okay, this is just totally absurd !
a girlfriend who gets easily jealous.
how nice?
when she tried to break up with you 5 frucking times within a MONTH?!
wtf ? , okay i can't stand it.
the way she treats you and all.

there comes this girlfriend of yours having no trust in you.
okay, maybe trust has to be nurtured.
but all the things you've done for her,
i'm sure it should leave her with a sense of security?

you can even give up your friends and spent 100% of your time on her.
but instead of reciprocating your thoughts and efforts in this relationship,
she took it for granted,
leaving you hurt again and again?
so what if i am your 'ex'?
HELLO?!
primary school is called PUPPY LOVE.
not those kind of love which we will die for each other.
i don't even count that love as LOVE.
like we didn't even did anything that lovers do.
maybe from the start, its all just a special friend relationsip.
he and i both knew and understand.

but you as his girlfriend, a girlfriend that he truly loves and cherish,
that he can even ask me to kill him and he'll write a note to say he asked me to kill him,
that he was willing to give up his friends, that he never even talked to girls in school,
that he couldn't live...
don't even appreciate his thoughts.

maybe you love him, but do you really know what's love?
all those things that you do,
almost breakingup 5 frucking times,
pushing him to sleep and talking another guy,
made him cry more than once, ( you're the first )
when no one could actually make him cry,
does it show that you really love him?

`x estee x`