I'm confused.

are we still friends?

I'm alright now. (:

but weichong don't believe.

he say I go crazy.

but its like I'm REALLY okay le GUY.

don't worry.

I not so stupid can.

what for go CRAZY?

because of HIM?

then I not ESTEE KHO le.

hahas' ^^

I miss my Zerina LAOGONG and Richelle&Piriya CUTIES!

sighh' its SO boring here!

I wanna play basketball.

but no one accompany me. =/

so saddening.

can't play basketball le.

no one to play with.

should I or shoud I not go chalet tonight?

should I just go tomorrow?

I feel like I've many things left un-done.

many things to settle once and for all.

but it'll be impossible to settle it now. =/

i'm in a very stable state now.

so can we just get things done with once and for all?

or else, later I might just break down again.

Sighh' I am TIRED of breaking down again and again.

another thing.
If you mention that I'm another person's daughter again.
I'll make sure that something WILL happen.
and I am SURE that day will come.
So you wouldn't have to keep on suspecting that I am NOT your daughter anymore.

alone at home now.

again.

yes.

again.

that sucks.

there's nothing to do.

I am not as busy as last time.

at least there's still a friend that I could chat to.

but now I broke the friendship.

and I don't regret.

cause he's so much more happier without a burden like me.

so I should feel happy that he's happy.

is there anything that a PERSON can do?

the whole house is so quiet. =/

i want NOISE!

its DAMN freaking quiet now lahhs!

what's wrong with me?

keep on complaining when I know that nothing will happen to make it happen.

shut up ESTEE KHO.

DAMN!

what's the FREAKING hell problem with me?

I just can't stop typing.

I wanna stop.

I wanna STOP ALL THIS ONCE AND FOR ALL!

I'm supposed to be

HAPPY.

HAPPY.

HAPPY.

not

SAD.

SAD.

SAD.

chapterFOUR

I found lovely friends.

I found Santa too.

He asked me to be HAPPY.

and I am HAPPY.

but weichong says I'm faking and has gone crazy instead.

is it true santa?

I'm just following orders.

that's all.

I'm just being happy.

`x 'estee x`