you ;

sometimes , i really feel i don't
know you anymore .
you seem so real yet so fake .
some words that you said
just totally cause
my heart to ache so bad .
but i don't blame you .
i really don't .
cause i know you don't know
what you are doing yourself too .
i hope now, that you reach home safely .
don't avoid anymore .
i love you .

`x estee x`

journey to kluang /

& HERE ESTEE KHO PRESENTS THE DAY OF 300507 :D
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so the day started off with me waking up at 0540hrs !
awws ~ !
& i was at mac that night before munching on fries ! :P PIG !
reached home & used a bit of com & off i went .
& it was like 12plus already ?


yeahhs '
woke up at 0540hrs and prepared for the long-drilling day .
& yes ' EMO BOY MARK WENG woke me up with his sms too . :D
left house around 0630hrs .
walked to school & saw joanna going to 7-eleven .
went in & walked with her to school .
then she meet jia ying in canteen & we proceeded to atrium .
you'll never believe it .
but i actually saw some PIGS there so early already !
one of em' was actually KAN SHU TING ! =P


the assigned group leaders began to take attendance .
& 0705hrs KENNETH YEOW wasn't there yet .
frantically i called him cause of a reason . =X
then he told me he couldn't come !
cause his right leg muscle teared .
POOR BOY !
get well soon alrights ? [:


so yeahhs '
reported the matter to MRS WEE and MRS LIM & waited for a few more minutes for some late-comers !
& we proceeded to the bus .
sat with joanna & waited for a moment & off the bus went ~ !
to the CHECKPOINT ! :D
was sms-ing MARK complaining my boredom .
cause he started it with that morning sms .
from then we were messaging till we reached the custom .
got off the bus & went to check in . [:
check in ? sounds like a hotel . =X
whatever . =P


then yeahhs '
got on the bus again .
& the teachers did a headcount again .
& the journey continued .
we stopped by after a half an hour or so & bought tidbits and stuffs .
its like i was feeling very giddy for the first half of the journey lahs ~ !
HEADACHE ! ):
& so mrs wee asked me to buy water from there .
cause my water ran out just too fast .


lalalala~ '
& so our first stop was to the COFFEE FACTORY .
aww ' the aroma of the coffee beans were like just so HEAVENLY !
too bad !
i didn't bought it .
didn't know why also . =X
then after which, we got back to the bus .
& the headcount repeats ...
then joanna took her UNO cards out .
& started to call people play MURDERER !
i played at first, but didn't feel like it after that .
so they played .
before that, we were trying to play UNO .
but the attempt failed .
yepps ;
hahas !


while they were playing, i was taking EMO PICTURES .
yeahh ;
ESTEE ZILIAN .
whatever .
its in my BLOOD .
LOOK !
my sister & JEROME is ZI-LIAN too you know ! =P
shut my eyes after that .
wanted to sleep , but couldn't .
i just rested .
then after 45 minutes or so , my eyes opened .
& unbelievebly , EMRYS & KEEFE joined in to play MURDERER .
OHMYTIAN !?!
you wouldn't believe it do you ?


so the game went on ..
with them shouting and bellowing in the bus !
2F'07 IS CUTE AFTER ALL ! :D
somehow or rather, after this trip, the class became more BONDED ?
hahas ' :DD
then reached the OIL PALM FACTORY .
it sure is "MUSIC TO MY EARS" .
GOD DAMNIT !
its so LOUDDD ! ):
went through the whole process of how palm oil is being made & the fibres and such ...
o.O
I ACTUALLY REMEMBERED ! :D
hahas !


& yeah ' went up to the bus again .
& as usual the headcounts ...
then we proceeded to have our so called "LUNCH" .
i really don't mean to critisize alright .
but it sure SUCKS .
like anyone or everyone would've agree with me .
i ate like 3-4 spoons ?
after that, we went to find more FOODDD ~ !
but its like, arghh !
the hygiene there SUCKS totally .


forget bout' that then .
i didn't had much appetite too .
went to the bus & it was locked !
& we began to WHINE . ):
it was really HOT alright . =/
TYPICAL SINGAPOREANS THAT IS WHY . :D
so i decided to go find the bus driver .
in the end, after a long persuasion , he finally hand me the keys .
& me, joanna, jiaying & wanjie were like MADDISTIC people running towards the bus !
& I WAS LIKE UBER HIGH !


opened the door for everyone & they charged in like MADDISTICS !
WEEES ~ !
i create a new word : MADDISTIC ! :DD
right ;
then after everyone got on, i closed the door & pressed the other button .
OHMYDI !
the bus alarm just rang like "TITITITITITITITITITITITITITI ! "
WHAT THE ?!
what did i do lahs ?
luckily another uncle was there & asked me to press the button again . =X
phews~ !


then they started playing MURDERER again .
oh , nono !
it was here that i tried to sleep & emrys and keefe joined in . =X
messed up already .
yeahhs '
then went to the ORGANIC FARM .
bought PRAWN CRACKERS & ICE CREAM !
wah seh !
i like very long never eat ice cream le hor ?!
hahas !
then went in , a while later me ' joanna ' wan jie ' jia ying came out .
cannot tahan .
then we went to sit the rocking swing . [:
weets ~ !
it was FUN ! :DD


then the gang started coming back & off we go to the bus ! :)
& it was HOME SWEET HOME !
the journey was real LONG .
reached singapore custom & went to check out at 1815hrs . ;)
reached school around 1900hrs ?
was deciding whether to follow sarah & pet they all for PASTAMANIA.
OR
wanjie , leonard & jia ying for MACDONALD'S .
but in the end , went home .
walked home with Joanna .
she was taking 21 .
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& blah blah blah .
not much things le . (:
awws !
i know is a LONG post , but who cares ?
hahas !
just READ obediently then !
SO FAR SO LONG ! (;

& i somehow just emo-ed on the bus journey ; is it because i missed you so ?

`x estee x`

kluang trip !

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was back from Kluang' Malaysia 5 hours ago . (:

took many photos of the farms & factories .

shall post it up on tomorrow's post perhaps . :D

its how much i loved you ; brought me here to where i am now .

`x estee x`

MARK WENG !

MARK WENG !
EMO BOY !
thanks for making me laugh ! :DD

lalala ~ ! (:
EMO PEOPLE ~ ! :)

one night & one more time ; thanks for the memories .

`x estee x`

i don't wanna miss a thing '

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Well, every moment spent with youIs a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep'

Cause I'd miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing'

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you

Feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

And then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together

I just wanna stay with youIn this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep'
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing'
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile

I don't wanna miss one kiss

Well, I just wanna be with you

Right here with you, just like this

I just wanna hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep'
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing'
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep'
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing'
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes

Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah

I don't wanna miss a thing

my mind asked me to let you go ; my heart says ain't so .

`x estee x`

there /

I WILL BE THERE.

ALWAYS THERE.

FOREVER THERE.

even though you did not notice .

cause i know, you'll never notice .

you'll never know how much i love you .

`x estee x`

27th ; blades of glory /

one word : SUPERB ! [:

people !

go watch the "Blades Of Glory" alrights ?

its a real comedy .

to wash away all your troubles . (:

especially if you're feeling down .

of course, it can't make your day for the whole day .

but its nice being able to put away your emotions & sit back , relax . :D

at the very least , its quite relaxing .

rights'

twenty-seven may ;

i'm tired of being specially emotional on this day , but i just can't help it .

okays .

nevermind '

its 0158hrs now .

& everyone's asleep .

can't sleep .

so yeahhs '

shall go find something to do .

nights ~ !

thanks for the memories ; they are just nothing to you .

`x estee x`

mjc choir concert .

just three words ; she is loved .

`x estee x`

that's you /

the one & only thing .

that's you .

I long for you to be by my side .

`x estee x`

pictures ;

PICTURESSS ! :D

love you so .

sweet secrets ; you're my everything .

Jack's Place ; (:

sheri ; honey :D

yuhan ; sweetie pie (:

those sweet thirteen people are so LOVED . [:

cutting my marble cheese cake from Jack's Place .

my one & only strawberry cake from Four Leaves .

strawberry is loved . :D



strawberries ! (:


LOVES ! LOVES !
you just made me speechless .

`x estee x`

sweet fourteen <3 /

happy birthday to ME ! (:

one year older , one year more sensible .

okays '

its just two more hours before 22 May ends ! ):

must make good use of this time !

wells , i'd like to thank these people for wishing me happy birthday ! (:

handphone wishes ; (:

Lynn, Tracy , ShuTing, Undram, Jasmine, Jerrold, Danny, Jia Yu, Aunt Dorothy, YiLing, JieLing, KangQi, Bryan . :DD

2F ;

Undram, Kenneth, Samantha Loh, Jia Ying, Medeline, Min Ning , Danny, Joanna , Wen Hou .

that's all right ?

CHOIRR :D

Zerlina, KeHua, Sheri, Iris, WeiChong, Lynn, Leon, JieLing, Fiona, Amy, Iffah, YuHan, Hwee Sze, YiLing, JingYong, KangQi, Jerrold, Kok Leong, Nicholas, Davin, JudaxiL, Debbie, Georgina, Wei Qing, Daniel, Marc, LiTong, Aun Ning , Eve .

that's all right ?

if i miss out your name, please tell me !

but i just wanna say THANK YOU PEOPLE for the WISHES ! (:

& now for the PRESENT !!!

I LOVE THESE 14 PEOPLE MILLIONS ! <3

THANKS FOR THE SWEETEST PRESENT !

though I haven't got it, cause dear weichong was in a hurry this morning & forgotten to bring it .

but its okay ! (:

right , the 13 LOVED are ;

WeiChong, Iris, Zerlina, KeHua, YiLing, HweeSze, D0reen, Tracy, KangQi, Bryan, Kenneth, KokLeong & Kathy !

that's all right ?

weichong didn't mention anyone else le .

anyways' just thank you LOVELY people for the present !

it is MOSTLY treasured by me !
& THANKS SHERI FOR THE SWEET CARD !
& of course NICHOLAS for the last-minute card !

hahas !

& Anisha, YiHan, JasmineTAN, JiaXin, WanJing & YA KAI of course !

you're never forgotten ! :DD

pictures of my sweet cake tomorrow !

& blessed me have a small little cake of my own !

my STRAWBERRY heart-shaped cake from FOUR LEAVES .

& of course Marble Cheese from Jack's Place . :D
alrights '

thanks for the day people ! (:

I LOVE YOU ALL ~ ! <3

I expected it ; cold-ness from you .

`x estee x`

love you so .

Natalie - Love You So

Ooh

Ooh,ooh

Ooh, ooh

From the minute that you got my attention

I was taken and I have to mention

I was trying to not let it show

But I knew I wasn't gonna let you go

From the way that you came right to me

Looking all hot with the style that threw me

No one would've ever known it

You would be the one who take this heart and hold it

You got that extraordinary way

Got to be next to ya every single day

You do something that I just can't explain

Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me

Ooh, I love you so

Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go

Yeah 'Do you know it

Ooh, I love you so

Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go

I just want you to know

You can san say anything you want to

No stress 'cause I understand you

We got a vibe you can't define

Want everyone know that boy is mine

We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me

You take me there at times

I feel I lose control

Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding

You got that extraordinary way

Got to be next to ya every single day

You do something that I just can't explain

Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me

You can san say anything you want to
No stress 'cause I understand you
We got a vibe you can't define
Want everyone know that boy is mine
We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me
You take me there at times

I feel I lose control
Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah 'Do you know it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

Please know this

I'll always be right here

And you don't have to look

Nowhere else babe

Don't think for a minute

This love will change

Oh you should know that

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah 'Do you know it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah 'Do you know it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

& i love you so ; but you'll never be mine .

`x estee x`

awaken-ed /

0237hrs .

what am i doing awake now ?

i don't know it myself .

slept around 7 plus just now .

that explains it right ?

wells '

not many people online now .

my time trial for The Apprentice - Los Angeles is up ! ):

i am boreddd ...

grrrr /

& i'm feeling blanked out all of a sudden .

everyone's sleeping now . =X

can't really do anything . ):

i feel like going to the beach now .

at this timing ?

yes .

forget it .

its so impossible .

wishing for the impossible .

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so now welfarewenfen is kinda sad .

girl , if you ever see this , cheer up rights ?

trust me , it ain't worth it . (for that guy)

kathy too alrights ?

yours is worth it lah !

but , sighh '

you'll find a better one . (:

i'm sure .

quite soon ?

talk to me if you need, girl .

alrights ?

0243hrs .

shall go find something to do .

can't get to sleep yet .

toodles ~ ` (:

it just hurts me so , to see you suffering inside , open up to me will you ?

`x estee x`

fall to pieces .

Avril Lavigne- Fall To Pieces

I looked away

Then I looked back at you

You tried to say

Things that you can't undo

If I had my way

I'd never get over you

Today's the day

I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall

Make it through it all

I don't want to fall to pieces

I just want to sit and stare at you

I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want a conversation

I just want to cry in front of you

I don't want to talk about it'

Cause I'm in love with you

You're the only one

I'd be with 'till the end

When I come undone

You bring me back again

Back under the stars

Back into your arms

I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it'
Cause I'm in love with you

Want to know who you are

Want to know where to start

I want know what this means

Want to know how to feel

Want to know what is real

I want to know everything

Everything

I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it'

I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it'
Cause I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you

'Cause I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you

& i'm in love with you ; you know who .

`x estee x`

CHOIRR ! :D

& CHOIRRRRRR yesterday ! :DD

leon & kangqi took over for sectionals yesterday ! (:
SL for the dayyyyyy !

& yeahhs ' they're good ! :D
& i'm kinda scared next tuesday ! ):

i'm not that prepared for the song .
*tremble ! *

oh wells , shall go find leon or kangqi on mondayyy ! (:
& i'm sure they'll be gladly to help ! :D

after choir & played bball .

wells , not exactly played .

but yeahhs '

play with yakai !

aww !can't wait for the concert this thursday !

its a NIGHT-OUT ! :D

& choir the next day !

tiring days ! ):

but its gonna be enjoyable ! ;)

& oh yeahhs '

PICTURES !

couldn't upload it that time !

so yeahhs ; here's it ! :D

she's the ANGEL & i'm the devil ! :D

`x estee x`

When You Wish Upon A Star

Jesse Mccartney - When You Wish Upon A Star

When you wish upon a star

Makes no difference who you are

Anything your heart desires

Will come to you

If your heart is in your dreams

No request is to extreme

When you wish upon a star

As dreamers do

Fate is kind

She brings to those who love

the sweet fullfillment of their secret love

Oh, Like a boat out of the blue

Fate steps in and see's you through

When you wish upon a star

Your dreams come true

If your heart is in your dreams

No request is to extreme

When you wish upon a star

As dreamers do

when you wish upon a star

You're dream comes true.

& i wish upon a star that you'll come back to me .

`x estee x`

rights.
so the test shows that NO ONE knows ME 100% perfectly !
UH HUH !
hahas !
you are must be GUILTY for answering wrongly .
hahas . =P
rights .
so today's my last day of staying at home ! ):
sobs !
& getting back results .
somehow or rather, i feel it sucks . ):
ugh !
whatever !
i can't whatever lah !
this year is like streaming year ?
HELLO?!!
aiyah !
nevermind ;
see results first bah ! =/
if only, i can make the dream come true, how sweet will that be ?
`x estee x`

Create your own Friend Test here
do the test !
& see how much you know me ! :D
if only that dream would come true, but i know it won't .
`x estee x`

urghh !
sore eyes ! ):
happy mother's day to all mothers ! (:
i hate myself for loving you so .
`x estee x`

wonders ;

& sometime I do wonder , what are those tears for ?
a part of my everyday life ?
maybe those tears were just meant for you.
`x estee x`

this post can't be deleted.
so just let it be .
`x estee x`

these are just so CHIC ! :DD
MY DREAM PHONE !
http://www.sonyericsson.com/spg.jsp?cc=gb&lc=en&amp;amp;ver=4000&template=pip1&zone=pp&pid=10856

http://www.sonyericsson.com/spg.jsp?cc=gb&lc=en&ver=4000&template=pip1&zone=pp&pid=10854

http://www.sonyericsson.com/spg.jsp?cc=gb&lc=en&ver=4000&template=pip1&zone=pp&pid=10867
`x estee x`

the sand .
the waves .
the clouds .
the wind .
the heart .
the stay .
remember ? that very day you told me this .
`x estee x`

you just don't understand .
it hurts me so , to hear you say that . can't I just love you?
`x estee x`

BECAUSE OF YOU .

I've got a problem with you .
& its all because of you .
you became my addiction , until you were gone .
`x estee x`

I HATE YOU !

FINE , I ADMIT .
I HATE YOU .
I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE YOU !
BOY . ):
why are you so cruel to just leave her there by herself ?
`x estee x`

random !

its nothing .

`x estee x`

You tell me you're in love with me
That you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't want to stay
But every time you come to close I move away
I wanna believe in everything that you say
Because it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move it slow
There's things about me you just have to know


Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right,
be with you day and night
baby all I need is time


I don't wanna be so shy
Every time I am alone
I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You see that,
you're the only one for me
I wanna believe in everything that you say
Cause it sounds so good
but if you really want me, move it slow
There's things about me,
you just have to know


Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right,
be with you day and night
All I really want is to hold you tight
treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby, all I need is time


Just hang around and you'll see
There's nowhere ill ever be
If you love me,
trust in me
The way that I trust in you
Oh, yeah


Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right,
be with you day and night
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right,
be with you day and night
All i really want is to hold you tight,
treat you right,
be with you day and night
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight .

`x estee x`

& i will stay strong .

`x estee x`

oopssie .

guess you don't understand me well . =X

estee won't emo over him .

`x estee x`

shaun's right .

mugging just don't match with me .

cause I suck .

DAMN EMO ! ):

don't hurt me anymore will you ? it hurts . it really hurts .

`x estee x`

I just wish to forget everything.

I'm sorry for those vulgarities.

I'm letting go this two dear friendship.

it's over.

but I don't mind being just friends.

HI-BYE friends.

& IRIS ;

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS. <3

thanks for being there when I needed you. (:

thanks for being so understanding. (:

thanks for keeping me company today. (:

thanks for showing so much concern. (:

thanks for loving me. (:

thanks for taking care of me when I'm sick. (:

thanks for those MILLION LOVES. (:

thanks for the sweet doodle on my foolscap. (:

thanks for singing with me. (:

thanks for being my darling.

& most of all, thanks for EVERYTHING you've done. (:

don't break my heart again will you ?

`x estee x`

back from changi airport-ty. (:

met at small mac .

jerrold, angie & kokleong reached first.

then me.

then bryan.

then yiling, hweesze, doreen & yuhan.'
then our DEAREST zerlina .

hahas .

then took MRT to changi airport.

walked from T2 to T1 then settled at BURGER KING.

& so we ate & mugged. (:

then my new shoe "bite" me.

so sweet yuhan followed me to take skytrain to T2 & buy plasters from WATSONS.

right .

then went back and mugged.

around 5 plus , was called to reach home by 6.

crapp.

faster pack & left.

then jerrold & bryan left from the food court also.

blah blah blah.

then jerrold & yuhan left.

then i took 18 back.

then came home eat & bathe.

& here I am.

are you even (insert your name) ?

`x estee x`