit remorseful,
you ought to reflect on yourself how much you've succeeded
as a member of the family to me.
Cause I know one thing for sure, you are not the best, yet.
I dislike you, I dislike hearing your voice.
It's a pain in my ear/head/brain.
And it is definitely rejecting you.

`x estee x`

WTF? O.O

2009-04-20T22:47:00.003+08:00

Who would have ever thought right?
That I'd be shocked by your actions which I seriously deem as 'wtf?'.
This is seriously getting weirder and weirder each day.
It's like I'd find myself getting to know news about what's happening between you and her?
Like seriously, it's pissing me off that why do you have to be so secretive/mysterious?
If you really have nothing to hide, why even bother to avoid/hide?

I may be wrong, and I hope I am wrong.
Cause I really don't wish this to affect our friendship.
Four years, and ongoing...
Prove me wrong, will you?

`x estee x`

Realise / Only dearest you.

2009-04-19T13:56:00.007+08:00

I realised:

I haven't been speaking in full sentences and thus my words sounded really wrong when I did not continue the sentence before.

I had been too insensitive towards your feelings on MSN yesterday.

I was a sucker to pick a fight with you even though it was actually a very minor issue.

I am feeling so damn shitty now that I really need to drown myself with best friend again.

When I meant you were the first I wanted to hug when the results were announced, I really mean it.

You had been the one who gave me all the strength I needed to persevere and go on for the past few months.

I am too dependent on you.

Cause if you jump I'll jump too, we'll fall together from the
building's ledge, never looking back at what we've done, we'll say it was love.
Cause I'd die for you, only dearest you.

`x estee x`

Congratulations DMN SEC! :D

2009-04-18T15:59:00.004+08:00

Congratulations to Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Secondary School Modern Dance for attaining a Gold with Honours award too! :D
DmnChoir thank you! :)
hahaha! (:

I feel so heartwarming that dear dear cousin congratulated us though she don't know us as a whole. :)
KCPSS is like all the way at Bishan!
But we're like kinda affiliated in a way cause our Choir went to their school to perform last year or two years back! :)
Somehow or rather I heard that their conductor is a friend of Mr Toh. :D
We exchanged our performances at RI too few Fridays back!
But no idea how did their Choir performed.
Hopefully they may achieve what they wish to achieve! :)

Anyway, Chinese Dance SYF is on this Monday!
All the best Lock Lock! :D Hehehe!
And all the best to Guitar Ensemble & String Ensemble for their upcoming SYF too! :)
And congratulations to Band, Malay Dance and Drama? (Heard they went for their SYF already but not too sure about their results!) for their achievements! :D
And congrats!!! to Team Netball B' Division for attaining 3rd in Nationals! :D
We made Dunman and Mrs Neo proud! =)

`x estee x`

SYF'09 : GOLD WITH HONOURS! <3

2009-04-17T23:32:00.003+08:00

That's right...! As mentioned on tag boards, and all the screamings at the AVT & Atrium, Dmnchoir was awarded
GOLD WITH HONOURS
for the second time...!
Thank you all Dmnchoir for making this last performance an unforgettable one for the Sec Four seniors. :)
We really appreciate your efforts for the past few months!
Continue to persevere and grow in Choir yeah?!
Love you all forever~! x3

I don't wanna emo now, cause I feel we should all be really be happy with our achievement! :D No no no emo talks okay juniors!

& Not to forget, Mr Toh, Miss Yeo, Ms Chin, Mdm Fadillah & Mdm Ng! :)
Thank you all for the endless support that you have provided for us! x3

`x estee x`

QUIZ!

2009-04-11T13:47:00.002+08:00

Tagged by Deliaaaa...! :D

1. list 10 ppl whom you want to do this quiz:
- I
- Don't
- Give
- A
- Damn :x
- Just anyone who wants to do lah :)

2. your name:
Estee

3. your age:
15 going 16!

4. single/attached:
partially half, acceptable?
or not, single but have a mutal liking for someone. :)

5. five of your closest friend:
Riffin, Bryan, Iris, Titus, Gordon? for now. ._.
P.S YY&Kathy, I feel like we aren't that close now.
That kinda suck I guess? :/

6. your two favourite colours:
BUMBLE BEE! Yellow & Black! :D

7. storybook/comics:
Both. :)

8. do you have a crush?
What can I say?

9. has an unknown person asked you for your number before?
Yes.

10. if yes, did you give your number to the person who asked?
Nope.

11. name 2 girls:
Celia & Cheryl. (LOL)

12. name 2 guy friends:
Mark & Titus!
Gordon Sim & Han Riffin are gays :P

13. do you play online games?
Yes.

14. do you play maple story?
Can't believe this, used to.

15. do you play audition?
Nope.

16. fav numbers?
Anything that has a 4 in it!

17. fav alphabets?
D,B,E,S,T! :D lol, D. best!

18. hotmail url?
bubbles_kho@hotmail.com

19. would you rather go out with your stead or friends?
Depends.

20. do you trust your stead?
None now?

21. money or friends?
Friends.

22. stead or friends?
Depends on situation.

23. anime or drama?
Drama.

24. best girl:
Nobody at the moment.

25. best guy friend:
Riffin!

[QUIZ 2]
[x] Gotten detention.
[] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[] Gotten suspended.
[] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[] Gotten caught cheating on test.
Total : 1

[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times.
[] Turned at least 3 projects in late.
[] Missed school cause you feel like it.
[] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.
Total : 2

[ ] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw things across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.
Total : 4

[ ] Pulled down the Fire Alarm.
[x] Went on Myspace, Facebook etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours.
[x] Listened to iPod, CD, etc. during class
Total : 4

[ ] Threw something at the teacher.
[x] Went outside the class without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class test.
[x] Ate food during class.
Total : 4

[x] Gotten a call from school ( To know of my results, is that counted? )
[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school.
[ ] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[ ] Stuck up your middle finger at teacher when they were not looking.
[ ] Cursed curing class loud enough so the teacher could hear.
Total : 2

[] Faked your parents signature.
[x] Slept in class.
[ ] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[x] Copied homework.
Total : 2

Overall : 19multiply by 3=57 % life ruined!

OH.MY.GOD! :O

`x estee x`

April!

2009-04-09T18:45:00.002+08:00

I'm still alive!
I guess it's almost quite impossible to update on a daily basis or whatsoever.
Just yesterday Huang Jie, Kenneth and I were talking about blogging and many more topics...
But I guess I still stick to my stand of blogging my daily happenings here cause it's the only way I can keep people like HAN RIFFIN updated.
Haha, my 'father' who is going to turn seventeen tomorrow,
are you reading this? :D

Okay, SYF is amazingly, miraculously happening in 8 more days!
Gambatte choristers!
We've been through this 4 months and we know we really want to give our very best for our juniors, SLs, seniors, teachers, Mr Toh, and most importantly, ourselves.
There have been a lot of prep talks by Sls and teachers,
and it's these motivation and prep talks that are constantly driving us to know what we really want for ourselves.
8 more days to SYF, also means 8 days left being a Dmn Choir member.
The thought of it really devitalise me. :/
Singing is like a passion, and though it's been tiring, deep down I know that this is what I want and what I love.
Oh, I shall also take this chance to say sorry to YY, Kathy and Yi Jia for ranting this two days how tired I am, especially yesterday!

Anyway, I really didn't feel like running 2.4km yesterday and my wish came true! :D
And I got to play my favourite P.E sport, Tchoukball! :D
Three cheers~ it's funny as usual!
With jokes like CL's aiming, Jordy's balancing? and keep blocking me from taking the ball!
Ying Heng was exceptionally weird and retarded yesterday, sorry Delia! :x
Haha, it's like oh my god!
Let's just say people who played Tchoukball yesterday would know!

Hmm, recalling what happened last evening, I really wanna laugh at the message I sent to joker!
Okay, I was really really tired enough, then Daddy had to be frustrated last night over the politics at work.
When Dad is frustrated, he drives, he speeds, and then his daughter, me, can't withstand the speed, feels like she can really fly off her seat, and feels like vommiting and get out of the car!
But hey joker, I mean what I say in that sms okay!
And thinking about just summarising a 10-page sms to one sentence, can really make me laugh my ass off!
If like that, I confirm 死的不瞑目 lah!
Hahaha!

Woah, I feel old already.
Just sitting in front of the comp for 45 minutes and my shoulder & back is already aching. ._.
Okay, maybe I shall just blog later or tomorrow! :)
Gotta revise scores! Toodles~!

`x estee x`

NIGHTMARE! :O

2009-03-29T21:00:00.002+08:00

:O There's so much for me to blog about..!
And and and photos to update my deadly wordy blog. ._.
But.....! My whole purpose of this post is to blog about the scary/funny/crazy nightmare that I had!
Too bad if you don't understand! :P
So here goes...!

Baby entered a singing competition, everyone sang soothing English pops and rock, but Baby went for Chinese rap by Jay Chou. Baby's voice was so mellifluous! Then Baby came across this hot babe and was checking her out, despite my presence. (ahahahaha! I earnestly felt this was damn hilarious!) That babe sang after Baby, and sang pretty well too. In the end the results were out...
Baby got 2nd while the babe got 1st. The babe gave a speech and here is how it goes.

Babe: I feel that this title do not belong to me but instead Baby.
*Summoning Baby to go on stage*
Babe: Baby totally deserved this.......blah blah blah.
*Invited Baby to give a speech*
Baby: Oh wow, I totally did not expect this........
*The babe was obviously interested in Baby and vice versa.* ( OMG! :O )
Then ( I can't remember what happened here? )
After the whole speech...,
THEY KISSED IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE THEATRE.
The whole crowd was jeering and booing.
And there I was, left crying and screaming at Baby.
Girlfriends were there cheering me up,
telling me I should have expected this to happen...
Before I ran off, I screamed :
I HATE YOU FOREVER BABY...........!
And I ran away!

THE END.

Hahahahahaha, don't you think it's damn funny?
Okay, it was really scary for me about the "hating Baby forever" part.
I cried till I felt like I really cried in reality.
But oh well, they always say whatever happens in dreams/nightmares are always the opposite..so oh well! :D hee!

`x estee x`

You Yes You!

2009-03-23T22:06:00.003+08:00

Look at how much you affect me! :D
But neverthenless, I am still happy happy happy! :)
Hey You! Yes You!
Me<3You! :D

No more drowning of water anymore!

& now I know how much I mean to you, thank you for your love, love one! :)

`x estee x`

Insomnia

2009-03-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

Hahaha, now I'm suffering from insomnia.
It's ten thirty, I'm still working on my 作文, which is my last assignment that needs to be handed in tomorrow.
But, insomnia is barring me from getting my good night rest!
It's not like I love thinking so much,
or getting myself sad and emo over trivial stuffs.
But let's face it, everyone feels the same way at some point of their life.
And yes, just that I'm experiencing it much much more sadness than happiness because I just feel tiny and small inside,
which thus leading me to do the next thing that I am gonna do,
water, water, water. :)

So what if I'm torturing myself...so what?

`x estee x`

Elmo's Emo week.

2009-03-19T18:41:00.003+08:00

It's just all weird, sucky and awkward.
I'm like breaking from this reality, yet again.
This morning, I drowned myself down with water for 15mins or > without leaving my mouth off the straw.
Then I headed to the water cooler to refill and drown myself again.
I realised, when I am really sad, I drown myself with water.
hahaha :)
Two days and counting...

`x estee x`

Broken strings.

2009-03-18T10:57:00.001+08:00

I really don't know what kind of feeling was that yesterday.
I'm sorry, I was trying to figure out why, but I didn't come up with any conclusion.
It's like melting, shaking...
But one thing for sure, I'll never want to let it go.
Never, ever, ever.
Because I do not wish to have any regrets, any any regrets.

--

Baby, I'm broken yet again, so so so bad.

`x estee x`

CURSED

2009-03-14T12:20:00.002+08:00

I'm broken into pieces.
You made me cursed myself, hahaha :)

`x estee x`

CT!

2009-03-11T19:06:00.002+08:00

It's the common test period, and yes I have chose to close my blog again.
For I have not been using the computer for long hours ever since the last time I blog?
Hahaha, time passes really fast.
And I know I shouldn't be here for now and should really get my butt off and work on A math & get everything about Geography & Social Studies into my head!
I know I can do it! :)
Though I passed, but I am very very disappointed with my carelessness in Chemistry,
and thought I could have done much better,
but I'm no longer gonna look back into the past.
What matters - 2009 GCE O'LEVELS. :D

Canon in' D & Marriage D'Amor ftw! :D

`x estee x`

4D2<3

2009-02-28T23:27:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOD~! I HAVEN'T BEEN BLOGGING FOR AGES! ):
I really really miss blogging my thoughts and daily events.
Life's been complicated and packed and haywire!
Oh ya, by the way I am in the SYF team. :)
Thanks for those who wished me luck and everything!
Now, let's strive towards SYF choristers! :D

Yesterday was Brother's birthday, happy birthday!
But yet it was one of the worst day ever since school started.
I made a really wrong mistake at the wrong time and felt so guilty after that!
I was really really pissed with John's guai lan words!
I was really frustrated and pissed with myself that I screwed my English Essay writing test for Mrs Neo!
I was still not okay when choir started but was cracked up because of Mr Toh! :D
We totally did not have re-auditions for Dravidian on Friday! Yay~! :x

But nonetheless, I really hope 4D2 will still bond together as a whole class.
And really hope Mdm Fadillah is feeling much better!
It is really useless if only one hand cooperate while the other just stay motionless right?
What's the use of insulting/bitching/commenting about your classmates?
Is forgiving & forget/ saying sorry really such a arduous task for one to do?
Won't the world be a better place if everyone cooperates and bond together as a class? :(
Why is it that other classes are able to be so bonded as a class like ionic bonding and not our class? :\
It's our last year now, I'm sure we want to make the best of our last year right?
Even though many says our class is complicated and I totally agree, but I really still love 4D2'09!
The hilarious and lively classmates, caring teachers, clique, joker gang that were always there whenever I needed them. :)
I don't care what others say about our class, or even what our own classmates say about us, because I still love 4D2 no matter what! :D
Let's work together and go through the major exams in our lives, shall we? :)

`x estee x`

The many events of the events.

2009-02-18T23:10:00.006+08:00

It's the time of the year.
Tomorrow, will be the day TP01 commences.
All animators best of luck!

-

My life has been pretty much filled with school and school and school.
It's either studies, remedials, consultations, animation, sectionals or choir.
The "totally no life" life has started,
But yet it doesn't seem as bitter as i thought it will.
I'm really enjoying my last year in Dunman. :)

-

Choir auditions yesterday.
Xin Min, Joycelyn, Jing Yong, Eugene and I have been practicing as much as we could.
Last ~~minute~~day decision came Aunn Ning & Yun Hao. :)
I was practically shivering/shaking, but I did not get another audition.
But nevertheless, my group rock socks! :D
Verdict out - Friday.

After auditions, we were all chilled and much relaxed!
Slacked outside AVT, as usual.
Si En, Yi Yong and Yi Ge(hahahaha!) were practicing for their gig this coming Saturday!
I'm sure Rubberllica will do well~! Gambatte! :D
Do support them people!
Dined at T.Mart, walked home from there with Si En, Yi Ge and Jing Yong! :)
Xin Min walked home from another side. :)

-

Kathy and Delia were absent today.
Get well soon girls~! :)

-

Dionis haven't really been herself lately, I totally agree with Wai Yan.
But because of auditions and such, I haven't really been close to her eh?
I feel like I'm neglecting so many of my friends!
Christy, Iris, Judaxil... Kang Qi, Zerlina, Angie...!
I swear I haven't seen the last three mentioned for a really really long time! ):
But I'm happy that I am seeing Angie next wednesday! :D
She's accompanying me to KK, yeah KK again. :/
But I have Angie~! All will be well! :D

-

`x estee x`

<3

2009-02-14T22:16:00.004+08:00

Presenting the few of the important guys in my life, exclusive of my dearest joker and papa! :)
Bryan(Patient), KokLeong(LDC), Jerrold(Brotherrrr), Mark(Buddaye).
They stood by me most of the time when I fell.
They picked me up when I am down.
They listened to my woes, when I need a listening ear.
I actually took this photo from Buddaye quite a while back.
And I remembered when I came across this photo,
I had already had the intention to say so much.
But yet today, I came up with these few lines.
However so, I know our friendship will not end here.
Right guys? :)
Just a special thank you to all of ya!
Including Han Riffin bin Imran Han! :D
You're never forgotten okay!

`x estee x`

Hot & Cold.

2009-02-11T16:07:00.003+08:00

Dang, I am down with a major sore throat, cough and flu. :(
Experiencing hot & cold now, so not funny.

But anyway, Adam Khoo was totally sweet & sour.
Sat with/behind clique on the first day.
Second day sat with Med.
But she was sick so she went home after that.
Sat with MW ( lol, i keep pissing him off by claiming he love me so~! ).
Then after tea break? , sat with joker & gang, & for the third day too.

Closing Ceremony was nice cause Dad & Mum came!
Ya ya ya, I cried like there was no tomorrow.
Hahaha! But I wanna blog about this!
I am 95% sure that Dad was the only father who cried like :O ! :x

I love and totally appreciate that I belong to the Kho Family! :D
I love my family for being there!
I love my parents for understanding me better after AK! :)
I love my sister for cooking lunch for me today cause I'm sick! :D
I love my brother, for I don't know why.
I love Christy for being so concerned about me. ^^
I love Kathy & YY for sending my homework to me today. :)
& I just love Joker so stop asking me why! :D

Ok, I ought to stop cause I know there'll be no ending.
Right, it's 1618hrs now.
I should start on the pile of homework I have now.
Good day to Earth!

`x estee x`

You

2009-02-06T22:58:00.002+08:00

I seriously don't see your point of getting to this state.
I hate you, hate you for making me feel I screwed your life.

`x estee x`

True Friends...?

2009-02-04T21:00:00.004+08:00

Your reaction, your eyes.
If it was yesterday, I'm very sure I'll be screaming away like a lunatic.
But it happened today...

Dionis is right, it has always been there.
But we've just been avoiding the problem,
covering it up like nothing happened the previous day,
yet the hurt inflicted stays there all day, all night.

I know every friendship has their ups and downs,
I thought we could actually handle it pretty well.
But only till today, I realised because it was all just a pretence.
We know that the problem still exists,
yet we chose to run away and avoid closing up the problem.
Thus, we came to this point, whereby we are drifting.
It doesn't seem like it at all right?
But it is the actual fact.

Till now, I'm still wondering if you all really knew
that I'm really that soft-hearted,
that just by acting like nothing happened,
the problem/cold war will just go
away...disappear into thin air.

Estee is sad, really sad - all of a sudden.

`x estee x`

-

2009-02-01T21:39:00.002+08:00

Even the strongest girl has her weakest moments, do you know boy?

`x estee x`

What if?

2009-01-31T01:53:00.001+08:00

What if, I say I want to leave silently?

`x estee x`

Hot & Cold

2009-01-30T23:47:00.002+08:00

I really wish I was in Paris nowwwww!
...On second thoughts, I think I'm uploading all my photos on FB!

You're hot then you're cold, you're yes then you're no, you're in and you're out, you're up and down.

`x estee x`

CNY.Eve :D

2009-01-25T16:24:00.003+08:00

It's Chinese New Year Eve! :D
Right, watched Transformers last night on DVD! :)
Hahaha, first time use daddy's computer to blog.
Okay, not really exactly new.
New cause it's a new big screen,
and thus it is like so so cool! :P

hahahaha, okok.
Oh, woke up at 1145hrs today and headed to Mama's house to pass her the hamper.
Ate at 201 Afghanistan Restaurant. o.o
yeah, then home sweet home!

Oh well, Happy Chinese New Year's Eve everyone'! :D

`x estee x`

OMG! :O

2009-01-23T19:07:00.002+08:00

These few days have been total madness.
Within a week,
I scolded CL fuck you,
I shouted at a very very close friend of mine during P.E ): ,
I shouted at CL, again.
Seriously, I don't like people to betray my trust.
If I say I trust you, I really do.
So don't do anything stupid to break my trust!
But all has past now, but still very disappointed with CL. >:(

Oh oh oh ya~ oh my godddddddddd!
DID I MENTION, I LOVEEEE 4D2 TO THE BITS LAH! :D
WE ARE SO FREAKING BONDED, AS COMPARED TO LAST YEAR LAH!
HAHAHAHA, I AM SO HAPPY! ^.^
OH MY GODDDDDDD~ I THINK I AM NOT IN THE STATE OF BLOGGING NOW ._.
PHOTOS PHOTOS? YES YES! ^.^

`x estee x`

A Lost Friend ):

2009-01-18T22:54:00.002+08:00

Dear estee,
thanks a lot! 14 February 2007! Happy Valentine's Day! Okays, celebrate
with your friends alrites! xD Thanks for always being there for me whenever I
needed you! Really glad to have you as a part of the family tree <3

Hahaha! Guess what! I emo-ed over this for 10 mins! ): Irissss~

`x estee x`

seven minutes, thirty-five seconds of love.

2009-01-18T18:01:00.001+08:00

seven minutes, thirty-five seconds of love.

`x estee x`

Happy happy happy! :D

2009-01-18T16:02:00.003+08:00

I am happy happy happy :D because:

I went to Bugis Junction and Vivo City yesterday and shopped my lungs out!
I bought 2 tops and 1 bottom for CNY from Outfitter Girls yesterday!
I really really loveee the red/black ~~polka dot~~checkered top that I bought cause it reminds me of my childhood dresses!
I also bought a green casual top from Esprit/EDC!
Oh, I forgot to mention this. The other top from Outfitter Girls is the same green as the top I bought from Esprit/EDC! :D
I ate Pastamania's Banana Dessert Pizza for lunch yesterday!
I managed to catch the really nice and pretty scenic view of the night sky at Vivo's highest floor!I really agree with Brother that it is really romantic there! I wish.. I wish..! :)

He made me realise what is love at first sight, you made me realise what is love.

`x estee x`

Physical & Mental Distraught

2009-01-14T22:27:00.006+08:00

I'm getting fragile and frailer now.
Mentally & physically.

Don't know why, why am i not and looking forward onto Monday.
19 Jan 09, judgement day.
Operation - Yes, No?
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I am all down and worn out.
I am broken, because the shriek has reach to an extreme.
An extreme of don't know why, don't know how.

Love - Paternal love.
Is it really that important to me?
So why do I always respond in this manner,
if it doesn't bothers me?
My heartfelt words - yet who understands?
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I realised, I dislike people who tries to act like they know me and understand how I feel...

`x estee x`

From Alto to Soprano.

2009-01-10T13:27:00.005+08:00

Okay, I really don't know why I still can't get over the fact that I'm in Soprano now.
I mean, it's cool, really.
But as cause I've been singing Alto ever since I stepped in DmnChoir,
therefore explains the blank state.
But at the same time, I think it's because the nostalgic moments that Altos shared and bonded,
make me feel... sad?

I still remember the day when I first step into my first sectionals,
Winnie, Jie Ling and Amy were my first SLs,
and they welcomed me happily. :D
Then my first year of choir wasn't really much as I did not participate in SYF and the Europe Tour'07.
But came Sec Three, I suddenly bloomed from that muffled girl to a person who practically blast her voice now.
Then there was "I Believe" concert, St.Regis Hotel Performance on my birthday, Speech Day, Interact Club Installation Performance, and Dunman's 45th Anniversary!

Yeah, the the next batch of SLs,
Kang Qi, Shermaine, Leon!
Then there was Nisya, Judaxil and Sheri!

I think I should be getting over it pretty soon.
Beautiful memories are etched deep within the heart. :)
Right, gambatte Estee Kho Xiao Juan! :D

`x estee x`

Change?

2009-01-05T22:29:00.002+08:00

Today, I almost opened my damn mouth to scold a close friend of mine 'fuck you'.
Wow, I think this is so scary.
Estee Kho is changing,
It's difficult to remain calm and compose like last time.
It's tedious to keep giving in all the time.
It's hard to believe that I'm changing,
and I totally do not want that to happen.
Cause I know what the outcome will jolly well be,
A Bitch.

`x estee x`

Choir auditions.

2009-01-05T22:25:00.003+08:00

Wow, lots of things happened today.
Choir auditions.
Took 1F with Jing Yong.
Even though I had to shout to communicate with them,
cause they complained i was soft[?!],
I'm still content that they brought me laughter this afternoon.
Thanks Ya Kai for accompanying me while that Jing Yong keep leaving classroom,
to look for chio bus'.
It was nice seeing Jerrold and the rest.

`x estee x`

Humans

2009-01-04T03:02:00.001+08:00

Human nature, human reaction, human behaviour.
I am sick and tired of all this shit.

`x estee x`

:/

2009-01-04T01:53:00.001+08:00

It actually shows how much you care.

`x estee x`

Tonight - FM Static

2009-01-03T00:03:00.001+08:00

I remember the times we spent together
On those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together
Were not enough
And I used to feel like dreamin'
Except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait

I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus
And how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad
Sometimes not having you here
I sing

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight...

`x estee x`

Choir Farewell ' 08

2009-01-02T16:02:00.006+08:00

`x estee x`

Back to School! :D

2009-01-02T15:18:00.002+08:00

Goodbye 2008 and Hello 2009! :D
Okay, first day of school today!
I felt like I didn't even sleep at all. o.o
haha! But oh well, it wasn't what I expected.
I swear it was really weird okay!
Like you don't get to sec the '08 batch. -.-
I always get this feeling lor!
Last year like that, this year also like that. ):

But yeah, it's nice going back to school! :D
I wanna studyyyy! :)
& I think our new classroom is really cooooool!
Oh and I am so so happy today!
MING WHEE, MUAHAHAHAHAH!
I was telling him to watch out during one of our conversation during the holidays!
YAY, now he's the Chairperson & Shi Hui's the Vice-Chair!
Then Yi Jia is welfare and Samantha is Resource! :D
I believe in you peopleeee!

Haha! Oh yep, photos next post! ;)

`x estee x`

One day more.

2008-12-31T16:20:00.003+08:00

It's the last day of 2008, :O!
Time really flies!
Blog-hopped and read lots of End of Year messages.
Jing Yong's blog made me emo can. :/

Supposedly, I thought of writing a whole year of events,
but I feel so sad to do so now. :(
3D2'08 was a special class.
Even if so many people hate/disliked our clique.
But I still had a lot of fun knowing new people! :D
I remember I went for the first day of school and missed the next few days cause I was ill.
Then IPW changed my whole new circle of friends, from them to them! :D

First half of the year was nice with the five of us.
Xin Jie was my nice nice partner, then changed to Desmond.
Haha! Oh, Jing Yu almost had to sit between me and Xin Jie.
Then Richard, Dionis and Jing Yu was behind us when Desmond and Medeline came to join me at the first row! :D
Haaa! The whole day the front row of us will just keep laughing at how Dionis quarrel with Jing Yu and Richard!
有电视看了! Medeline! Hah! :D

Then second half of the year,
Mdm Tan was assigned to be our form and A math teacher. :)
Then I sat in between Titus and Justin at the second row, haha!
EEFC™ ftw! :)
Huang Jie?, Jing Yu, Yu Ying was in front.
While Kathy, Desmond and Gordon at the back.
Then Yi Jia couldn't see from behind,
so Jing Yu decided to switch with her.

Titus was a great partner, and a really good friend!
All the talks on the phone and hanging out!
After all this time, he's always been standing by me as a good friend! ^^
Gordon always make me laugh! :D
CL, CL, CL! :P
& Desmond, needless to say! :)

Clique! Clique! :)
Delia, Kathy, Wai Yan, Yi Jia, Yu Ying! x3
My oh my, especially Kathy & Yu Ying!
We've been through our ups & downs,
many misunderstandings arised,
we had our share of being too sensitive and feeling left out within ourselves,
but we will always end up taking the cool way. :)
But I'd sincerely like to thank you both,
for having been by my side this whole year! :D

Christy, Angel!
I really owe you a lot a lot, till I don't even know what to say.
I'm sorry for always being so occupied and not spend enough time with you!
But even though, you're always sending me smses that really brighten up my day.
At least I know, you care and I really appreciate it girl! :)

Mark, Buddayee!
Tian ah, I've so much to thank you for!
Thanks for always being there during choir and sometimes after school! :)
Haha! Talk about how we know each other!
Through smsing at first about the geography trip last year!
We were smsing each other from that early morning of 5am till we reached the courseway! :O
I really appreciate all that you've done for me okay! :)

Teresa, Boyfriend!
Okay, to put it simply,
You rock so much boyfriend!
Even though you always tease me about *er hem* and I always tease you with Dexter,
but you know I always love you! :D
Thanks for always cheering me up and making me laugh!
Many many loves!

Debbie,Georgina, Iris, Joycelyn, Judaxil, Eugene,Jing Yong, Leon, Wei Chong.
I think I've bonded real lots with these people during the Sec 3 dance! :D
You people know you rock so much!
And thank you Iris, Eugene and Wei Chong for the very sweet Christmas present!
Shall post about that again, with the photos on farewell! :D
But really, you people rock real lots!

Then moving on to a group of friend that I really wish to avoid talking about,
cause I'll seriously cry for days and nights missing them.
Yes. Riffin, Kang Qi, Bryan, Tracy, Jerrold, Kok Leong, Tuan Boon.
Okay, I'm so not prepared to write anything yet.
Let's just wait for the right moment k? :/

`x estee x`

<3

2008-12-27T22:11:00.002+08:00

You don't know how much I missed you, boy.

`x estee x`

quiz!

2008-12-27T20:13:00.002+08:00

Haha! I did this quiz last year june and now I re-did it again! :D

You Are An Invisible Ex

You're so over your ex, you hardly even remember you have an ex.

You prefer leave all of the baggage behind you - far, far behind.

As they say, indifference is the opposite of love!

What Type of Ex Are You?

:D Yeah, we rock, patient!

`x estee x`

Get well soon! :)

2008-12-26T20:41:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 1plus, and oh my school's starting next friday?!
Don't understand why there are weird people like Teresa & Jordy counting down to school reopening. ._.
But oh well, a math-ed with Delia today! :D
We did Partial Fractions, Trigo proving and Polynomials today, teehee! :P
& OH YA, SERA GOH GET WELL SOON OKAY! :O
Oh oh, JORDY LIM TOO! :O

My oh my, school's starting yet so many people is down with the common illness! :O
But get well soon peopleee! :D
& yep me, get well soon! :)

`x estee x`

Merry X'mas & Happy B'day Celia! <3

2008-12-26T00:52:00.004+08:00

Tis' the season to be jolly, falalalalalalalala :)

X'mas eve night was truly a silent night.
I did not start speaking a single word after 8pm.
Anger, sorrow, vexation, resentment, bitter, forlorn...
But nevertheless, i'll always return back to normal after a day/night.
So I woke up this afternoon around 12plus 1 and felt much better. :)

Sorry joker for spamming all the vulgarities to you. :/
But yeah this christmas was pretty okay! :D
I received many many yupi gummies and a $10 Takashimaya voucher! :D
Heh, and I also won the lucky draw prize,
which is a really cute massager stick! :)

Haha, further updates later! ;)
Off to have a nice warm bath and sweet sweet dream, nightsy! :D

Happy Birthday Celia Koh! x3

`x estee x`

Joy & Sorrow !

2008-12-24T15:40:00.003+08:00

I am happy :D because :
- I do not have to spend my Christmas at the hospital.
- I passed my E Math provisional exams which is a very good score to me and am promoted to Sec 4 Express.
- I bought the black flats/pumps that I wanted from DMK.(YAY DEBBIE! ^^)

I am sad :( because :
- I lost a lot of blood yesterday.( Ok, riffin says our body has a lot of blood, but even though the small tube of blood they took was enough for me to just dislike the fact that I am losing my blood.)
- I have to take anti-biotics for one week and have to go back to the hospital in three weeks time.( I get to skip school on that day! But I'm not looking forward to go back!)
- If the lump doesn't shrink, I have to go for surgery!( :O Oh my god, *faints*!)
- It's just like back to three years ago, but this time, it's worst. :/

`x estee x`

KK :/

2008-12-23T14:55:00.002+08:00

GG! :/
Hospitals are scary :(

`x estee x`

Maybe...

2008-12-22T23:29:00.004+08:00

I keep telling myself,
maybe it isn't what I think it is,
maybe there's a reason why this is happening.
maybe he can explain what's happening...

~~But why not,~~
it actually is happening,
it just isn't like before,
it just, faded...
Cause we're inseparable, baby :)

`x estee x`

Hodgkin's lymphoma?

2008-12-22T12:46:00.004+08:00

Last night, I kept pondering over the lump on my neck.
It brought me back to three years ago, when a similar lump appeared on my neck, slightly beneath my head.
But one thing different about three years back and now, it's that I'm feeling a very strong pain now as compared to the other.
It's supposedly even more wrong if no pain was felt, but now I'm feeling even more wrong when there's an acute pain felt.
Blood tests, biopsy, CT scans...
I closed my eyes, fear overwhelmed...

I remembered that I needed to call someone important back,
but I did not...

`x estee x`

W980 :)

2008-12-19T23:27:00.003+08:00

I've changed my phone, my number, and am not available to be contacted now.
Anything important, please call my house phone if you know.
But if you don't, I'm sorry.

`x estee x`

-

2008-12-15T18:35:00.002+08:00

:/ I'm hoping to get through this on my own.

`x estee x`

-

2008-12-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

How do you recover from msn-phobia? :/

`x estee x`

-

2008-12-13T21:24:00.002+08:00

Hahaaaaaaaaa, i went online and realised that i can't face the pressure.
It's just so weird, msn suddenly becomes a thing that i fear.
I fear this pressure of signing in to msn.
I think I'm suffering from msn-phobia.
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Woke up in the morning, eyes felt real sore.
Tried to put my contacts in, but it was so sore that it could barely be opened.
Dota can really suck at times, I swear.
It's the roots of all problems.
Whatever I felt/am feeling was started by Dota.
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
It sucks trying to put up a strong front, when it's the opposite feeling deep down.

`x estee x`

FAILURE

2008-12-12T01:10:00.001+08:00

SHIT YOU SHIT YOU SHIT YOU,
you fail as a father totally.

`x estee x`

GET A LIFE .

2008-12-12T00:00:00.003+08:00

I know I've been far away for far too long...!
But nothing much has been happening anyway.
It's been raining these few days and it's always at the same timing!

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
oh~~fuck~~, stop thinking too much will you.
it's not what you think it is,
and i do not want to bother explaining.
let's just say the whole thing was about me being disappointed with your attitude/behaviour.
and tyvm for making me scold vulgarities again,
when i haven't been saying it for so long ever since the dawn of sunday.

`x estee x`

:/

2008-12-07T00:24:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wish this song will just ring on my phone instead.
I don't know why this feeling is back again.

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.
- Courtney Kuchta -

`x estee x`

18cousinschalet'08

2008-12-07T00:15:00.002+08:00

And I'll be away today till tomorrow for The 18 cousins chalet '08! :)

Action speaks louder than words you know.
What do you think if I have to get by the days of just idling around or studying?
Nothing seems to be the same like the near past,
when the everyday routine just disappear every minute, every hour.
You'll feel that nothing is happening,
because it's just not that important to you, isn't it?

`x estee x`

D.O.N.D

2008-12-06T00:11:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD, IF ONLY THAT REALLY HAPPENED IN REAL LIFE! :D
haha, go ahead and have a trial :)

Deal or No Deal 2

Click here to play this game

`x estee x`

HELLO & BYE :D

2008-12-05T00:51:00.002+08:00

YO, YO, YO, YO.
It's one in the morning! :)
And I can't get to sleep cause I'm waiting for something,
which I don't know what, LOL.

But yeah, forgot to update about yesterday!
Headed to Paya Lebar in the morning by 21 to Galaxy (Miss Koh's Condo). :D
Geography consultation has been really fruitful with Miss Koh.
Afterwhich, train-ed back to Tampines to meet Papa at KFC.
Saw the sec one's/two's basses, hahahaha!
And I was avoiding one of them,
who obviously don't know I'm avoiding him!
HAH! Cause that stupid Han Riffin screwed me by not telling that boy the truth!
But oh whatever! :P
Yeah, then Shaun came in and he was tempted by Riffin to eat KFC. ._.
Riffin is such a BAD BAD BAD influence.
HAIYOOOOO.

Hur hur hur, okay that's all.
BYE BYE :)
Gonna play hard now.
Then maybe later slack around.
It's nice to roam about in the early morning/late night. :D

`x estee x`

Quiz by Delia :)

2008-12-04T17:41:00.002+08:00

Quiz by : Delia :D
Starting Time: 5.42pm
Name: Kho Xiao Juan Estee
Shoe Size: 5
Height: 158cm ! :/
Where do you live: Tampines
Favourite Drinks: Iced Lemon Tea, Raspberry/Oreo Chocolate Ice Blend, Champange Grape Red Tea

Have you ever ---

Been on a plane:♥ Yep.

Fallen asleep at school:♥ Once in Sec One! Mr Gan's lesson! :P

Broken someone's heart:♥ Yes :/

Fell of your chair:♥ OH MY GOD, YES! ._.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:♥ Not exactly all night, till 3 plus 4am? :D

Saved e-mails:♥ Yes.

What is your room like:♥ I don't have a room of my own :/

The last thing you ate:♥ KFC O.R Fillet Burger Meal, change whipped potato to cheese fries, drink Mountain Dew.

Ever had chickenpox:♥ Yes & No. Half-developed.

Ever had Sore throat:♥ Totally.

Broken nose: ♥ No.

Do you believe in love at first sight:♥ Yes.

Like picnics:♥ Yep.

Who was the last person---you danced with:♥ Jie Yi.

Last person made you smile:♥ Riffin or Jerome?

You last yelled at:♥ Sister

Today did you ---

Talk to someone you like:♥ Sad to say, No. :/

Kiss anyone:♥ No, I still have my first kiss. :)

Sick:♥ Absolute well and healthy. :)

Talk to an ex:♥ No.

Miss someone:♥ Yes.

Eat:♥ Yep.

Best feeling in the world:♥ To be loved :D

Do you sleep with stuffed animals:♥ For now, Tatty.

What's under your bed:♥ Floor

Who do you really hate:♥ Not to the extend of hate.

What time is it now?:♥ 5.52pm

Random ---

Is there a person who is on your mind now:♥ Yes.

Do you have any siblings:♥ One elder sis & elder bro.

Do you want children:♥ I love kids :)

Do you smile often:♥ Average.

Do you like your handwriting:♥ Neutral.

Are your toenails painted:♥ Nope.

Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in:♥ Parents's.

What colour shirt are you wearing now:♥ Black with Green Cardigan :)

What were you doing at 7pm yesterday:♥ Playing Dota?

I can't wait till:♥ After O'levels next year. :x

Are you a friendly person:♥ Yep :P

Do you have any pets:♥ :/ Pepsi died when I was really young. (Pepsi is my pet dog in Tj.Balai)

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: ♥ At home, playing dota.

Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you:♥ Jie Yi? One of the best cousin :D

Do you sleep with the TV on:♥ Less than five times. :x

Have you ever crawled through a window:♥ Climbed through, totally.

Are you too forgiving?: ♥ I admit I'm too soft-hearted, and I just tend to forgive and forget.

Are you closer to your mother or your father?♥ Mother.

Who was the last person you cried in front of?♥ Jerome Kho.

How many people can you say you really loved?♥ Two. (Don't include family)

Do you eat healthy?♥ No. :x

Do you still have pictures of you and your ex?♥ Hur, apparently we never took a single picture. :x

Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?♥ YES ):

If you're having a bad day, who will you most likely go to?♥ First my bed, pipi & bobo. Then either SP-husband or Papa or Patient.

Are you loud or quiet most of the time?:♥ Neutral :p

Are you confident:♥ No, really LOW-self esteem ):

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:

♥ Sleeping .

♥ Watching Cartoons.

♥ Spending my holidays at Tj.Balai.

♥ Dancing.

♥ In Kindergarten

5 things on my to-do list today:

♥ Study.

♥ Blog.

♥ TV: Don't forget the lyrics & The little Nyonya & Forensic Heroes.

♥ Conference meeting with F&B Dept for Choir Farewell.

♥ Final Proposal for F&B Dept for 18 cousins chalet.

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:

♥ Donate 1/2 to charities.

♥ 1/4 to parents and siblings.

♥ Go on a trip to Paris.

♥ Set up an Animation Company when I grow up.

♥ Use it for the rest of my lives.

5 of my bad habits:

♥ Tickle my bolster.

♥ I don't know.

♥ I don't know.

♥ I don't know.

♥ I don't know.

5 places I lived in:

♥ Tampines

♥ Bishan

♥ Tj Balai

♥ Jakarta

♥ -

5 jobs I've had:♥ None. :/

Tag 8 people to do this quiz:

♥ Anyone

`x estee x`

Quiz by Teresa :)

2008-12-04T17:20:00.002+08:00

1) My friends ; will always be there for me when I need them :D
2) Im listening to; Everytime We Touch by Cascada ♥
3) Maybe i should learn; to accept reality :/
4) I love; my family , my SP-husband , boyfriend , family tree(papa,sis&bros&patient&BCP&LDC)
5) My plan; to plan a surprise for someone :P
6) I dont understand; why are more and more people emo-ing :(
7) I lost; friends who were once very close
8) People say; I'm crazy, emo(so not true for now ._.), DUMB.
9) I'm missing; all the people that I miss (you know who you all are!)
10) Love means; Unexplainable.
11 Somewhere, someone is; living his/her life to the fullest I hope :D
12) I'm always searching for; the reason for my existence in this world
13) Forever seems; Impossible
14) I do not want to; hurt people's feelings
15) My mobile phone; is currently screwed :/
16) When i wake up in the morning; I never want to wake up immediately
17) I get annoyed when; things don't go the way it is supposed to be
18) Parties are; fun, high and crazy
20) Today i; had tuition/consultations with Miss Koh & Riffin :)
21) Tmr i will be; meeting Big'sissy for Chemistry :D
22) I really want; to see a certain someone
23) I miss; a certain someone a lot a lot and other people that I miss too
24) What is your phone brand?; Sony Ericsson
25) What's the last 3 digits of your num.?; 713
26) What does the second message in your inbox say?; Ok - Miss Koh :)
27) Who was the last person you rang?; Papa :)
28) Who was your last missed call from?; SP-husband :P
29) What does the oldest message in your inbox say?; LOL, don't need to report to me, hahas. But alright, i'll help you inform mentor. - Iris :D
30) Who comes after J?; Kang Qi :D
40) Go to your sent messages- see what the 10th message say.; Huh when siah? X.x - Yakai :D
41) Who is your network provider?; M1
42) How many messages are there in your inbox?; Ever since 24 Nov, too many to be counted :x
43) Who do you have on speed dial 3?; Daddy
44) If you're using prepaid card, how much credits do they have?; -
45) Who is the first person who comes after C?; The clever ones should know :P Oh & Deliaaa :)
46) What do you have as your main ringtone?; Just Dance
47) Pass this quiz to 10 ppl!

1. Anyone who wishes to do this quiz :)

FFX - To Zanarkand

2008-12-03T02:24:00.001+08:00

I am totally awed and mesmerized all thanks to Davin Yeo Shi Wen!

`x estee x`

011208 ; TKSS/MJC Choir Vivace 2008 @ Esplanade

2008-12-03T01:53:00.007+08:00

Vivace' 2008 was nice :) First time watching TK Choir Concert and I am astounded. Songs were great! Oh and April is definitely doing very well there as the Student Conductor! :D Photo taking was absolutely crazy after the concert. Before concert, shopped around Marina Square with Riffin and Wei Chong :) "Shopping Consultant of the Day". Met Iffah after her lessons and decided to watch 'Four Christmases'. Totally worth watching :D Riffin went to fetch Judaxil while Iffah, Wei Chong and me decided to shop for more presents. Ate Long John Silver for dinner with Judaxil :D After concert headed back to TM Mac for supper. Just drank a small coke and chat with the people. :D Caught the last bus home with Judaxil and Home Sweet Home :) Bathed, Talked on the phone for a while and 'Burnout' all the way to 2 plus 3am :P

`x estee x`

291108 ; Orchard Road

2008-12-02T20:28:00.005+08:00

Christmas shopping was nice with Aunt Dorothy, Celia and Cheryl. :)
And Bishan over the weekend was great and perfect.
At least I had company when I was there.
Even if the phone didn't rang when it was supposed to.

I feel I've been neglecting so many people out there. :/
YY & Kathy, Teresa, Mark, Christy, Kang Qi, etc...
If only I don't have to take the provisional test... :/
Grah, I need to study. ):

`x estee x`

YY & Kathy

2008-12-02T20:24:00.002+08:00

Just..... all of a sudden,
I feel so distant from YY & Kathy.
Wondering how've ya both been..
Haven't been using the comp...
Haven't been turning up at TMC these few days...
meet up soon kay girls? :/

`x estee x`

Nothing to say.

2008-11-30T23:04:00.000+08:00

I officially have nothing to say.

`x estee x`

Insomnia.

2008-11-29T04:26:00.004+08:00

It's five in the morning and I'm still wide awake...
Someone please tell me why I'm suffering from insomnia?
Haven't been feeling right since Wednesday.
There's just this empty feeling that I can't express.
Took a walk just now at 2200hrs cause I feel I can no longer suppress the emotion within.
Asked brother if he was hungry and gave an excuse to go out to buy something to eat for him.
I claimed I was hungry too, but it was just a claim.
Just needed a breather from this fatiguing period.

I've become so numb till the point that it does not matter anymore.

`x estee x`

Everytime We Touch <3

2008-11-28T18:51:00.002+08:00

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me
I still feel your touch in my dreams
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling
And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go
I want you in my life

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky
They wipe away tears that I cry
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all
You make me rise when I fall

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go
I want you in my life

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling
And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side

`x estee x`

Inspired

2008-11-28T02:06:00.004+08:00

It's two in the morning and I can't sleep!
And I need to wake up at 0830hrs to meet papa cause he's teaching me chem.
Then at 1300hrs there's e math consultation with Mr Wong.
But I really can't sleep, oh man. :/

In this peaceful time of the night,
led me on wondering the bewildering twilight.
The silent whispers stayed through all night,
only to mislead my remaining souls for the fight.

`x estee x`

Complain!

2008-11-27T17:32:00.003+08:00

Grah, I wanna complain about the NLB's Customer Service.
I called SBS Transit up to report my loss of ez-link card and the CS officer kindly checked if anyone returned to card even when I don't expect her to.
She even kindly reminded me to phone up the NLB so that no one will pick up my card and use it to borrow any library books.
Her service just so excellent.

But that stupid NLB CS officer had this sucky impatient attitude.
Wth? So this is how they treat their customers?
Instead of pitying my sorry plight,
she used that irritated tone.
How ironic can life be?

`x estee x`

I don't know?

2008-11-26T23:44:00.000+08:00

I don't know why I'm feeling sad all of a sudden.

`x estee x`

WHO SAYS CHOIR PEOPLE CAN'T DANCE? :D

2008-11-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

WHO SAYS CHOIR PEOPLE CAN'T DANCE? :D

Oh my god, I'm very sure the whole gang of us felt a really huge sense of achievement today!
We managed to complete the whole dance of 4 minutes within three sessions?
Beat that man! :P
But there's still a lot of space of improvisation so yeah we aren't just stopping here!
Hehe! Seriously I can't wait for Farewell!

Hopefully we won't disappoint our seniors!
I'm very sure it'll turn out just perfect! :D
Six whole hours of dance today was just fantabulous.

Okay, talking about farewell stirs up a lot of emotions within me.
Hello? We're talking about people like Big'sissy, Papa, LDC, Brotherrrr, BCP, Patient, Teddy Bear and so many more! :/
Oh but hehe, I saw teddy bear today! :D
Ah, I don't wanna emo!
So good night bloggy :)

依然想着你,你知道吗?

`x estee x`

231108 ; Tania's Farewell :D

2008-11-26T10:31:00.005+08:00

`x estee x`

16th Nov - 25 Nov

2008-11-26T00:27:00.005+08:00

I really can't believe I still can't find the time to blog even though it's the holidays! :/
How pathetic...!
But well oh well, life's been really fulfilling and great I suppose! :)
Choir has ceased from today till the 16th!
So I will be less busy from singing and more busy on my studies and the dance for farewell!
Immediately after Choir stopped and there's gonna be a date with Mr Wong tomorrow!
He's such a joker can!
Mr Tan caught sight of Iris and me dancing at the second level of the Indoor Sports Hall building from the basketball court and I immediately noticed that!
Hah! Obviously I stopped and went forth, saw Mr Wong. :)

Me: Mr Wong! You tomorrow freeeee?
Him: Tomorrow ah, why? You want to date me ah?
Me: Ya ya ya...

And then I'm having a date with him tomorrow morning at 9! :D
I am such a hardworking girl, like real!
Oh my god, I really don't deserve this chance cause I'm not even studying well for the tests! :/
Seeing Shaun putting so much effort, well at least it's a great improvement for him :D , makes me feel so guilty of myself!
Even though I've been consulting Mr Wong E Math, Miss Koh Geog, but I still have my Combined Sciences and Social Studies!
And A Math next year... :/ !
Big'sissy, Papa and Patient is helping me with Chem, EM/Phy & AM respectively!
Oh and today Iris offered to help me with my studies too!
I feel so touched by all their kindness to help me can! ):
I must really buck up and tune into the right attitude and mindset!

Right so I'm suppose to continue blogging what happened last week.
Recalling back real hard, this is a brief summary of last week...

Monday : Dance Practice in the morning, TMC a lil' while in the afternoon, Audition in the late afternoon/evening at MC.

Tuesday : E Math consultation and Choir in the afternoon! Didn't attend sectionals for E Math.

Wednesday : Sectionals in the morning, Dance Practice in the afternoon at Music Room...Great achievement - One minute of the song done! :D

Thursday : Geog tuition at Miss Koh's house in the morning then Home Sweet Home. Lost my wallet - don't know if I dropped it on the bus...but I remembered relatively well that I took it out from my flooded bag. =\

Friday : Sectionals in the morning, Choir in the afternoon - Sat in for choir was the lump thingy and ear was really painful, throat was pretty awful too :/ !

Saturday : Tania's Farewell party in the afternoon :D

Sunday : Studied Geog and did very very very lil'bit of E Math!

Yesterday was a day well-spent at ECP!
D'Leaders Seminar'08 was a once-in-a-lifetime experience man!
Sandcastle building in the morning, Seminar in the afternoon till evening at OBS Camp Site (ECP)
Oh my god, there isn't any OBS this year! ):
Thought it could be one camp that I can go, cause I never attended a camp in my entire life!
Not a single one...! :/
But yeah, I really had fun! No regrets man Buddaye! (;

Sectionals in the morning and Choir in the afternoon again!
White Horses is nice, but the difficulty level is enough to kill me!
Dance practice in the afternoon tomorrow, oops I mean later.
So yeah, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

It's been 13 days since I last saw you, and I wonder how have you been...imy.

`x estee x`

14th&15th & F*ed up.

2008-11-22T21:01:00.004+08:00

So I've been working on the Grad Day slide show for the Graduates of year 2008! :)
And on 14th November was the big big day and evening for them! :D
Had lots of fun with Buddaye at Prom Night '08!
Got to see beloved people like Big'Sissy, Papa, Prom King, BCP, LDC, Brotherrrr, Teddy Bear, etc.. all in their gowns/tux/suits! :D
They really look glam and hip!
"Pop Stars Go Red" was the theme of the night,
but not many cared about the theme I guess!
But what really mattered is that they enjoyed every bits and pieces of it!

Then on 15th Nov was Dunman's BIG BIG day! :)
Helped out at the Animation booth in the morning for the Open House for Sec One Enrollment next year! :D
Then lunch-ed with Sho, nice nice junior :D
Headed back to school for Farewell F&B meeting at 1pm!
Sectionals followed on at 3pm!
Then combined at 5.30pm at AVT!
Warm-ups and Mr Toh came.
Sang all the nice old songs....awwww nostalgic memories! ):
Nonono, no moodswing ! :D
Okay, so it was our time to storm the stage! :)
Performance was really well done! :D
Mac-ed after that with Sec Threes & Teresa, Viven and Sandra! :D

Okay, that's practically what happened on the 14th and 15th.
I was feeling like this - :D just now.
But now, it's this - :/ & >;(
Ha ha ha, & I'm reminded to blog about this:
ME & MY SILBINGS ARE DEAD! HA HA HA!

`x estee x`

BUSY BUSY BUSY!

2008-11-19T00:04:00.004+08:00

Oh my god, I feel so out from the blogging world! :/
Phone's been pretty crazy these days...
And I'm still pretty busy these days.

sec three meeting, farewell, consultations, studies, choir, sectionals...
I still haven't blog about prom, x.x
Oh and valerie, as you can see my phone's pretty screwed, so I'm sorry for making you freaked out...
I've left Mr Wong's no. on your msn so yeah.

Right, I need my sleep now.
Sectionals at 0930hrs tomorrow.
Lunch with WC, Han & Iffahhhh at 1230hrs?
Sec three meeting at 1430hrs.
I'm gonna survive. :)

hello beautiful, it's been a long time since I last saw you... & I miss you so.

`x estee x`

M.I.A

2008-11-16T20:15:00.002+08:00

Prom Night'08 was a blast!
More further details soon!

; Emath-ing! :)

`x estee x`

Mood Swings

2008-11-12T19:11:00.004+08:00

I feel tired all of a sudden.
I feel dumb all of a sudden.
I feel numb all of a sudden.
I feel a tinge of emo-ness all of a sudden.
.
.
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But all in time, I know you'll always be there when I need you.

`x estee x`

Katilyn Mayher :D

2008-11-12T16:45:00.001+08:00

*SCREAMS* OH MY GODDDDD!
ZERLINAAAAAA, SHE'S SO CUTEEEE! :D

`x estee x`