IKEA}COURTS / Tracy<3 .

what hurts the most, was being so close.

`x estee x`

第一次 .

I was reading through my chinese file, wanting to study chinese in this early bright morning at 10am.
I read through the lousy compositions I wrote and came across this composition that brought back a lil' nostalgic moments.
I don't remember writing that composition at all, and so when I was reading through, I was smiling at the things that I wrote, heh :P
Right, so here goes! :)

第一次

人生的一生中有许多的第一次，其结果是多样的，其感受也是丰富的。不管成功与否，第一次都会给人留下深刻的印象。在许多的第一次中，留下最深刻的印象就是在中学遇见了第一位好朋友，韩立彬。想不到我这一身的第一个好朋友会是一个男的。好朋友，多多少少每个人都有，但立彬肯定比一般人认为好朋友得更好。当我有困难时，立彬也将会是第一个安慰我的人。他能说是带给我很多第一次的感受。还记得有一次，我病倒了。到了门口又没人在家。由于我忘了带锁匙，所以只好气呼呼的在家外等。立彬知道了这件事，就想也没想的到他家的购物市场买了退烧药给我，然后才急冲冲得到我家门口送我药。我感动到无话可说，他也这样的投了我第一次感动而流泪的第一次。能够有立彬这个朋友，我很感谢上帝。不只偷了我感动而流泪的第一次，还偷了我伤心哭泣的第一次。因为了这一位他所认定的真命天女，造成了我们离别。但是，是在不久以前才刚好复合得着一片友情，永远是我这一生中最珍惜的第一次好友情。

*ohmymama, why didn't anyone tell me about all the wrong words?! - 12 Oct '08*

`x estee x`

Perhaps sometimes the truth hurts,
But it is definitely better to tell me straight than keeping it from me.
Because I'm definitely one girl, that is able to take the truth well.

But I don't wanna think about this now, cause final years is really what my concentration and heart is in now.

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I'm sorry. But I seriously think I want to get this over.

`x estee x`

Yet again,

The time has come yet again, for another post of my deepest thoughts dearest blog. :)

Trust is by most one of the key factor in a friendship/relationship.
Trust between friendships is definitely one of the vital factor between friends.
If you even trust your friend, won't it make sense for you to understand the things and words they do and speak?

Sometimes, unknowingly, one may not realise that the actions they are portraying makes you feel really uncomfortable.
But if you even trust your friend, you shouldn't suspect or even worst still, assume the reasons behind it.
At times, reasons are non-existent for certain matters.

Love, is just one example.
You love someone for who they are, and not for any practical reason.
There's no particular reason of why, and I happen to realise that just recently.

Life is really a great wonder, but it's a really simple matter to be curtly put across.
People tend to complicate matters, but simplicity is truly the whole matter.
It is really no wonder why reality is such a shag at times.
Why're people even procrastinating?
It's just reality, which really is a drag too!

`x estee x`

Prata mates / Time-Table

Prata-mates that laugh our asses off. :)



DumbDumb! , That tatty! :D

I should be away for a long study break! :)
After school :
1405-1600hrs ; Lunch, Slack, *Shower!
1600-1900hrs ; Sleep!
1900-2000hrs ; TV! *Dinner
2000-2100hrs ; *Dinner *Shower!
2100-0100hrs ; Studyyyyyyyyyy!

:D

* Tentative

`x estee x`

King Kong

It's the last day of holidays!
And all my homework are just half-done! :/
Its already 2012hrs please.
But I woke up at 1400hrs today =x ,
so it will be a late night I guess.

Off to watch King Kong & do my unfinished work at the same time!
School tomorrow, don't know why,
I can't wait! ^.^

`x estee x`

Love, Me.

Collin Raye - Love, Me
I read a note my grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said," Boy you might not understand, but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet, and run away together
Get married in the first towm we come to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
i found this letter and this is what it said

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores all through, I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down, Darling wait and see
And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you..love me

I read those words just hours before my grandma passed aways
In the doorway of a church where me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said those words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores all through, I don't know how long I'll be
And i'm not gonna let you down, Darling wait and see
But between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you..love me

Between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you... love me

`x estee x`

Andrel & Darren <3

`x estee x`

Last Night.

Time really past real fast.
It's gonna be the last day of the holidays in a few hours time.
This whole week was spent mostly at the hospital and then the wake and funeral.
So much happened within just a week.
Andre's hospitalised, demise, etc.

Today was an extremely lengthy day.
But it is also the last day/night of the whole funeral.
There were many process that we had to go through,
before sending the body to Mandai Cremation Centre.

I am too tired to explain further I guess.
Shall continue another day or something. x.x
Pictures of my two beloved nephews next post. :]

`x estee x`

My dearest SuperMan <3

Nothing much happened in the day.

Managed to spend around 2 hours or so doing up the PowerPoint slide for IPW. :/

Its so intriguing and taxing to spend so long doing a PowerPoint. x.x

Later in the evening, left house around 1850hrs.

Fetched mommy from office, then headed down to HarbourFront to fetch 大姑丈.

Moved on to the wake.

This night managed to see XunXun and YaoYao. :)

Apart from eating, my whole time was spent looking after that superman & his brother. :D

My time as an 姨姨 with my beloved nephews.

Around 10, YaoYao was tired thus I brought them up with 玲姐 & brother.

After changing their clothes and getting them ready for bedtime, 玲姐 headed down again, leaving me and brother to take care of the two 小瓜.

Hectic it may seem, but it's pretty enjoyable. :)

The most touching part, once again, was that my superman cried when I said I had to go.

Awww, it made my heart melt, again.

The previous days when I spent my time with him,

He had the same reaction too, but not so much to the extent of a loud wail!

Till now, I'm still pretty worried if he's getting on fine.
But I guess he should be sleeping soundly now I guess. ^^

Oh ya, I made a pledge, to hereby visit my dearest newphews and of course 玲姐 at least once every month! :)
It's just taking a lil' ride down the MRT to Tiong Bahru. :D

& you, my dearest blog, shall be the one to witness my pledge to them. :)

Baby, the situation's driving me crazaye.

`x estee x`

First Night.

Woke up around 11 plus 12 by someone. =x
Talked, then after that tried to do Geography but, ya know' :/.
But I managed to clean up the kitchen area!
Sense of accomplishment worrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. :P

Cooked my own lunch while the other two was still sleeping away. -.-
Used the comp after that then tv-ed!
*Oh my god, I feel so slack* :/
Prepared and headed to fetch mummy, then to the wake.

We all accepted the true reality.
Is all part and parcel of life, so we shouldn't be brooding so much about it.
This way, I'm sure Andre kor kor will be able to leave with no worries. :)

`x estee x`

Heartfelt Words ;

There's just so much to say,
but I don't even know where to start from.
All these days of waiting, and finally there's an answer.
The emotion was too much of a blow to everyone,
we all cried, we all smiled,
to know that your struggle ends here, Andre.

The adversity of one's death can't be prevented,
but as long as the living ones stay strong,
I'm sure we can all go through this altogether.
With more than words to say.

`x estee x`

Rest in peace, Andre

Rest in peace, AudreyAndre.

`x estee x`

Andre

You know everyone cares for you.
So, please do us favour and wake up as soon as possible.
We all know that you're trying very hard,
but please don't make us worry so much.
And your two kids, they're still so young.
You can't bear to leave them when they're still so young right.
Everything's gonna be alright.
We all believe you can do it,
so please do not let everyone down!
Keep trying!

`x estee x`

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY TO ALL BELOVED TEACHERS! (:

I don't know why,
but I only know I'm missing some people like hell! :/

Study group just now was pretty fruitful! :)
Was discussing A Math with Wei Chong, Mark and lil'bit with Judaxil! :D
Afterwhich, lunched at market with Mark and here am I!

Boo hoo, I feel empty, and thus sad.
I think I know why, but I refuse to admit it is because of it.

`x estee x`