It's been a week.
yeahh'
haven't been coming home early these few days?
cause of the recycling competition.
then have been sleeping for 5-6 hours practically everyday.
that's why on thurs or fri had a bad headache.
then yesterday mindgrane.
is that how you spell that?
wadeva larhx.
then haix.
today my feeling is -theGUILTYme-
well, wanted to help out my friends and in the end i made the matter worse.
haix.
sorry guys..

haix. talking about wad han told me just now just awoken me that =someone= is just too much..
you really think that i shouldn't move one step back?
this question just stuck in my head from then on.....


haix.
just did a tickle test send by jia wen aka modern dance senior
and this is question.
Which Prom Dress Is Right For You?
Results:

Estee, you need a dress that makes you a Belle Of The Ball

Even if you weren't chairing the prom committee or leading the race for prom queen (which you very well might have been), we know you've had prom on the brain for quite some time. You make the most of any occasion that calls for dressing up, and this landmark event is certainly no exception. That's why your exquisite dress should make you feel like the most stunning girl in the room.Some might call it picky, but you just prefer not to settle for anything but the best. You know what's fashionable and what you like, but what you know best is what looks good on you. Whether it's big and bold or short and sweet, your dress compliments your elegant, feminine style. Girls, after all, will be girls.

hmms. no mood to blog lexz.
Byes. =/

was here & don't intend to blog abt anything.
basically NOTHING happened today.
arghhhhh.... :(

heyS!

went out to study with shu ting, li jin and si hui today.
hmms.
okies lorx.
just studied and yeahh'
oh.
i saw han just now.
he damn dao lorx.
hell larx.
fan lian bu ren ren.
hmpf!

yeahh'
then just now played a game of time crisis den a thought just came into my mind.
it's kinda freaky tt it suddenly just came into my mind.
haix.
sorriez shu ting.
ask u to read then in the end i am not saing wadd's the thought.
hmms.
but is kinda inconvenient.
so yeahh'
sorriez. =/

This feeling is just ain't right.
Somehow something bad is gonna happen and I just dunno what to do.
The fear within me just gets stronger and stronger each day that I really feel redundant.
Maybe that day is really going to come.

You may see me in a really different way and that even feel that something isn't right with me.

BUT please just don't care me and continue to lead your life.

I'd like to try and solve this problem myself.

SO people PLEASE try not to add any problem to me or else I'd really break down.

Exams are coming.

People please be good kids and work hard and score well for this upcoming common test.

Estee wish all of ya GOOD LUCK & MAY YOU ALL PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS!

Yours Sincerely,

Estee

okiez.
that paragraph on top is just not myself.
you MAY care or don't care.
wanted to blog a post the day before.
but felt that didn't have the courage to blog that post so therefore only 3 people knows wadd i had wanted to blog.
but that post really wasn't supposed to be out. but i just can't stand it anymore and really had to burst it out.
or esle, you might not see me again.
is really that stressed up to have so many problems coming to your way.
and some problems is just so happened that i can don't care but i just had to.
or else i'd say people will just fall like london bridge. ( I don't meant it as a joke)
Practically I can just name out the people's name which might cause me to break down.
you might be shocked to see your name here.
but here goes.
Riffin, JudaxiL, Davin, The secret admirer of JudaxiL, Shu Ting, Si Hui, Joanna, Austin, Wan Jie, Kathy.
Jerome, Chanel.
Just see the amount of people that i have to be vexed with.
It's certain that I won't tell you all wadd's the problem with me vexing over you all.
So, just don't ask me anything.
Right...
So I should just end here.
cuz really got nothing more to say.
Good Night & Sleep Tight. (:
With Regards,
-BlackBabyMe.™-

*sniff sniff* oh. hi!
Sorry with the starting.
I am kinda sick today yeahh' so started with a sniff.
hmms. today's kinda boring in class.
started off with mdm radiah's english.
she was like scolding and scolding lorx.
some ppl didn't do breakthrough comprehension mahx.
then is like she very angry.
then mam' class got science test.
tsk tsk tsk.
dunn think i'll fail the test bahx.
is not tt difficult tt's why i said tt.

hmms. then mother tongue we kinda did "ying yong wen".
yepps;
then Home Econs.
we just copied somethings and i cannot ta-han liaos until i stopped and rest for 1 min?
cuz is like my stupid runny nose cannot stop running then i cannot ta-han lorx.
but i quite pro larx.
after that still can play bball.
but didn't played that well again.
was kinda sad lorx.
but dunno why.
somehow han noes why.
then is like fine lorx.
i admit i was sad because of someone bahx.
sheesh.

hmms. then today very ?!?
sianz bahx.
cuz played not much.
but today came nicholas and chuan jie.
no austin bryan & wan jie.
hmms.
yeahh'
then so here i am after the game.
shall go now. (:
L.O.V.E
-SickMe.-

Today, woke up and freshen myself up.
then..
made some nutella bread and used the com for a while..
hmms. then after that shu ting called me said that she forgot to bring her science textbook.. so i make it to the point that maybe we just meet up and i shall lend her my textbook.
yepps;
hmms. then ate a hotfudge and bought a chicken wrap then go home lorx.
haix. kinda feel that i am forcing myself to blog today.
just dun feel right.
shall end it here then.
nitez. ):

HEYS people!

Didn't blog about the past few days. so yeahh.
here i am TODAY!
hahas. okies'
just read JudaxiL's blog.
and some person who's aka JudaxiL's sercret admirer tagged her blog.
Well.
Is really up to JudaxiL that the person really EXISTS.
Just RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER..
But I seriously cannot say anything and just had to shut up!
yeahh'
a SECRET is really meant to be KEPT!
so dunn ask me anything people & JudaxiL.

yeahhs.
then just now was sing karaoke.
so sianz.
nothing to do.
wanna study.
but got no MOOD.
Feel so sianz and bored.

haix.
talking about JudaxiL's secret admirer.
i wanna want that person to be dEad lorx.
make me feel so guilty to 2 persons only.
tsk tsk.
haix.

and yeahh'
played DOTA with Keat Hui aka Jerome's classmate just now.
and I won?!? didn't expected it.
guess i was just pissed by KENNEDY yesterday.
haix.
but he's really GOOD.
yeahh'
is not really a disgrace to lose to me. is just PURE luck.
yepps;

NOW I am really OBSESSED with two things.
-Hotfudge Sundae by Macdonalds'
-Start of Something New which is sang by Zac Efron & Vanessa Anne Hudgens

oh yeahh.
JudaxiL asked me if I wanted to go to NDP.
but i sorta dun wanna go & yeahh. so i rejected.
sorriez JudaxiL.

but i DO know of 3 persons who wanna go with ya. =P

anyways.
yesterday very "funny".
is like after Modern Dance then is Jia Wen's b'day yeahh. so they wanted to go and celebrate?
but Kathy and me didn't wanna go.
so we just went to walk around.
First, we went to Kathy's classroom then after that decided to go Yum-Yum.
then went to NTUC then i bought my bread.
hmms.

then after that got nothing to do then go back to school lorx.
then we were like walking up the stairs at the DnT block then so happen we saw Bryan at the water cooler there.
then kathy was saying "choir sucks" then i was "no lorx. choir rawks" then she saw bryan. then shocked and nothing to say.
then i was like saying.. hahas. so fated man! :P
then the both of them diaoz me.
win liao lorx.
hahas.

okies. shall end it with something to tell JudaxiL's secret admirer.
Guy.. you won't stand a chance dexz. so, might as well forget it. haix.

er-hem..

just to annouce something...

I ATE 4 HOTFUDGE sundae ever since sat?
okies. nothing lexz.

Sweet Dreams............. :)

hELLo!

Well, let's start off with Monday's happenings.
as always.
the USUALS were at the TNCC playing?
BBALL!
heex. =P
yeahh.
and didn't played well that day.
but it was certain that i didn't fall. =)
yeahh.
then it was like..
before that..
things didn't went well.
didn't played much that day.
cause of some PARTICULAR reason which is kinda personaL.
yeahh.
only hmmm...
ah-mah noes.
yeahh ah-mah?

that made me felt very sick and tired on monday night that i actually slept so early.
conference ended early that day too.
yepps;
so is like RIGHT after conference i slept ... not that peacefully.

then next morning i woke up at around 5.30am?
so early ritez?
yepps;
finish up the Home Econs project and so...
ate NUTELLA bread thanks to brother for helping me make.
*applause* Pisst.. in case you dunno..
Jerome is a GOOD bread-maker. =P
yeahh.
his bread is somewhat special..
ought to try his speciality.. like i dunno wadd's the name..
yepps;
but go ask him if you want. X)

yeahh.. then as i said.. wasn't really looking forward to the day.
that's why during Home Econs I was so not concentrating and therefore the food didn't turn out nice. actually is kinda nice.. but ... how shld i say it? like IT'S COMPLICATED.
yeahh.

then was really not in the mood to go for Modern Dance. but still I attended.
and it just simply SUCKS!
I dunn really noe how to put it.
but dancing is just simply not my interest and forte.
so it's like i am attending Modern Dance for the sake of attending?
and i can just say.... IT SUCKS TOTALLY.
Well, dancing is just 0% interest to me.
but there isn't any cca for me.. so didn't had a choice.. :(

is sort of you don't like to eat veggie? but it is good for your health and so is a MUST to eat it?
as for Modern Dance.. I'd say I dunn really like to dance but for the sake of CCA points.. I had to bear with it...

haix.. Tomorrow got 3 tests: Physics, Geography, History ...
Studying now... so yeahh.. niTeZ. =)