One day more.

It's the last day of 2008, :O!
Time really flies!
Blog-hopped and read lots of End of Year messages.
Jing Yong's blog made me emo can. :/

Supposedly, I thought of writing a whole year of events,
but I feel so sad to do so now. :(
3D2'08 was a special class.
Even if so many people hate/disliked our clique.
But I still had a lot of fun knowing new people! :D
I remember I went for the first day of school and missed the next few days cause I was ill.
Then IPW changed my whole new circle of friends, from them to them! :D

First half of the year was nice with the five of us.
Xin Jie was my nice nice partner, then changed to Desmond.
Haha! Oh, Jing Yu almost had to sit between me and Xin Jie.
Then Richard, Dionis and Jing Yu was behind us when Desmond and Medeline came to join me at the first row! :D
Haaa! The whole day the front row of us will just keep laughing at how Dionis quarrel with Jing Yu and Richard!
有电视看了! Medeline! Hah! :D

Then second half of the year,
Mdm Tan was assigned to be our form and A math teacher. :)
Then I sat in between Titus and Justin at the second row, haha!
EEFC™ ftw! :)
Huang Jie?, Jing Yu, Yu Ying was in front.
While Kathy, Desmond and Gordon at the back.
Then Yi Jia couldn't see from behind,
so Jing Yu decided to switch with her.

Titus was a great partner, and a really good friend!
All the talks on the phone and hanging out!
After all this time, he's always been standing by me as a good friend! ^^
Gordon always make me laugh! :D
CL, CL, CL! :P
& Desmond, needless to say! :)

Clique! Clique! :)
Delia, Kathy, Wai Yan, Yi Jia, Yu Ying! x3
My oh my, especially Kathy & Yu Ying!
We've been through our ups & downs,
many misunderstandings arised,
we had our share of being too sensitive and feeling left out within ourselves,
but we will always end up taking the cool way. :)
But I'd sincerely like to thank you both,
for having been by my side this whole year! :D

Christy, Angel!
I really owe you a lot a lot, till I don't even know what to say.
I'm sorry for always being so occupied and not spend enough time with you!
But even though, you're always sending me smses that really brighten up my day.
At least I know, you care and I really appreciate it girl! :)

Mark, Buddayee!
Tian ah, I've so much to thank you for!
Thanks for always being there during choir and sometimes after school! :)
Haha! Talk about how we know each other!
Through smsing at first about the geography trip last year!
We were smsing each other from that early morning of 5am till we reached the courseway! :O
I really appreciate all that you've done for me okay! :)

Teresa, Boyfriend!
Okay, to put it simply,
You rock so much boyfriend!
Even though you always tease me about *er hem* and I always tease you with Dexter,
but you know I always love you! :D
Thanks for always cheering me up and making me laugh!
Many many loves!

Debbie,Georgina, Iris, Joycelyn, Judaxil, Eugene,Jing Yong, Leon, Wei Chong.
I think I've bonded real lots with these people during the Sec 3 dance! :D
You people know you rock so much!
And thank you Iris, Eugene and Wei Chong for the very sweet Christmas present!
Shall post about that again, with the photos on farewell! :D
But really, you people rock real lots!

Then moving on to a group of friend that I really wish to avoid talking about,
cause I'll seriously cry for days and nights missing them.
Yes. Riffin, Kang Qi, Bryan, Tracy, Jerrold, Kok Leong, Tuan Boon.
Okay, I'm so not prepared to write anything yet.
Let's just wait for the right moment k? :/

`x estee x`

<3

You don't know how much I missed you, boy.

`x estee x`

quiz!

Haha! I did this quiz last year june and now I re-did it again! :D

You Are An Invisible Ex

You're so over your ex, you hardly even remember you have an ex. You prefer leave all of the baggage behind you - far, far behind. As they say, indifference is the opposite of love!

What Type of Ex Are You?

:D Yeah, we rock, patient!

`x estee x`

Get well soon! :)

Woke up at 1plus, and oh my school's starting next friday?!
Don't understand why there are weird people like Teresa & Jordy counting down to school reopening. ._.
But oh well, a math-ed with Delia today! :D
We did Partial Fractions, Trigo proving and Polynomials today, teehee! :P
& OH YA, SERA GOH GET WELL SOON OKAY! :O
Oh oh, JORDY LIM TOO! :O

My oh my, school's starting yet so many people is down with the common illness! :O
But get well soon peopleee! :D
& yep me, get well soon! :)

`x estee x`

Merry X'mas & Happy B'day Celia! <3

Tis' the season to be jolly, falalalalalalalala :)

X'mas eve night was truly a silent night.
I did not start speaking a single word after 8pm.
Anger, sorrow, vexation, resentment, bitter, forlorn...
But nevertheless, i'll always return back to normal after a day/night.
So I woke up this afternoon around 12plus 1 and felt much better. :)

Sorry joker for spamming all the vulgarities to you. :/
But yeah this christmas was pretty okay! :D
I received many many yupi gummies and a $10 Takashimaya voucher! :D
Heh, and I also won the lucky draw prize,
which is a really cute massager stick! :)

Haha, further updates later! ;)
Off to have a nice warm bath and sweet sweet dream, nightsy! :D

Happy Birthday Celia Koh! x3

`x estee x`

Joy & Sorrow !

I am happy :D because :
- I do not have to spend my Christmas at the hospital.
- I passed my E Math provisional exams which is a very good score to me and am promoted to Sec 4 Express.
- I bought the black flats/pumps that I wanted from DMK.(YAY DEBBIE! ^^)

I am sad :( because :
- I lost a lot of blood yesterday.( Ok, riffin says our body has a lot of blood, but even though the small tube of blood they took was enough for me to just dislike the fact that I am losing my blood.)
- I have to take anti-biotics for one week and have to go back to the hospital in three weeks time.( I get to skip school on that day! But I'm not looking forward to go back!)
- If the lump doesn't shrink, I have to go for surgery!( :O Oh my god, *faints*!)
- It's just like back to three years ago, but this time, it's worst. :/

`x estee x`

KK :/

GG! :/
Hospitals are scary :(

`x estee x`

Maybe...

I keep telling myself,
maybe it isn't what I think it is,
maybe there's a reason why this is happening.
maybe he can explain what's happening...

But why not,
it actually is happening,
it just isn't like before,
it just, faded...
Cause we're inseparable, baby :)

`x estee x`

Hodgkin's lymphoma?

Last night, I kept pondering over the lump on my neck.
It brought me back to three years ago, when a similar lump appeared on my neck, slightly beneath my head.
But one thing different about three years back and now, it's that I'm feeling a very strong pain now as compared to the other.
It's supposedly even more wrong if no pain was felt, but now I'm feeling even more wrong when there's an acute pain felt.
Blood tests, biopsy, CT scans...
I closed my eyes, fear overwhelmed...

I remembered that I needed to call someone important back,
but I did not...

`x estee x`

W980 :)

I've changed my phone, my number, and am not available to be contacted now.
Anything important, please call my house phone if you know.
But if you don't, I'm sorry.

`x estee x`

-

:/ I'm hoping to get through this on my own.

`x estee x`

-

How do you recover from msn-phobia? :/

`x estee x`

-

Hahaaaaaaaaa, i went online and realised that i can't face the pressure.
It's just so weird, msn suddenly becomes a thing that i fear.
I fear this pressure of signing in to msn.
I think I'm suffering from msn-phobia.
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Woke up in the morning, eyes felt real sore.
Tried to put my contacts in, but it was so sore that it could barely be opened.
Dota can really suck at times, I swear.
It's the roots of all problems.
Whatever I felt/am feeling was started by Dota.
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It sucks trying to put up a strong front, when it's the opposite feeling deep down.

`x estee x`

FAILURE

SHIT YOU SHIT YOU SHIT YOU,
you fail as a father totally.

`x estee x`

GET A LIFE .

I know I've been far away for far too long...!
But nothing much has been happening anyway.
It's been raining these few days and it's always at the same timing!

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ohfuck, stop thinking too much will you.
it's not what you think it is,
and i do not want to bother explaining.
let's just say the whole thing was about me being disappointed with your attitude/behaviour.
and tyvm for making me scold vulgarities again,
when i haven't been saying it for so long ever since the dawn of sunday.

`x estee x`

:/

Sometimes I wish this song will just ring on my phone instead.
I don't know why this feeling is back again.

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.
- Courtney Kuchta -

`x estee x`

18cousinschalet'08

And I'll be away today till tomorrow for The 18 cousins chalet '08! :)

Action speaks louder than words you know.
What do you think if I have to get by the days of just idling around or studying?
Nothing seems to be the same like the near past,
when the everyday routine just disappear every minute, every hour.
You'll feel that nothing is happening,
because it's just not that important to you, isn't it?

`x estee x`

D.O.N.D

OH MY GOD, IF ONLY THAT REALLY HAPPENED IN REAL LIFE! :D
haha, go ahead and have a trial :)

Deal or No Deal 2



Click here to play this game

`x estee x`

HELLO & BYE :D

YO, YO, YO, YO.
It's one in the morning! :)
And I can't get to sleep cause I'm waiting for something,
which I don't know what, LOL.

But yeah, forgot to update about yesterday!
Headed to Paya Lebar in the morning by 21 to Galaxy (Miss Koh's Condo). :D
Geography consultation has been really fruitful with Miss Koh.
Afterwhich, train-ed back to Tampines to meet Papa at KFC.
Saw the sec one's/two's basses, hahahaha!
And I was avoiding one of them,
who obviously don't know I'm avoiding him!
HAH! Cause that stupid Han Riffin screwed me by not telling that boy the truth!
But oh whatever! :P
Yeah, then Shaun came in and he was tempted by Riffin to eat KFC. ._.
Riffin is such a BAD BAD BAD influence.
HAIYOOOOO.

Hur hur hur, okay that's all.
BYE BYE :)
Gonna play hard now.
Then maybe later slack around.
It's nice to roam about in the early morning/late night. :D

`x estee x`

Quiz by Delia :)

Quiz by : Delia :D
Starting Time: 5.42pm
Name: Kho Xiao Juan Estee
Shoe Size: 5
Height: 158cm ! :/
Where do you live: Tampines
Favourite Drinks: Iced Lemon Tea, Raspberry/Oreo Chocolate Ice Blend, Champange Grape Red Tea

Have you ever ---

Been on a plane:♥ Yep.

Fallen asleep at school:♥ Once in Sec One! Mr Gan's lesson! :P

Broken someone's heart:♥ Yes :/

Fell of your chair:♥ OH MY GOD, YES! ._.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:♥ Not exactly all night, till 3 plus 4am? :D

Saved e-mails:♥ Yes.

What is your room like:♥ I don't have a room of my own :/

The last thing you ate:♥ KFC O.R Fillet Burger Meal, change whipped potato to cheese fries, drink Mountain Dew.

Ever had chickenpox:♥ Yes & No. Half-developed.

Ever had Sore throat:♥ Totally.

Broken nose: ♥ No.

Do you believe in love at first sight:♥ Yes.

Like picnics:♥ Yep.

Who was the last person---you danced with:♥ Jie Yi.

Last person made you smile:♥ Riffin or Jerome?

You last yelled at:♥ Sister

Today did you ---

Talk to someone you like:♥ Sad to say, No. :/

Kiss anyone:♥ No, I still have my first kiss. :)

Sick:♥ Absolute well and healthy. :)

Talk to an ex:♥ No.

Miss someone:♥ Yes.

Eat:♥ Yep.

Best feeling in the world:♥ To be loved :D

Do you sleep with stuffed animals:♥ For now, Tatty.

What's under your bed:♥ Floor

Who do you really hate:♥ Not to the extend of hate.

What time is it now?:♥ 5.52pm

Random ---

Is there a person who is on your mind now:♥ Yes.

Do you have any siblings:♥ One elder sis & elder bro.

Do you want children:♥ I love kids :)

Do you smile often:♥ Average.

Do you like your handwriting:♥ Neutral.

Are your toenails painted:♥ Nope.

Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in:♥ Parents's.

What colour shirt are you wearing now:♥ Black with Green Cardigan :)

What were you doing at 7pm yesterday:♥ Playing Dota?

I can't wait till:♥ After O'levels next year. :x

Are you a friendly person:♥ Yep :P

Do you have any pets:♥ :/ Pepsi died when I was really young. (Pepsi is my pet dog in Tj.Balai)

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: ♥ At home, playing dota.

Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you:♥ Jie Yi? One of the best cousin :D

Do you sleep with the TV on:♥ Less than five times. :x

Have you ever crawled through a window:♥ Climbed through, totally.

Are you too forgiving?: ♥ I admit I'm too soft-hearted, and I just tend to forgive and forget.

Are you closer to your mother or your father?♥ Mother.

Who was the last person you cried in front of?♥ Jerome Kho.

How many people can you say you really loved?♥ Two. (Don't include family)

Do you eat healthy?♥ No. :x

Do you still have pictures of you and your ex?♥ Hur, apparently we never took a single picture. :x

Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?♥ YES ):

If you're having a bad day, who will you most likely go to?♥ First my bed, pipi & bobo. Then either SP-husband or Papa or Patient.

Are you loud or quiet most of the time?:♥ Neutral :p

Are you confident:♥ No, really LOW-self esteem ):

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:

♥ Sleeping .

♥ Watching Cartoons.

♥ Spending my holidays at Tj.Balai.

♥ Dancing.

♥ In Kindergarten

5 things on my to-do list today:

♥ Study.

♥ Blog.

♥ TV: Don't forget the lyrics & The little Nyonya & Forensic Heroes.

♥ Conference meeting with F&B Dept for Choir Farewell.

♥ Final Proposal for F&B Dept for 18 cousins chalet.

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:

♥ Donate 1/2 to charities.

♥ 1/4 to parents and siblings.

♥ Go on a trip to Paris.

♥ Set up an Animation Company when I grow up.

♥ Use it for the rest of my lives.

5 of my bad habits:

♥ Tickle my bolster.

♥ I don't know.

♥ I don't know.

♥ I don't know.

♥ I don't know.

5 places I lived in:

♥ Tampines

♥ Bishan

♥ Tj Balai

♥ Jakarta

♥ -

5 jobs I've had:♥ None. :/

Tag 8 people to do this quiz:

♥ Anyone

`x estee x`

Quiz by Teresa :)

1) My friends ; will always be there for me when I need them :D
2) Im listening to; Everytime We Touch by Cascada ♥
3) Maybe i should learn; to accept reality :/
4) I love; my family , my SP-husband , boyfriend , family tree(papa,sis&bros&patient&BCP&LDC)
5) My plan; to plan a surprise for someone :P
6) I dont understand; why are more and more people emo-ing :(
7) I lost; friends who were once very close
8) People say; I'm crazy, emo(so not true for now ._.), DUMB.
9) I'm missing; all the people that I miss (you know who you all are!)
10) Love means; Unexplainable.
11 Somewhere, someone is; living his/her life to the fullest I hope :D
12) I'm always searching for; the reason for my existence in this world
13) Forever seems; Impossible
14) I do not want to; hurt people's feelings
15) My mobile phone; is currently screwed :/
16) When i wake up in the morning; I never want to wake up immediately
17) I get annoyed when; things don't go the way it is supposed to be
18) Parties are; fun, high and crazy
20) Today i; had tuition/consultations with Miss Koh & Riffin :)
21) Tmr i will be; meeting Big'sissy for Chemistry :D
22) I really want; to see a certain someone
23) I miss; a certain someone a lot a lot and other people that I miss too
24) What is your phone brand?; Sony Ericsson
25) What's the last 3 digits of your num.?; 713
26) What does the second message in your inbox say?; Ok - Miss Koh :)
27) Who was the last person you rang?; Papa :)
28) Who was your last missed call from?; SP-husband :P
29) What does the oldest message in your inbox say?; LOL, don't need to report to me, hahas. But alright, i'll help you inform mentor. - Iris :D
30) Who comes after J?; Kang Qi :D
40) Go to your sent messages- see what the 10th message say.; Huh when siah? X.x - Yakai :D
41) Who is your network provider?; M1
42) How many messages are there in your inbox?; Ever since 24 Nov, too many to be counted :x
43) Who do you have on speed dial 3?; Daddy
44) If you're using prepaid card, how much credits do they have?; -
45) Who is the first person who comes after C?; The clever ones should know :P Oh & Deliaaa :)
46) What do you have as your main ringtone?; Just Dance
47) Pass this quiz to 10 ppl!

1. Anyone who wishes to do this quiz :)

FFX - To Zanarkand

I am totally awed and mesmerized all thanks to Davin Yeo Shi Wen!

`x estee x`

011208 ; TKSS/MJC Choir Vivace 2008 @ Esplanade

Vivace' 2008 was nice :) First time watching TK Choir Concert and I am astounded. Songs were great! Oh and April is definitely doing very well there as the Student Conductor! :D Photo taking was absolutely crazy after the concert. Before concert, shopped around Marina Square with Riffin and Wei Chong :) "Shopping Consultant of the Day". Met Iffah after her lessons and decided to watch 'Four Christmases'. Totally worth watching :D Riffin went to fetch Judaxil while Iffah, Wei Chong and me decided to shop for more presents. Ate Long John Silver for dinner with Judaxil :D After concert headed back to TM Mac for supper. Just drank a small coke and chat with the people. :D Caught the last bus home with Judaxil and Home Sweet Home :) Bathed, Talked on the phone for a while and 'Burnout' all the way to 2 plus 3am :P

`x estee x`

291108 ; Orchard Road

Christmas shopping was nice with Aunt Dorothy, Celia and Cheryl. :)
And Bishan over the weekend was great and perfect.
At least I had company when I was there.
Even if the phone didn't rang when it was supposed to.

I feel I've been neglecting so many people out there. :/
YY & Kathy, Teresa, Mark, Christy, Kang Qi, etc...
If only I don't have to take the provisional test... :/
Grah, I need to study. ):

`x estee x`

YY & Kathy

Just..... all of a sudden,
I feel so distant from YY & Kathy.
Wondering how've ya both been..
Haven't been using the comp...
Haven't been turning up at TMC these few days...
meet up soon kay girls? :/

`x estee x`