Daily Update/ Books<3

April 30th!
And then 5th may till 19th may!
Luckily my sweet sixteen would be three days after that! :P
But "yay", Chinese O's 1st June!
How can we have a life?!

Anyway, today's been cool. :)
Animation did not turn out as bad as I thought!
But some problems cracked up when I tried to render.
Ahhh...! :/

Hanging out with Wai Yan today after Animation was cool! :D
Subway with Wai Yan, Si En~ and Yi Ge was way cooler!
Haha, Eugene! Stop pestering me with your question! :P
OH YA BUDDAYE, I HAVE AN ULTIMATE GAY PHOTO TO SHOW YOU! :O

And anyway, talking about Wai Yan,
I'm kinda worried about what happened after we departed! :0
Take care alrightsy!

After breaking away from that two lovebirds,
I decided to head over to the library to borrow back my Belle!
But to my utmost disappointment, :/ someone has loaned the book out!
But I still managed to get back Wild Orchid and found The Important of Being Married by Emma Townley! :D

Time to hit the books in another twenty! :)
Then a night call and sweet dreamsy! :D
AND JUN ANNN, YOU BETTER SLEEP EARLY AH! RAWR! C:

Studying with ANGEL at her house tomorrow!
Intensive studying! :D YIPEEEE!
I LOVE MY BOOKS, HAHAHA! =)

`x estee x`

Emoism!

It seems like everyone around me are in their "emoism" state now!
Bryan, Jun An, Dexter, Regan, Gordon(I know you are emo!), Iris?,etc.
My mood, too, has been plummeting up and down like a cosine graph.
Then you'll begin to see all the Chem terms and A Math formulae out.

Got back our A Math Mock Exam today.
Scored a 7. I expected it.
The first few moment, I was rather liberal about my result and had like been resigned to fate that my mock would score that bad.
I just don't understand how a person who has been getting F9 all the way,
will be able to get a A1 or even a B3 at O's. :/
Though it may seem like I'm much more free now after stepping down from Choir,
the pending work and revision that has been casted aside,
is an insurmountable amount of workload for me to catch up with! :/
Talk about politics, life's been so hectic.

But I'm just not going to resigned to fate and give up A Math,
or even other subjects like Physics or Geography.
My weakest link.
The problem about Geog is that my passion for it is as thin as my hair.
I just still prefer History! :/
But I've accepted my fate of taking these subjects,
so I must not give up.
I need a real boost of motivation again!

So long...!

`x estee x`

DmnChoir<3

Stepping down from choir, putting behind the memories that we all had gone through with each other,
it's really a tedious, impossible task to do.

I miss singing as an Alto,
I miss singing as a Soprano.
I miss singing together with the other sections as a Choir.
I miss my juniors.
I miss my seniors.
I miss my conductor, Mr Toh!
I miss my teachers, Miss Yeo, Ms Chin, Mdm Fadillah, Mdm Ng.
I miss Mrs Chan!
I miss the period whereby we had to restrain ourselves from the FORBIDDEN food.
I miss the fun we had singing with our audition groups.
I miss spending my Tuesday's and Friday's with choir.
I miss spending my other days for Sectionals.
I miss the basketball times.
I miss the dining at KFC times.
I miss the good old' songs that we used to sing.
I miss donning on the maroon gown.
I miss standing on stage, performing for my audience.
I miss Friday the 17th 2009.
I miss screaming/crying for joy upon receiving the results.
I miss every lil' bits and pieces of my Choir time.

`x estee x`

Airport, M.O.F

Ah...! I've got a heap of photos to update on Facebook but I'm not using the desktop now! ):
Omg, I owe Kang Qi, Michelle they all photos for Han's birthday,
Fish & Co. pics for WC's birthday celebration!
Oh my mama! :/

Oh well, studied with Judaxil at Airport in the afternoon just now ( Saturday! )!
Lol, surprise surprise!
Coincidentally, Gordon's cousin/ Iris's friend,
Godwin was there with his friends.
Lol, I don't know why I like to say Gordon's & Iris's! :x
HAHAHA! okay, there's really nothing about them!
I'm just crapping and zi-highing!
It's a good sign all right!
Past few days had been madness,
and I seriously mean MADNESS.

I don't understand why or what. It's back again?
Sec One's experience was a torture for the first two months.
I don't know why, and totally don't see any reason why it should be back again.
Anyway, I have a confession.
I earnestly hate that voice that keeps ringing in my head.
Perhaps you are the reason why I'm in this state.
I just never understand, why can't you provide me the same warmth
as a member of the family like others, to me.
When I see my friends having such a close,
sweet relationship with their member of the family, I feel sad.
You totally don't know what I need.
And I do not want to bother to patch this up.
I've had enough.
If you think you were right for saying all that you've said in the afternoon,
and not feel in the least bit remorseful,
you ought to reflect on yourself how much you've succeeded
as a member of the family to me.
Cause I know one thing for sure, you are not the best, yet.
I dislike you, I dislike hearing your voice.
It's a pain in my ear/head/brain.
And it is definitely rejecting you.

`x estee x`

WTF? O.O

Who would have ever thought right?
That I'd be shocked by your actions which I seriously deem as 'wtf?'.
This is seriously getting weirder and weirder each day.
It's like I'd find myself getting to know news about what's happening between you and her?
Like seriously, it's pissing me off that why do you have to be so secretive/mysterious?
If you really have nothing to hide, why even bother to avoid/hide?

I may be wrong, and I hope I am wrong.
Cause I really don't wish this to affect our friendship.
Four years, and ongoing...
Prove me wrong, will you?

`x estee x`

Realise / Only dearest you.

I realised:

I haven't been speaking in full sentences and thus my words sounded really wrong when I did not continue the sentence before.

I had been too insensitive towards your feelings on MSN yesterday.

I was a sucker to pick a fight with you even though it was actually a very minor issue.

I am feeling so damn shitty now that I really need to drown myself with best friend again.

When I meant you were the first I wanted to hug when the results were announced, I really mean it.

You had been the one who gave me all the strength I needed to persevere and go on for the past few months.

I am too dependent on you.

Cause if you jump I'll jump too, we'll fall together from the
building's ledge, never looking back at what we've done, we'll say it was love.
Cause I'd die for you, only dearest you.

`x estee x`

Congratulations DMN SEC! :D

Congratulations to Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Secondary School Modern Dance for attaining a Gold with Honours award too! :D
DmnChoir thank you! :)
hahaha! (:

I feel so heartwarming that dear dear cousin congratulated us though she don't know us as a whole. :)
KCPSS is like all the way at Bishan!
But we're like kinda affiliated in a way cause our Choir went to their school to perform last year or two years back! :)
Somehow or rather I heard that their conductor is a friend of Mr Toh. :D
We exchanged our performances at RI too few Fridays back!
But no idea how did their Choir performed.
Hopefully they may achieve what they wish to achieve! :)

Anyway, Chinese Dance SYF is on this Monday!
All the best Lock Lock! :D Hehehe!
And all the best to Guitar Ensemble & String Ensemble for their upcoming SYF too! :)
And congratulations to Band, Malay Dance and Drama? (Heard they went for their SYF already but not too sure about their results!) for their achievements! :D
And congrats!!! to Team Netball B' Division for attaining 3rd in Nationals! :D
We made Dunman and Mrs Neo proud! =)

`x estee x`

SYF'09 : GOLD WITH HONOURS! <3

That's right...! As mentioned on tag boards, and all the screamings at the AVT & Atrium, Dmnchoir was awarded
GOLD WITH HONOURS
for the second time...!
Thank you all Dmnchoir for making this last performance an unforgettable one for the Sec Four seniors. :)
We really appreciate your efforts for the past few months!
Continue to persevere and grow in Choir yeah?!
Love you all forever~! x3

I don't wanna emo now, cause I feel we should all be really be happy with our achievement! :D No no no emo talks okay juniors!

& Not to forget, Mr Toh, Miss Yeo, Ms Chin, Mdm Fadillah & Mdm Ng! :)
Thank you all for the endless support that you have provided for us! x3

`x estee x`

QUIZ!

Tagged by Deliaaaa...! :D

1. list 10 ppl whom you want to do this quiz:
- I
- Don't
- Give
- A
- Damn :x
- Just anyone who wants to do lah :)

2. your name:
Estee

3. your age:
15 going 16!

4. single/attached:
partially half, acceptable?
or not, single but have a mutal liking for someone. :)

5. five of your closest friend:
Riffin, Bryan, Iris, Titus, Gordon? for now. ._.
P.S YY&Kathy, I feel like we aren't that close now.
That kinda suck I guess? :/

6. your two favourite colours:
BUMBLE BEE! Yellow & Black! :D

7. storybook/comics:
Both. :)

8. do you have a crush?
What can I say?

9. has an unknown person asked you for your number before?
Yes.

10. if yes, did you give your number to the person who asked?
Nope.

11. name 2 girls:
Celia & Cheryl. (LOL)

12. name 2 guy friends:
Mark & Titus!
Gordon Sim & Han Riffin are gays :P

13. do you play online games?
Yes.

14. do you play maple story?
Can't believe this, used to.

15. do you play audition?
Nope.

16. fav numbers?
Anything that has a 4 in it!

17. fav alphabets?
D,B,E,S,T! :D lol, D. best!

18. hotmail url?
bubbles_kho@hotmail.com

19. would you rather go out with your stead or friends?
Depends.

20. do you trust your stead?
None now?

21. money or friends?
Friends.

22. stead or friends?
Depends on situation.

23. anime or drama?
Drama.

24. best girl:
Nobody at the moment.

25. best guy friend:
Riffin!

[QUIZ 2]
[x] Gotten detention.
[] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[] Gotten suspended.
[] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[] Gotten caught cheating on test.
Total : 1

[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times.
[] Turned at least 3 projects in late.
[] Missed school cause you feel like it.
[] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.
Total : 2

[ ] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw things across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.
Total : 4

[ ] Pulled down the Fire Alarm.
[x] Went on Myspace, Facebook etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours.
[x] Listened to iPod, CD, etc. during class
Total : 4

[ ] Threw something at the teacher.
[x] Went outside the class without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class test.
[x] Ate food during class.
Total : 4

[x] Gotten a call from school ( To know of my results, is that counted? )
[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school.
[ ] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[ ] Stuck up your middle finger at teacher when they were not looking.
[ ] Cursed curing class loud enough so the teacher could hear.
Total : 2

[] Faked your parents signature.
[x] Slept in class.
[ ] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[x] Copied homework.
Total : 2

Overall : 19multiply by 3=57 % life ruined!

OH.MY.GOD! :O

`x estee x`

April!

I'm still alive!
I guess it's almost quite impossible to update on a daily basis or whatsoever.
Just yesterday Huang Jie, Kenneth and I were talking about blogging and many more topics...
But I guess I still stick to my stand of blogging my daily happenings here cause it's the only way I can keep people like HAN RIFFIN updated.
Haha, my 'father' who is going to turn seventeen tomorrow,
are you reading this? :D

Okay, SYF is amazingly, miraculously happening in 8 more days!
Gambatte choristers!
We've been through this 4 months and we know we really want to give our very best for our juniors, SLs, seniors, teachers, Mr Toh, and most importantly, ourselves.
There have been a lot of prep talks by Sls and teachers,
and it's these motivation and prep talks that are constantly driving us to know what we really want for ourselves.
8 more days to SYF, also means 8 days left being a Dmn Choir member.
The thought of it really devitalise me. :/
Singing is like a passion, and though it's been tiring, deep down I know that this is what I want and what I love.
Oh, I shall also take this chance to say sorry to YY, Kathy and Yi Jia for ranting this two days how tired I am, especially yesterday!

Anyway, I really didn't feel like running 2.4km yesterday and my wish came true! :D
And I got to play my favourite P.E sport, Tchoukball! :D
Three cheers~ it's funny as usual!
With jokes like CL's aiming, Jordy's balancing? and keep blocking me from taking the ball!
Ying Heng was exceptionally weird and retarded yesterday, sorry Delia! :x
Haha, it's like oh my god!
Let's just say people who played Tchoukball yesterday would know!

Hmm, recalling what happened last evening, I really wanna laugh at the message I sent to joker!
Okay, I was really really tired enough, then Daddy had to be frustrated last night over the politics at work.
When Dad is frustrated, he drives, he speeds, and then his daughter, me, can't withstand the speed, feels like she can really fly off her seat, and feels like vommiting and get out of the car!
But hey joker, I mean what I say in that sms okay!
And thinking about just summarising a 10-page sms to one sentence, can really make me laugh my ass off!
If like that, I confirm 死的不瞑目 lah!
Hahaha!

Woah, I feel old already.
Just sitting in front of the comp for 45 minutes and my shoulder & back is already aching. ._.
Okay, maybe I shall just blog later or tomorrow! :)
Gotta revise scores! Toodles~!

`x estee x`