my first post of April.
hmm, trip back to balai was okay.
not much pictures cause the whole purpose was '扫墓'
so its impossible for me to take photos of the graveyard and all.

did muchat least a little thinking there.
but still could not understand what my mind is thinking.
no matter what, i think I'm not going to care so much about it i guess.
have got more important things to care.
first priority for now :
Choir Concert on Tuesday!
i am anticipating and at the same time not.
not , because i feel i am not ready for it yet.
and theoretically, its my first major concert,
apart from the kasar's concert!
but i guess I'm gonna put in my very best,
and not to disappoint myself again!

MID-YEAR.
by hook or by crook,
I've gotta reduce the no. of subjects i failed by half.
which i think its possible,
if estee kho would wake up and work harder,
no, actually, work smarter.
i think no matter how much hard work i put in without smart work is like useless.
i remember hidayah told me this before :
"Study Hard, Study Smart!"
its still ringing in my head till now.
and i definitely remember myself blogging about it more than once! :D
so inspired by hidayah ! (:

sigh, life is such an irony.
it just takes a whole day for a person to have a change of heart.
how can the love be even true?
i wanna rant about the ironies of life!
since there's no one to talk to,
and i don't feel the least lethargic.
okay, i am supposed to be in bed like NOW.
but, i really can't! :/

yes, i remember that i wanted to rant about Singaporean kids!
i think we, Singaporean kids, are just way too lucky!
so people, please count your blessings!
going back to balai was quite an emotional disaster.
and yes so i am a sentimental person,
but its just so infuriating right.
i bet 90% of Singaporean kids can't survive in Indonesia for three days.
the student there are not given a proper education,
and has to go to the extent of even beg from others to survive!
not knowing how long more can they survive,
cause the people in Indonesia are not that well off either,
so its quite impossible to give those poor kids much. :/
some even know how to use their talent to earn money!
remembered passing by a household and i heard this little girl singing.
her vocals are like fabulous for her standard!

confided this matter to angel,
and she's right, we can't possibly help them,
cause there are just way too many of them.
so we should work hard now and be a useful citizen in the society and perhaps in the future '有钱出钱有力出力!' ^^
okay, my throat is getting scratchy now, so i better be off to slumber land. (:

if only the answer will be knocked into my senses one day.

`x estee x`