HEART-BREAK. ROARRR!its over. (:HI-BYE FRIENDS . `x estee x`

ROARRR!

its over. (:

HI-BYE FRIENDS .

`x estee x`

can I say I hate you but I actually don't?

I really don't understand.

why are you putting on an act in front of everyone?

why are you acting like you are so brave when you're not?

why are you acting like as if you can't fall?

why is it that you have to spoil my image of you?

why is it that you make me feel you've changed?

why is it that I feel I never felt I know you from the very start?

why do you make me feel I will regret whatever I had?

why do I feel that you are a stranger to me?

why do you want to make me hate you?

why do you want me to believe your promise when I knew it wouldn't happened?

i hate you.

i really do.

`x estee x`

MUGGING ! (:

back from mugging at KFC ! (:

okays .

that was practically two hours ago ?

but just get to use the com.

rights .

& so it was maths & a little of science today.

hahas !

actually it was more to "mugging" than to mugging.

but we really studied ! :DD

just that there was a few distractions.

hahas !
STORY-TELLING by ZERLINA !

okays .

only the people who went will know what's it about.

but I was quite HIGH today !

hahas .

for don't know what reason.

more to HIGH on the outside & EMO-ING on the inside.

oh yeahhs'

didn't talked about who went.

practically there was Zerlina, Angie, Kok Leong, Wei Chong, Yi Ling & ME ! :D

lovely peoples ! (:

today's study group was sweet & HILARIOUS ! =X

oopssie .

just can't forget that "two-timing" thingy ! =xXx

okays .

I'm so gonna shut up ! XP

only those people who went will know what the full story is . (:

hahas ! =P

a very good "two-timing" person.

oh yeahhs !

then there's this six-year old boy, when I was walking home from North Park,

he suddenly just banged me from behind CAN!?!

FRREEEAKKK !

the EVIL thing is that HE DIDN'T SAY SORRY !

nowadays kids are !

myGOD ! =X

so BAD-MANNERED !

HMPF !

its really difficult to answer your question just now. ):

then I had to walk home so pathetic-ly.

crapp ! >;(

if I see that boy again , I'M SO GONNA MAKE HIM SORRY !

okays .

was just joking . =P

aiya' heck lahhs . (:

I have a very BIG heart . (:

but it has been broken into pieces.

alright .

that's practically all for today ! (:

gotta chiong IPW le . ):

toodles~! :DD

perhaps, I knew the answer already. But I just don't know how to answer.

`x estee x`

Saturday ;

rights.

changed blogskin !

finally !

can't really say I'm sick of the other.

but it has been ages since I changed my blogskin ! =X

found lotsa nice skins lately !

so might as well change it !

hahas . :DD

that scene keeps repeating in my dream, in my mind. ):

rights.

so the theme is pink this time.

nocturnal flowers .

nice . (:

okays .

so yeahhs .

woke up around 11 this morning .

oopssie .

its 2 plus & i haven't lunch-ed yet. =X

okays.

shall see how I can settle my lunch after this.

& of course, study !

most probably going out tonight for dinner.

yeahh' rights.

need to study tomorrow !

& I mean study-outing.

not sure going with who also.

sighh'

that's practically all for now.

its no use keeping everything to yourself.

`x estee x`

well well.

today can be counted as a very nice & sweet day. (:

& yes .

happy birthday to my two beloved ones. =)

weichong & shuting . (;

weichong : hope you like your present ! & of course, today's celebration. though not much people went, but I really hope you had enjoy yourself . <3

shuting : I still owe you your present ! SORRY ! ): will try to get it as soon as possible okays ? (; & hope you enjoy yourself too !

alrights back to the topic.

after school had my remedial & lit test and went to meet weichong after that .

while he went to take his dnt artefact.

sat at the canteen with piriya & kehua.

sighh' it's been ages since I really talk to them. ):

okays , stop bringing up the past.

it'll never happen again.

we just have to MOVE FORWARD ! (:

hahas . ;P

okays .

so we met yiling on the bus.

after that, went to Tampines Mall & find a place to settle our lunch.

yiling ate hers le.

then we settled at Phin's.

fish & chips ;DD

the birthday boy's treat. (:
then afterwhich, went to walk walk.

wanted to find shuting at sakae sushi but in the end ended up meeting her at metro entrance.

crapped a while, comparing presents.

hahas !

the both of them are just such CUTIES! =P

rights .

then found out that there's a variety show recording at century square.

slacked there for a while.

was considering if we should go GV or Century Cineplex to watch.

in the end, we settled for GV.

watched "Meet The Robinsons".

& people, is definitely a ncie show to catch !

just ask zerlina !
hahas !

then when the show ended, we waited for the people to leave the theatre.

what can I say ?
There's barely less than 15 people inside including us.

so its like so PATHETIC can.

so after the show, zerlina suggested shouting HAPPY BIRTHDAY to weichong.

hahas !

& we DID !

at the theatre all by ourselves!

Kok Leong was like still HUH?!

hahas !

so FUNNY !

& one discovery !

the people who went were :

yiling - secONE

me - secTWO

kok leong - secTHREE

zerlina - secFOUR

hahas .

& of course WEICHONG !

the four people who celebrated were like of different levels respectively lahhs !

SO CUTE CAN !? =X

okays .

so we didn't manage to finish the popcorn.

so I decided to pour some over weichong. =X

ooppsie ! XP
& TRUST ME, I REALLY DID !

hahas . =xXx

it was FUN lahhs !

bleahz' XP

then after the whole thing we left.

& for no reason, I vomitted. ):

all the popcorn.

don't know why keep vomitting these few days . ):

but i am so not pregnant .

so take away that thought in your mind.

thank you (:

felt better & we left.

took 21 with kok leong.

& i dropped first.

just watched King Kong.

alrights .

its back to study time ! ;DD

i think its split-personality. because ?

`x estee x`

I hate myself so.

I guess its really depression on the other side.

split personality?

completely two different persons in the day and at night.

why is it so?

its just so tiring.

am I really being two persons?

I, myself, don't know the answer.

I'm dying to know the answer.

Should I go to the psychatrist?

perhaps its the side effect of the previous depression.

I don't know. I really don't know.

Thanks Mr Wong for the drink ! (:
& I mean the EAS Mr Wong . (;

i want to go to the beach and take a long walk.

`x estee x`

爱你的人 , 你却不爱 .

你爱的人 , 却不爱你 .

我恨你 . ):

`x 小娟 x`

ain't blogging today . =/

sorry people.

whatever. you don't have to care.

`x estee x`

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIEYANG! :DD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEITING! :DD
& I feel irritated at of a sudden.
so I ain't blogging.
I am pissed with your INDECISIVE-ness, it led to something. ):
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sher(:` welcome ! yepps; GWH! :DD
lynn` yepps; BUBBLE TEA! <3 align="left">weiqing` hahas ! why my slide show funny ? o.O
sleng (` hahas ! yepps ; :DD
joanna` =xXx yes yes! :PP JOANNA IS SACARSTIC ! =xXx
sheri`hahas; sorry honey if I scared you. =xXx & yes' ILOVEYOU too ! <3>
ONE-`i shall relink another day? =X sorries! :DD
jiaxin` o.O again? hahas' friendship problems. primary school thing. sighhs'
Anisha` mrs wee asked me today again if I wanted to go, but I told her I feel I'm physically WEAK, so I gave it up. yes' I GAVE IT UP. >.<
Nisya!` HEYS NISYA! HIIIIES! * WAVES WAVES ! * :DD
rissaye!` IRISSSS! i love you TOO! ;DD
bernice` HELLOS ! :DD
Litong` hahas' just a cough. that's all ! (;
- HWEESZE;` heys BABE . thanks ! LOVES~!
richelle :)` (: (: (: <33333333333333333333333333333
i'm wishing you were here with me. ):
`x estee x`

right now at jieyang's house.
celebrating his birthday today. (:
went to hweesze's house just now earlier.
reached pasir ris interchange at around 12 plus.
met the gang and hweesze. (;
after that took the bus to hweesze's house.
greeted her mum and was invited to eat.
doreen they all so humble!
hahas' =)
rights'
then nothing much.
just that they always go youtube & watch those videos of dmnchoir. -.-''
lols'
it may be funny.
but don't always watch it mahs.
rights'
then cut cake. :DD
the cake was super uber CUTE cans!
a picture of a pony-tailed girl.
hahas'
hweesze was like the girl so don't look like me can!
my hair not curly de.
LOL!
yeahhs'
then after a while, they decided to go to the beach.
didn't join them.
took 53 & here I am. (:
rights.
there's not much people here anyways.
shall go find something to do then. :DD
byes people! (;

`x estee x`

first & foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HWEESZE BAOBEI! <3

okay'

& I have to say this.

was actually asked to join LTC de.

BUT because of some idiotic sinister comment, I GAVE UP.

& you know what?

is kind of regretful.

& Jerome wanted me to join. =X

sorry brother!

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sharifah (:`you are WELCOMED! :DD

For3va` I still don't understand. =/

jiaxin` thanks girl! how've you been? (;

sheri` SHERI! :D I'm HAPPY for YOU ALL TOO! DMNCHOIR!<333

Litong` thanks boy! & yes' DMNCHOIR IS SO LOVED! TUESDAY! :DD

Anisha` hahas' you don't suck alright? (:

kotesie` orhs mummy. (:

Paul MJ`hahas' its really UNEXPECTED & SUPRISING! :DD well done anyways; (",)

lemon` crazy? whys? -.-'' you JEALOUS and SACARSTIC AGAIN! hmpf! >;(

rissaye!` I LOVE YOU TOO DAHLING!

rome`thanks for the compliment (: & sorry I disappoint you.

med.me`alrights! (;

`x estee x`

replies to tags;

fiona` thanks fiona! <3
lynn` yepps; really inspiring. :DD I love you too sweetie~! (:
For3va` erms?
JASMINE (:` awws' thanks GIRL. didn't expect you to know.
blurtingx` yupps; i saw. :D
bernice`RELINKED HORNY! <3
Litong` thanks boy! (:
lemon`ROFL! its your mummy too rights?
- HWEESZE ; estee x33` (: you get well soon too! :DD
Anisha` hahas. thanks! (:

`x estee x`

& rights.

didn't go school today again.

too weak. =/

sighhs' I'm really really worried about my studies.

its already so badly done during common tests.

gotta go see Dr.Tan later again. x/

is this my fate to not do well?

hopefully all this will be over and done with.
I want to be WELL!

& not so sick and weak.

it just doesn't seem ... ESTEE. ):

white blood cells!

please continue to fight the virius.

couldn't take it & went to take a bath. =/

yeahh'

so shall go to the doctor later and see what he says.

`x estee x`

replies to tags;

For3va`thanks dear. :) i miss you too.
lynn` its alright sweetie. I know you're busy. but our hearts will always be together. so no worries yeahhs? (; <3 you too!
# lingg __``how's my dear meimei? :D hahas' you rawk on too darhling. (;
hannah` glad to hear that girl. =) takecares`;
richelle ^^`thanks cutie piez ! :DD
kotesie` I miss you too! ): okays' i promise. :D
lemon`cher miss me? -.-'' EeeeE means you don't miss me. >.< LOL! i know who you miss lahhs. =X
blurtingx` LOL! no lahhs' not mummy's fault. :)
Anisha` Thanks. (:

`x estee x`

& at first I thought.

mm' nevermind.

wells, just got back from school.

the sick & weak me followed mummy to school to attend adam khoo's workshop finale.

& some touching moments really melted everyone's hearts there.

I'm sure those who were present will break down.

well, who wouldn't?

seeing those seniors of mine & my very own brother there.

people like chuan jie, keat hui, winnie, chung lim, alvan, jian liang & lots more really touched our hearts with their heart-warming speech.

its really nice to see them changing for a better.

& those promises they made on the stage.

of course, their words inspired me alot.

who'd have thought it was such a saddening event tonight.

went in with happy & cheerful faces and ended with cries & regrets.

tomorrow will be the start of a new beginning.

two years from now, & it will be my turn to be out there attending the workshop & learn the true meaning of LIFE.

for now, I shall slowly explore the world & find out bit by bit.

`x estee x`

cough syrups):

antibiotics):

fever tablets):

running nose tablets):

ewww! >.<

I'm tired of medicines when its so difficult to stuff down the tablet

when the throat hurts so much!

haven't been attending school for quite a while.

wednesday went home as early as 8 plus.

that night went to the doctor.

& he took my temperature : 38.7

my! , wow.

& i still managed to get myself out of bed & prepare for school.

but one thing for sure the headache keeps aching me.

& for no reason, I am suffering from backache too. x/

& so yes'

been given two days mc.

12th & 13th.

so including wednesday, will be 3 days.

wow!

Dr.Tan said if I was sick on Tuesday,

I wouldn't need to attend school for the whole week.

& i'm suprised lahs.

cause its 38.7 only mahs.

okay' =X

maybe its a lil' high.

mum's sick too.

& yes, same as me!

two days MC.

you people have no idea how many tests I missed! >.<

altogether there's :

geography

maths

chinese

& English second half!

myGOD!
& next wednesday there's a science test!

I wanna study!

but when I open my book, I will have difficulty getting those facts inside my burnt brain.

what did you expect?

I'm having a FEEVERR HELLO?!

Ms.Wan asked me to rest & not to think too much about my studies too.

I know, but now is really not the time to neglect my studies.

MYE is coming.

& I don't wanna have any more regrets.

3D'08.

my results are still far from expectations.

FARRR.

I couldn't really carry out the time-table that I planned for this week.

cause seriously, I can't get anything in.

So I just have to work infinity harder next week & make up for this week's.

oh yeahhs'

did I mention before?

on Monday, we got this expectation grade thingy.

is the results we are supposed to achieve base on our PSLE agg.

& guess what?!

I am supposed to have a B4 for science?

& its like I got B for science during PSLE!

& my english and chinese got an A.

and my both written language subjects are supposed to get like C5?

HUH?!
Mrs Wee said we are supposed to acheive higher than is expected of us.

so I planned & the final results are definitely lots of B's.

I'm just very worried about Science & Geography.

cause seriously, this two are the subjects that I seriously SUCK at.

though my science got a D7 for common test while my maths got an F9.

but I'm stronger in chapter 7.

& its a very important chapter for mid-year.

sighh'

I hate chapter SIX for science. >.<

nevermind'

just have to study the facts & learn to draw.

right.

that's all.
my throat is irritating me already.

byes`.

`x estee x`

replies to tags;

hannie&cheryl` sure do! (:
blurtingx`is not that Jonathan that you think lahhs' that Jonathan got so kind de mehz? =X
lynn` yes (: i am back. i missed you sweetie!
weiqing` thanks. =) may i have your msn?
rissaye!`thanks dahhlinggg~! x/ & i haven't see you for so long!
saman-sir`erms' thanks for the well wishes; & yeahhs' i do use imeem. thanks anyways'
sheelengg (:`thanks for the well wishes girl! =)
Anisha` heys! erms' its balai & not bali by the way. =)
Litong` thanks boy! =) how many times have you wished me to get well? x/

high fever ):

`x estee x`

Jonathan send me this :

its impossible for me to cheer up.
Thanks guy (:

`x estee x`

You remind me of a flower,

Pretty, inside and outside.

A reason why people smile everyday,

A gift to all.

I don't know what to say.

You remind me of chocolate,

Luscious and sweet.

Someone people can turn to in crisis,

Loved by all.

happy.

You remind me of a teddy,

Cute and huggable.

Someone people feel comfortable with,

Special to all.

birthday?

You remind me of a balloon,

Happy and bouncy.

Someone people can have fun with,

Enjoyed by all.

nevermind' you won't know it anyway.

You remind me of a lot of things,

But nothing can compare to the real person,

A friend I can look up to,

Cherished by me.

`x estee x`

I don't know how am I going to reply this, but here goes :


# lingg __`HELLOS BAOBEI! <3
bemily` somehow. (: thanks for e concern anyways (; & yeahhs' RELINKED! (:
rissaye!` DAHLING! (: thanks' but i'm not sure if we are talking about the same people. & i love ya too! <33
Litong` THANKS boy! (:
Nisya!` thanks (;
sheri` hmms' i see. must takecares alright honey? ILOVEYOU! <3 & IRIS&LYNN too! (:
lynn`iloveyou too sweetie! & yes'SPORTSDAY! LMAO! =P I was gone but i'm back! (:
blurtingx` (: & i blogged le.
zeriNa` FOURwords: I LOVE MY LAOGONG! <333
saman-sir` ehh' ?? it really do seem fast.
meiyi`yeahh; can understand' (: but' haiz; life just doesn't seem fair.
Kenny` ehhs' kenny ong? errs' why cannot be so fucked up?
Anisha` thanks (: i went to Balai; INDONESIA. (;
ZHITING(x` me too! (:
sharifah(:` alrights (;

`x estee x`

& yes i'm back.

the trip was okay.

actually intended to type of my "adventures" there.

but thinking twice' i kinda forgot le. =X

but I do remember we ate alot! >.<

& we exercised alot too.

going there was indeed like a princess life.

walking on the small, narrow streets.

passing by & people just know you though you don't know them.

nice eh?

who ask me to have an "emperor" father.

but the trip there really made me reminisced lots of childhood memories.

& yes' its not really an emo life there.

managed to not think so much.

it was definitely a short & sweet break for me. (:

hmms'

on the second day woke up as early as 5plus sgp time. >.<

SO EARLY!

had to go to the cemetery.

& its like so freaking dark! >.<>

one of my TOP FEARS : DARKNESS.

& its like having to pass through several graveyards to reach my great-grandparents ones.

how freaky is that?

its like so DARK! T.T

okays.

bought a new short dress there. (:

match with three quarters & it'd be perfect! (;

yeahhs'

that's all bahs.

& here are the photos for Austin's Farewell Party. ):

haiz' its been a few days ...

Joanna'Estee'LiJin'Undram<3

& there's austin with undram.

1e <3

1e'06 <3

danny'austin'jeremy (;

the one&only austinLEONG. *er hemS* gonna miss him. =P

we were here! (:

sharifah'lijin'manesha! <3

MY BELOVED MUMMY! <3>

Jeremy'Manesha'Sharifah'Lijin;COOKING TIME! (;

JudaxiL! <3

JudaxiL'Joanna'Undram'LiJin'Manesha'Sharifah'ShangZhi'Danny'Austin'Jeremy. w/o me. <3

we're all in this together (:

PreciousMemories; 1E'06<3

`x estee x`

BYEBYE PEOPLE! (:

its feels great to leave this place for a while.

oh yeahhs' don't bother to sms me alrights?

don't waste your sms.

cause I can't reply when I'm up at the moon.

will be back on SUNDAY.

I will miss LOTSA people!

especially THESE:

Zerlina'Richelle'Piriya'Iris'Lynn'Sheri'YiLing'HweeSze'KokLeong; Cuzzie's cuzzie(; 'WeiChong'Joanna'ShuTing'SiHui'.

`x estee x`

what did i do to your life? >.<

you have got what you wanted.

what else more do you want?

my life?

go ahead, take it.

for all you want.

cause i freaking wish to leave this world.

i'm just waiting for someone to kill me.

myendless-sayings; i ruined your life?

`x estee x`

slashes & scars were never meant to be hurtful from the start.

cause its hurting & even more painful right in the heart.

it was history.

but now its back again.

`x estee x`

& I am so emo-ing.

cause you turned me a round.

& just deceive me.

its alright if you don't want to be friends.

but you really don't have to say so much crap & in the end say the opposite of what you said.

fuck.

I AM SO NOT HAPPY THAT THIS FRIENDSHIP BROKE LIKE THIS!

`x estee x`

I reminisce about the day we met and how you made me feel,

Looking at the glowing smile on your face,

Staring into your dreamy blue eyes,

Your smell,

your touch,

your warm embrace.

What a special night that was...

And then,

I’m starting to feel that warmth inside,

Like nothing or no one else can make me feel...

Butterflies,

a constant smile,

happy thoughts.

Could it be you?

Time will tell...

For now, I shall continue with my fantasy.

the perfect tale anyone could have.

you are just that perfect in my eyes.

& I know I'm not.

That first day can never be forgotten.

It was love at first sight...

-

I light a candle every night

Sending wishes to my angels above

Keep him safe this man I love

Watch over him and show your light

Let him know

As I close my eyes to sleep

I tear in every bit,

for him to be sound asleep.

& i know he doesn't know all these sufferings.

`x estee x`

>.<

slept for like one hour plus.

really very tired.

sighhs'

nowadays don't know why, keep on having stupid mindgranes.

its already 2235hrs already.

gottta finish up dnt presentation slide.

nights`.

`x estee x`

& i am dead tired.

i wish i could sleep forever.

`x estee x`

alrights.

i blogged that previous post like 2am in the morning?

hahas'

yesterday went er-yi's house.

celebrated weiying's & peixuan's birthday.

not much people went though.

but it was quite fun lahhs. (:

we were like having a deprived-childhood yesterday. =X

played the paper ball.

the one that you have to blow and play with it. (:

its like so cute lahs.

yeahh'

took some photos with jieyi.

the cakes were mocha cake & mango cake respectively.

euuk!

mango!

though i don't mind eating mango, as in the fruit.

but i totally hate mango cakes.

cause it really makes me puke.

& i kept on suan-ning peixuan jie jie yesterday.

hahas. =P

bought ear-sticks.

didn't manage to find any ear studs.

SOBS!!

but school doesn't allow ear sticks.

HOW?!! T.T

& my ear bled just now when i took out the ear stick to change.

& now cannot put in the new one.

sighhs'

hopefully i can get a ear stud soon. >.<

wells, for today.

nothing much happened lahs.

did my maths, breakthrough compre & a lil' bit of geography.

tomorrow got TWO periods of science.

myGOD!

now science = AGONY.

stupid chapter 6!

sucks to the core!!! >;(

the guys just go HORNY & SEXUALLY DISTURBED.

like pervertic shaun will say: "I bet my sperms can move faster!"

WTH?!'

how psychotic can he be?

heck.

that's just guys being totally childish. =X

anyways'

sister will be back tonight!!
yeppies! XD

but she never get the bag for me. >.<

cause there nothing to shop also.

i am desperate to go shopping mans!

nevermind'

shall wait for sheri, lynn & iris to go out and eat our hearts out after their SYF!

right now.

just have to bear with it. >.<

`x estee x`

just came back from er-yi house half an hour ago?
zilian-ed with jieyi. (:
here are the pics. =P

MUACKKS<3 mummy & jieyi <3jieyi & me <shall blog tomorrow about today.

nights` (:

`x estee x`