Create your own Friend Test herei tried to hold back my tears yesterday ; i couldn't do it .

`x estee x`

just another day .

i'm tired .

tired of all this .

perhaps ; somday , you won't get to see me anymore .

i know you will want this to happen . :)

insatiable lust ; after all , i'm a toy for you to play with .

`x estee x`

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

What Estee Means

E is for Exquisite S is for Sultry T is for Terrific E is for Enjoyable E is for Emotional

What Does Your Name Mean?

Your Psyche is Blue

You are deeply emotional and very connected to everything (and everyone) around you. By simply understanding other people, you are able to help them heal and let go. While you are a very deep and thoughtful person, you do have a very silly, superficial side. When you are too blue: the weight of the world's problems hangs over you When you don't have enough blue: you lack perspective and understanding

What Color Is Your Psyche?

You Are a Chocolate Cake

Fun, comforting, and friendly. You are a true classic, and while you're not super cutting edge, you're high quality. People love your company - and have even been known to get addicted to you.

What Kind of Cake Are You?

You Are A Guilty Ex

You weren't the greatest to your ex, and you admit it. And now your remorse is keeping you up at night... While feeling a little remorse is good, your guilt is preventing you from moving on

What Type of Ex Are You?

ILOVEYOU .

IMISSYOU .

INEEDYOU .

我爱你 .

我想你 .

我要你 .

yes boy, its you that i love . <3

`x estee x`

REST IN PEACE ;

GRAND-UNCLE .

life & death .

`x estee x`

rights '

i'm backkk from camppp peopleee ! [:

& it totally rocked ! :D
yeah, babey !

let's see .

da'speechless™ WON night act ! :D

but not the overall , ): .

but nevermind, we BONDED rights people ?

the skit was okay i supposed ? =X

sorry for my SOFT voice ? ):

i was SOFT ? o.O

whatever .

okays .

first night had curfew ; 2330hrs .

second night ; I DIDN'T SLEEP ! :D
WOOTS ~ ! sense of achievement .

tried to lie down & rest for 10mins .

but woke up & rushed to the toilet .
i felt like vomitting . ]:

haiz '

oh yeahhs ' ordered mac .

weichong, leon , iris & me helped to order .

& wells ?

some orders were like MISSING ?!

just like that .

wells ' nevermind .

orienteering , we didn't manage to complete all 6 stations .

instead, we completed 3 !

but all the 3 stations were FUN ! :DD
& LOVELY PEOPLE ~ !
myblurKOKcousin'scousin, NIC & CHUAN CHUN ! (:
mybelovedKANGQIjie, my"ti-tie"seniorYAKAI, WINNIE, THRESA, DAPHNE, YVONNE ! (:
mydearestZERLINAlaogong, IFFAH, MOSES , VANDA ! (:

hahas '

orienteering rocked totally ! :DD

MASS GAMES .

okays '

that rocked totally too !

god ! , like nothing in the camp sucks ?

the food rock too !

the games !

the movie screening !

the everything ! [:

rights' movie screening .

i went totally HYPER HIGH & HORNY . =X

like so so so crazy .

hahas !

something that you'd never thought estee would do .

dang ! come to think of it , its like freakkey .

*brrr ... *

irisdarling , did you kinda freaked out ? =X

sorry ! i think i scared you .

i know why i went crazy ; it was on purpose .

rights;

practically that's all . [:

no wish to blog any further .

takecares judaxil(: & hweesze(: .

i wished to cry out that night ; & i almost did .

`x estee x`

choir camp till 17th june !

till then ~ .

whatever .

`x estee x`

i feel bad turning you down .

but sorry, i'm not getting into another relationship anymore .

its a promise i made , & its gonna be a promise .

so so sorry !

love can't be forced .

so yeahhs '

hopefully, you'll find a better girl .

its because ; i still can't forget you , boy .

`x estee x`

minutes to midnight / x-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE ! [:
okays, its minutes to midnight .
gonna blog later again .
check out later . [:

i miss you ; just so much .

`x estee x`

geminian <3

Gemini(May 21- June 21)


Keep in mind that people born with Gemini horoscope is the sign of the twin... There is a part of them that needs love and security, and then there's the stronger part of them that needs stimulation and novelty. To remain in a relationship with a Gemini you must be able to satisfy their emotional, mental and sexual needs. People with Gemini horoscope love to laugh, travel, spend money, and are eager for new experiences.



Since people born under the Gemini sign know a little about many things and almost everything interests them, you can make a great impression by discussing a topic in depth. Geminis appreciate honesty and sincerity in a person, so make sure you speak your mind, even if you don't share the same point of view.



Additionally, Geminis don't always stick to one topic of interest, since variety is something they enjoy and find intriguing. These very social and energetic people tend to have a sharp tongue. They are quick to criticize and tend to use words as weapons, so if you're an emotional person that takes things to heart, you may want to avoid this relationship.



When in love, people born under the Gemini horoscope tend to be quite possessive and inclined to be jealous. Never give them reason to suspect that you're not faithful to them, they don't like to be deceived, and won't put up with it. Once a Gemini has found someone that they can trust and that fills all their needs, they will be an exciting and devoted partner.

LIFE & LOVE / x-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY !
though you're away at china now .
but hopefully you have a sweet birthday today .
& all that we've done . [:
I LOVE YOU ! :)
CAUSE YOU ARE THE GREATEST MUM ANYONE CAN HAVE ! :DD
i really can't hold back anymore .
haven't been feeling in the rightest mood i guess .
moodswing is getting bad to worse .
just make sure you don't get a bad one from me .
its difficult ' not to disappoint you all .
i really don't know what's with me .
eyes are always feeling watery .
slowly & slowly , my precious ones are leaving me .
or should i say i'm leaving them ?
i'm just stucked here .
not wanting to go home everyday .
this feeling is getter worst .
i used to dislike coming home like no one's business .
& now, its from dislike to hatred .
though it may be peaceful now .
& i get to have a little peace & stand by myself .
i'm just not prepared yet .
i don't wanna be left alone , again .
growing up is a part & parcel of everyone's life , i know .
but isn't it a bit too fast to leave me here , alone ?
without any directions being led to ?
struggling every period of bitterness in my everyday life .
trying to be what i am not .
i'm really tired to show the opposite of what i feel .
i'm seriously tired .
please, if you're tired too , don't read on .
some people just don't understand , what's with all these feelings & emotions .
tears & torture .
sometimes, i ask myself if by doing all this , will there be any outcome ?
fairytales won't come true .
the dead can never be revived .
what's done can never be undone .
its just what we call "LIFE" .
then what's love ?
so, it becomes the truth that whatever we're doing now , we will always regret .
same for "LOVE" .
why do people say that the girls will always be the one end up getting hurt when one break ?
why can't it be that the girl breaks the guy's heart ?
or maybe even, both ?
love is selfish .
but if two understand each other , shouldn't it be fair already ?
so that means, we didn't understand each other .
just what's wrong with people breaking up ?
or should i say that they are in a particular relationship just because they are in need of one ?
so doesn't that means that either one is cheating the other ?
like , what rubbish is this ?
whatever the need is , "LOVE" is to be respected .
cause its just the greatest & most beautiful thing in LIFE .
that's why ; i love you so much that i'm willing to give up anything .

`x estee x`

shopping sprees / . x -

wheeees ~ !
this weeked was just indeed a fruitful one .
starting with yesterday .
woke up around 11plus ?
hang on the com from then to 3plus ?
went to plaza singapura to search for the group identity .
what can i say ?
found it but ...
nevermind ' =


rights '
so after that went to KFC to eat dinner .
was really hungry cause didn't eat much that morning .
so yeahhs ' (:
after that went to walk around & stopped at S&K .
for quite long .
& i bought a purple & yellow top ! :DD
I LOVE MUMMY !
getting the jeans sometime soon ?
cause my size was being sold out . =/
just have to wait for mummy to come back from hai nan dao then .
which is during choir camp period .
blah . blah . blah .
then went to giordano & mum bought a three-quarter pants .
wees ~ !
& we went back . (:


today woke up at 10 plus .
get ready to go for lunch to celebrate mummy's birthday .
its her birthday TOMORROW ! :D
& she's going overseas . -.-''
lalalas .
haiz '
today was such a LONG & FULL day .
ate like two chinese restaurants ! -.-''
lunch at OASIS .
dinner at SOUP RESTAURANT .
god ! >.<
i was super super full cans !
rights ' then went to shop .
bought a pink halter dress . [:
WEEES ~ !
SHOPPING IS SO LOVED !
gonna go shopping this tuesday with ANGIE ! <33
BONDING TIME ! (:
till then , toodles ~ !

i don't understand those fake smiles & bitter cries that i let out .

`x estee x`

far away / x -

I wanted

I wanted you to stay

'Cause I needed

I need to hear you say

That I love you

I've loved you all along

And I forgive you

For being away for far too long

congrats to SAC for clinching a GOLD in the

FESTIVAL OF SONGS OLOMOUC 2007 (Czech Republic) . [:

i'd do anything ; for that one love that holds inside my heart .

`x estee x`

tired / .

i'm tired .

thank you for accompanying me to the beach Jerrold ! [:

you'll never expect me to like any other guy except you .

`x estee x`

better off / .

& sometimes , i wonder if i should
close down this blog . should i ? ):

i'm better off with mysilent-sayings .

`x estee x`

sectionals / '

sectionals at 1430hrs .
till then , i'll be gone .
i wanna go that somewhere .

` x estee x`

wonders ' / .

I'm wondering why thinking of those happy

times with you brings me tears .
And I'm wondering why thinking of those

times we argued brings me laughters .

cause i just don't know what to do .

`x estee x`

uberlistically down / '

no mood to blog about what happened yesterday .
some other time perhaps ?
sorry jieyi, jieyang & tsernting ! ]:

should i try to let you know ; how i'm feeling right now ?

`x estee x`

quiz / .

You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Months

Maybe you need a bit more time to get over an ex Or maybe you need a confidence boost to talk to new guys Either way, you'll find a boyfriend in time... As long as you keep getting out there and meeting new guys

i'll never find a new boyfriend . [:

You are a Rocker Girl!

If you don't have musical talent, you've got a talent for picking out great CD's. Music rules your life - and you've got the best MP3 collection of anyone you know. Many guys find you intimidating, but a select few think you're the catch of a lifetime. Start hanging out in more used record stores, and you'll find love with a fellow rocker!

agreeable ? [:

grrrrr ...

tried to wake up for maths remedial this morning but had a sudden mindgrane . ):

so sms-ed joanna & slept on .

woke up just and saw that lynn called me .

sorry sweetie .

couldn't hear the ringing .

sighhs '

yesterday was a long day .

went to school for english remedial .

& wth ?

Ms Tan is not gonna be our english teacher already ?!?

oh, tian ! =/

if only you would ; love her again .

`x estee x`

affections / .

i just don't know why . they just came
falling down . for no reason at all . it
just fell with a gentle touch . it has been
months . you never turned back . you
did not bother about me . i find the reason
hard to accept . just why are you affecting
me so much ? you left me here . in this dark
surrounding . forget it , i don't wish to emo
anymore . cause ,
JOSEPH LIM JUST MADE MY DAY ! :D

what can true love do ?

`x estee x`

quizzes / .

You Are 40% Girly

You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit. Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way.

How Girly Are You?

You Play it Cool

You're not in your face, smokin' hot... and it's all by design You have a carefully crafted cool persona, leaving everyone wanting to know just a little more.

Are You Hot?

You Are Chocolate Chip Ice Cream

You are kind, popular, and generous. You tend to be successful at anything you try. A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd. You are most compatible with strawberry ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

You Are A Fun Friend

You're the one who keeps your group laughing And you've always got an idea for something fun to do The party's not complete without you And you wouldn't miss it for the world

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Your Love Song Is

You and Me by Lifehouse "Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to prove And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you" For you, love is very intense and a little difficult to express.

What Love Song Are You?

Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant. Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle. You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs. For you, comfort and calm are very important. You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection. You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

You Should Be With a Water Sign!

Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign can Not that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others.

What Sign Guy Should You Date?

Never Date a Scorpio

Jealous, paranoid, and possessive - deep down, your Scorpio will never trust you. And even if you are very trust worthy person, Scorpio's paranoia may drive you to act out. Instead try dating: Aries, Gemini, Libra, or Sagittarius

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

You Have Low Self Esteem 32% of the Time

Generally, you feel pretty darn great about who you are, even when you mess up or fail. Occasionally, a huge setback will make you question yourself, but you pick yourself up quickly.

How is Your Self Esteem?

yupps !
i'm like soooo bored !
alone at home now .
wells' i find the tests cute. [:
enjoy reading then people ! :D

`x estee x`

life's sad /

till now, i still don't understand why .
what was the reason that made this
whole thing break . the truth still lies
within the dark . how did i ever lived
with that kind of life . how did i even
managed to pull through so many
struggles that i went through . & now,
it still wonders me to know the true
meaning of life . its just a misery to
continue on . but there's a purpose for
us to be in this world . & i'm determined
to find out the reason why ; life's sad .

you leave me speechless ; i can't help but surrender, my everything to you .

`x estee x`

photos / 020607 ;

her bag ; my pouch :D

silentUS'™ ; we went through much to have come this far .

she went crazy ; with photos . =X

the smiles we had ; irreplacable .

goodies forever ; <3she made me a princess ; my hearty <3the dim sums we had for lunch . :D

you're just irreplacable ; boy .

`x estee x`

bugis ' /

yepps ;
so had to blog about yesterday .
let's see .
meet shuting at CS around 11plus ?
then went to her house & chose her clothes for her .
was ready & just about to go, then suddenly her family wanna go out for lunch .
SIANS !
so pai seh ! >.<
but thanks shuting for the nice lunch . [:


rights '
so 9 people squeezed in the KAN'S family car .
it was okay lahs .
for the fact that their car was a 8-sitter car .
yes, 8 ! :D
so yeahhs '
weichong, weihuat, shuting & me sat the back seat .
& shuting's mama sat in the middle seat together with her friend & the daughter .
then shuting's eldest brother sat at the front seat .
hmms '
reached eastpoint & i was practically knocking my head on the car .
cause of the stupid curves .
the construction design sucks really .
MR LEE , DNT !
they had POOR planning !
DEDUCT MARKS ! :PP


yeahhs ' lame .
so went to "guan dong xiao chi" restaurant .
is it what its called ?
yeahhs '
& we ate congees & dim sums !
sweet ~ ! ^^
but seriously felt awkward .
cause after all, they were like one family .
its not as if i was their daughter-in-law .
hur-hur .
so impossible . [:


lalalas ~ !
so after lunch went to bugis .
as shuting mentioned , her mother's friend was going bugis too .
if i'm clever enough , she went there to take the bus back to bugis . [;
so off we went .
headed to bugis street .
wahhs ~ !
i found so many cheap belts but not ties cans !
then FINALLY found one .
it is just kinda like a piece of cloth .
but its the cheapest look-like tie .
for like 5 bucks ?
aiyah' whatever .
so yeahhs' bought the tie & went to mac for a rest .
we walked like so long & our poor legs were tired out .


so yeahhs'
shuting ate McFlurry while I ate Sundae . <3
then it was around 3 plus ?
then just so happens campus superstars were there .
& shuting and i was like if we get the poster, can go sell hor ?
then we practically just went to join the crowd .
but by the time , they gave it away already . -.-'
alrights '
so no money earning oppurtunity .
but we were just crapping luhs .
we're RICH enough .
ughh , like real .


yeahhs '
so after which went to buy shuting's bag .
she bought it , & REGRETTED ! -.-''
aiyoh !
& i bought the same design handphone pouch .
different color .
mine is brown . [:


so after which , headed back to tampines .
went to find my fairy wand . [:
& i got my shoes ribbon back !
that time it dropped at vivo when i went to watched blades of glory with ting . [:
yes ! i went to MONDO & asked them if its possible .
& it is ! with one buck ! yipees ! :)
was supposed to eat dinner out , cause mum didn't cook .
so shuting accompanied me to east link mall .
& i ate meat ball noodle .
then we parted .
& so i took 293 back .
went home bathed & did a bit of maths .
around 8 went to watch “ 神雕侠侣” .
oh, tian ! its like soooo touching !
gonna catch it tonight again .
rights , pictures on the next post . [:

you made me fall for you again & again ; why ?

`x estee x`

nights /

didn't get to use the com just now .
& gotta go soon alreadys ! ):
shall update today's happenings tommorow then !
sorry blog ! ):

when you fall ill ; i'll be there for you . =X

`x estee x`

gemini <3

found this on yiling's blog .

OHMYDI !

I'M SO NOT A FLIRT LAHS ~ ! -.-''

Gemini - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: Your lively, outgoing attitude attracts people to you everywhere you go.You can talk your way into - and out of - any situation you desire.You're adaptable enough to flirt with anyone - and people tend to fight over you. Your negative traits: You get easily bored in relationships, and tend to jump from person to person.You tend to be a bit of a player - and have a high tolerance for drama in relationships.Not the most empathetic person, you tend to tell lovers to "get over" their problems. Your ideal partner: Is intelligent and quick witted enough to keep you interested.Is a bit of a shape shifter, providing you with the variety you crave.An open minded person, who's willing to have a non-traditional relationship. Your dating style: Exciting. If your date shows you a new experience (like Egyptian food or scuba diving), you're very happy. Your seduction style: Experimental: it's rare that you try the same thing twice.Ultra kinky - you do stuff that's not even in books yet.Hot and cold... sometimes you're just not into the whole sex thing. Tips for the future: Settle down a little. Sometimes good things come with time - so don't let people go so fast.Acknowledge that you're a player and flirt. If your mate can't live with this, find someone who can.Give your partner a little more attention. You don't have to be a social butterfly all the time. Best color to attract mate: Sunny yellow Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's" Your Love Profile?

starting of june /

alrights ' just came back from

central not long ago .

spent 1/2 of my day in school &

out with MISS KAN SHU TING ! [:

let's see . we walked around looking

for joycelyn's present ! [:

& we managed to got it like too fast !

& sweet SHU TING bought me that

silver head band that i wanted !

awws ! so sweet ~ ! thanks lovely ! <3

well, wells .

let's just briefly explain the so not

nice day in the morning . had maths

remedial with mrs wee . saw lynn &

went up with her to second floor .

didn't sight anyone including mrs wee .

so we assumed we were lost . cause the

venue was like taken up . so we went to

sheri . saw petrina & dionis at canteen .

sheri sms-ed lynn that she was at second

floor already . so we proceeded there and

meet her . saw that 2F was filled with people,

so decided to go up there to check .

few minutes later mrs wee was at second

floor & i managed to caught sight of her .

told her that the class was at 2F & she came up .

& our remedial started . did expansion &

factorisation & perfect squares . my, my !

i really need to practice more ! i'm just too

lost for maths now . ):

so finished the worksheet & it was 1027hrs already .

didn't had a choice but to foresake our breakfast &

went for science practical . then i asked mrs lim if

2A people are allowed to join the class . i thought she'd

be like nice to say yes , but what the hell ? she was like

NO ! >;( dang ! sorry lynn & sheri ! ):

partnered petrina & we did the practical together .

our brains added up & we finished the practical quite

fast i think ? hahas ' rights ; & so we seperated ways &

i went down to atrium . saw lynn , sheri & weiqing . they

were doing their chinese project . & i just sat there .

had to wait till 1330hrs for group meeting . =/

it was 1120hrs ? till around half an hour later,

saw MISS KAN , & we went to TMART to have MAC

for lunch . ate SVM nuggets . [: was kinda full . & it

lasted me the whole day till now . & i'm still feeling full .

perhaps it was also because of the apple pie i had earlier

on before coming back . lalalas ~ ! :D

rights ' so after eating lunch came back to school for meeting .

& in the end, there's only me, brenda & yuen ching . -.-"

nevermind ' i've got nothing else to say already .

but we did continued to discuss & we finally worked out the skit .

so all we have to do now is just to write the script & edit the introduction .

& not to forget the PROPS ! was intending to go BUGIS tomorrow .

but last minute got MEETING WITH COUSINS for the chalet ! ):

OH , NO ! =/ shu ting, if you're reading this now , it doesn't mean

i cannot go okay ! maybe after my meeting i meet you ? [:

hehe ! nice idea ! okay ... lame -.-''

lalalas ~ ! after meeting went to shuting's house .

so "BA BAI" ! must go her house & "fetch" her !
hahas ! & OH YEAH ! HER MOTHER SAID I AM THINNER ! :DD
bleahz =P then we went to Tampines Mall . walked around .

yeahhs ' don't wanna blog much already . that's all then . bye peepos ! :D

define the words within ; & you'll understand how much i love you, boy .

`x estee x`