say me crazy people ! :D

cause apparently i went to watch TRANSFORMERS this morning again !

yays ~

& i mean its a 0050hrs show @ amk hub cathay . :D

& I WANNA WATCH IT AGAIN .

& again ..... it shall never end . [:

woots ~

two times were with lovely people ! :D

remember my first time was with iris, hweesze & brenda ! :D
yeahhh ~ !

all the SOPRANOtwo girl girl . :)

& yeahh '

so the show practically ended at 0315hrs ?

& by the time reached home was already 0340hrs .

showered & tried to sleep .

but think only managed to sleep only around 0430hrs ?

woke up at 0958hrs today ! :)

means i only sleep for 5 1/2 hours . ):

heck , rushed to prepare & motor-biked down to qiaonan primary to play table-tennis with dad .

i was asked to play with this primaryFOUR boy from st.hilda's . ):

& GOD SAKE ! ITS BEEN A BLUE MOON SINCE I LAST TOUCHED THAT BAT !

so i started off real ~ sucky !

but slowly, got hang of it & yay ~ ! :D

so after the whole thing which ended around 1400hrs ,

motor-biked down again to Tampines Mall & meet weichong(: .

gotta run an errand for kangqi(: .

& weichong was the ATM . =X

this tuesday's gonna be so sweet ! :)

after the "errand" , parted with weichong(: & bused home .

took 293 , cause wanted to slackk___(fill in yourself) in the bus .

BAHHH ! ):

whateveranything, life's getting ___(& again .) these few days .

i feel like smashing all the table-tennis balls that will come to me .

one way to vent my emotions last time .

but i wasn't that ___(& again ..) those days .

i don't see why i should ask you people to fill in the blanks .

but i just don't wish to spell out that word .

its becoming an addiction .

a habit .

& i wanna break that habit so so badly .

cause its seriously affecting my life .

i wanna move on .

i know whatwho's preventing me from moving on .

but i choose this path .

so i don't blame anyone .

or even expect anyone to help .

cause i'm just that ___(& again ...) .

you've to accept the fact that estee kho has changed .

some may hate it ,

some may like it .

& now , i don't wanna bother who's liking or hating it .

at least i know , i won't move on .

& so , i don't wanna pull anyone down with me .

so let me go through this on my own .

or else, i'd just DROWN you with my ___-ness(it's always it) .

yeahh ' people care .

but mine has come to a state that i have to let those who cares down .

zerlina, iris, jerrold, kokleong, shuting, weichong, mark .

you may wonder why your name is up there .

but estee has to really say she's sorry .

cause she's left with no choice . ):

this is my life & i'll face it ; cause its impossible for me to give up .

as long as one day ; i still exist in this world . `x estee x`