LIFE & LOVE / x-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY !
though you're away at china now .
but hopefully you have a sweet birthday today .
& all that we've done . [:
I LOVE YOU ! :)
CAUSE YOU ARE THE GREATEST MUM ANYONE CAN HAVE ! :DD
i really can't hold back anymore .
haven't been feeling in the rightest mood i guess .
moodswing is getting bad to worse .
just make sure you don't get a bad one from me .
its difficult ' not to disappoint you all .
i really don't know what's with me .
eyes are always feeling watery .
slowly & slowly , my precious ones are leaving me .
or should i say i'm leaving them ?
i'm just stucked here .
not wanting to go home everyday .
this feeling is getter worst .
i used to dislike coming home like no one's business .
& now, its from dislike to hatred .
though it may be peaceful now .
& i get to have a little peace & stand by myself .
i'm just not prepared yet .
i don't wanna be left alone , again .
growing up is a part & parcel of everyone's life , i know .
but isn't it a bit too fast to leave me here , alone ?
without any directions being led to ?
struggling every period of bitterness in my everyday life .
trying to be what i am not .
i'm really tired to show the opposite of what i feel .
i'm seriously tired .
please, if you're tired too , don't read on .
some people just don't understand , what's with all these feelings & emotions .
tears & torture .
sometimes, i ask myself if by doing all this , will there be any outcome ?
fairytales won't come true .
the dead can never be revived .
what's done can never be undone .
its just what we call "LIFE" .
then what's love ?
so, it becomes the truth that whatever we're doing now , we will always regret .
same for "LOVE" .
why do people say that the girls will always be the one end up getting hurt when one break ?
why can't it be that the girl breaks the guy's heart ?
or maybe even, both ?
love is selfish .
but if two understand each other , shouldn't it be fair already ?
so that means, we didn't understand each other .
just what's wrong with people breaking up ?
or should i say that they are in a particular relationship just because they are in need of one ?
so doesn't that means that either one is cheating the other ?
like , what rubbish is this ?
whatever the need is , "LOVE" is to be respected .
cause its just the greatest & most beautiful thing in LIFE .
that's why ; i love you so much that i'm willing to give up anything .

`x estee x`