i blogged cause of the realisation that my previous post,
which i posted yesterday, is dated 3rd Feb '08!
something must have been really wrong with blogger!
read some of my archives,
interesting.

Those people whom i've always been mentioning that period of time.
but now, its like, we don't even talk much>at all.
though we're in the same class.
i feel much motivated.
motivated to bring the halves in a group.
you can say me selfish,
but so long as i sense that lil' bit of hope,
i'll try, no matter how much you'll hate me.

its really tiring, to know that its a friendship that is actually one-sided.
no matter how much i try,
it still remains a fact that everything has changed.
we can't hang out like those days we used to.
you seem even distant from me than a stranger,
its the multiple attempts that is bringing me down.
it takes two hands to clap.
i can't be the one who's always taking the initiative.
for this part, i agree i am selfish.
but is even catching up a bit, that difficult?
why is that i'm getting that unwanted presence in front of you.

all these trying in patching this treasured friendship,
its going to end with a goner.
i am really tired.

`x estee x`