TAY YU YING!
you better go sleep or i
seriously gonna smack
you on monday! :)

`x estee x`

i so wanna watch 'The Leap Years'.

"Its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."
very meaningful right! :)

tsk, have been doing some self-reflection these few days.

wondering why i'm in the state that i am in now.

i feel...very no life.

like out of the world.

friendship problems piling up.

ironies that i can't seem to figure out.

feeling like a fool time and again.

people change,

but more change for the worst.

i know i can't expect much.

but, the least i expect/want is a true self.

`x estee x`

can you just f*ing f off from my life.

`x estee x`

hey girl, life is really precious alright!

its always nice to have a friend to confide in.

keeping everything to yourself its never a good thing.

must be a strong and brave girl alright! :)

because those smiles are the thousand feel of happiness that are true.

`x estee x`

ITS THE 27TH! ♥
february!
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to brother,
happy birthday to you! ♥

have so much to blog about,
GORDON SIM,
you suck for today.
but i don't bear grudges,
so who knows what will happen?
but whateveranything,
you f*ing suck big time :)
thankyou, i feel better now.

happy b'day to yuqi too! (:

`x estee x`

happytwomonths steady!♥

`x estee x`

posted on my private blog.
its kinda dead anyway.
but something struck me a minute again.
and i remembered i have a blog of my own to keep to myself.
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amath test today was... :/
i died to the hands of mistakes again.
its supposed to be Xsquare - [sum of new roots] + [product of new roots] = 0
and i put Xsquare + [sum of new roots] - [product of new roots]
the plus and minus sign is being placed wrongly!
i left out the = 0 ! :/
and i wasted much time on question 3.
when question 4 is SOLVABLE!

social studies was HIGH and FUN with miss poh.
yes, i didn't type wrongly.
we went high and crazy.
miss poh was exceptionally high today! ^^
breaked for half an hour after school then had remedial with her. (:
as usual quite hyped up.
haha!

choir♥ after that.
till now we have :
-Kasar Mie La GaJi♥
-I Believe In Spring Time♥
-Can You Feel The Love Tonight♥♥
-Come Travel With Me♥♥
-Circle of Life♥♥
-An Irish Blessing♥

o.O, haha!
so colourful with all the red.
dad bought me a red watch!
lol, it was really unexpected that he got me that watch.
but still, i can never forget the white one, iris! :/
oh, but he refunded that white one and exchanged with a black plain one-.-'!
but i still think the red watch he got me is nice!
its like its not a leather strap or what, its like...i donno what that material is called.
but, yes, its nice!
heart♥ shaped frame some more!

i am so in ♥ with hearts lah! (:
oh, got tracy her present on wednesday!
butterfly necklace & earrings!
hope you love it girl! :D
happy early b'day beloved conference partner!♥

`x estee♥ x`

and ever since, fake smiles are what you all are seeing.
her true happiness has been taken away.

`x estee x`

home alone.
dumped with chemistry and english essay report.
chemistry lessons was fun today.
there you go with atomic numbers and valence electrons.
its nice to do chem when you actually understand.

got back our results for ss.
yeah, only two passed.
and i am not in the two, definitely.
disappointed, i don't see how is it possible to score for ss.
but my passion for it will still last.
let's just wait for the day that my drive dies off.

english was slack.
did some report writing framework.
then the actually report itself,
which i am not done with.

animation was fun.
did theory on transitions and animatics for the first half of the lesson.
break.
continued with hands-on.
yes, computer work.

sectionals after.
kasar is driving me crazy.
which is leading me to my death tomorrow.
wish me luck man.

`x estee x`

currently mugging on physics.
and a must to do amath homework.
it's killing me!
i kinda regret telling mr.ling that amath was easier than emath at the starting year! =x
but it was supposed to be easier with remainder theorem.
and in the end, i scored like a one out of twenty for that freaking test.
i think that's the first time ever that i am doing SO badly for math.
like ONE over TWENTY.

mr.tang wanted us to hand in our amath test to review what are our weaknesses.
needless to say, i failed to the hands of carelessness,
which is very disappointing.
its like its not that i don't know,
but rather carelessness and mistakes all over.
it really gets on my nerves that it reflected like that on my paper.
so it definitely shows that i am not putting in enough effort.
like for now as an instance, people are busy mugging while i'm here ranting my displeasure with my studies.
i remember i used to heck care.
but its like now we are in the century of please care.
how, ironic.

and right, amath test this friday.
and friday was supposedly to be two days ago.
which means i am left with seven,six, five days to study.
and according to my planner, i have less than that time to study.

monday school ends at 3 for me, then after which have to discuss with kenneth about something regarding the bazzar, and rush off to sectionals after that.
tuesday school ends and the 'seniors' have to have sectionals while the juniors and practising with mr.toh, choir starts at 4 and ends at 6.45, reach home maybe 7?
or later than that if it's gonna be like this week's tuesday,
when brother called me after choir, and i really mean immediately after choir and tell me to meet them outside school gate as dad is fetching me from there.
and afterwhich we headed to fetch mummy, then dinner at east coast.

had to fetch sis from her university, which was at bugis,
and from east coast to city is much more convenient rather from tamp to bugis.
besides when dinner end, it was 8plus going 9.
i whined that i had to study for my physics and geog,
and they thought of the idea to go to mt.faber and i thought, cool.
i merely studied a bit of geography,
never did i expect to be food for the mosquitoes when we reached up the mountain,
so the plan did not work out and we gave up and headed to bugis straight instead.
i went to the mac near sis's university,
which was also the mac that was tsernting's paternal's grandma's wake.

studied quite a bit there.
oh got back our physics marks,
not the paper.
i scored the lowest pass.
i am supposed to score for physics!

okay, all these disappointments for studies isn't gonna get me anywhere.
and i think i've ranted enough for now.
so, shall be off to use this precious time to finish physics! :)

`x estee x`

Chinese New Year Photos Update ;

Day 3 :D

me with a huge pile of clothings behind! =x
hello kangqi! :P
Day Four ; temple in the morning, pool in the afternoon,

er-yi's house at night.

Jerome & Davin :)

Day Two ; at 大老姑's house!

in the bathroom! =x

OHMYGOD THE SWINGGG!

red light district ; blackjack! :D

Jie Yan♥

JieYi♥

♥

pouts♥

happy kids with many many ang pows! :D

Cheryl♥

i ♥ this dress! :)

Day One ; ♥
Brother♥
curly wurly sexaye hair! :D
last photo ended with celiakoh!♥

`x estee x`

boo hoo!
yes, i'll kill myself for being such a bad blogger for not updating!
i counted the number of days that i haven't blogged and it was,
OH MY TIAN!

but i shall redeem myself by blogging the many many photos & update on this loved one how i am! :)
so photos up on the next post,
you just have to wait dearest blogger! (:

`x estee x`

i blogged cause of the realisation that my previous post,
which i posted yesterday, is dated 3rd Feb '08!
something must have been really wrong with blogger!
read some of my archives,
interesting.

Those people whom i've always been mentioning that period of time.
but now, its like, we don't even talk much>at all.
though we're in the same class.
i feel much motivated.
motivated to bring the halves in a group.
you can say me selfish,
but so long as i sense that lil' bit of hope,
i'll try, no matter how much you'll hate me.

its really tiring, to know that its a friendship that is actually one-sided.
no matter how much i try,
it still remains a fact that everything has changed.
we can't hang out like those days we used to.
you seem even distant from me than a stranger,
its the multiple attempts that is bringing me down.
it takes two hands to clap.
i can't be the one who's always taking the initiative.
for this part, i agree i am selfish.
but is even catching up a bit, that difficult?
why is that i'm getting that unwanted presence in front of you.

all these trying in patching this treasured friendship,
its going to end with a goner.
i am really tired.

`x estee x`

decided to change my blog song! :D
though chris brown's with you is still up the next track!
ahhh, i am super crazy over the song!
jonas brothers -when you look me in the eyes
been hearing the song from 91.3, which is yours truly's fave station! :)

off from school today!
that's the joyous thing, i think.
well, woke up really early and headed to Big Mac.
ate hotcakes and off to shop!
mostly brother's and mum's!
just bought my leggings and socks today!
let's see:

• Day One's outfit - checked :D
• Day Two's outfit - checked :D
• Day Three's outfit - checked :D
• Day Four's outfit - checked :D
• Boots - checked :D
• Socks - checked :D
• Leggings - checked :D
• Belt - not available:/

this sucks, i didn't manage to find any nice belt!
guess i've to think of something on my own!
hmm, school's from 0730 to 0939 tomorrow.
we're allowed to wear our ethnic costumes and nice dresses.
but i'm gonna don down my school uniform instead,
which i believe many will too! ^^

miss chong's going to Melbourne :/ !
but i'm not really affected i guess,
but she's a really nice teacher though,
more to a super cool one! :D
many whom i know may beg to differ,
but anything.

mood have been rather temperamental these days,
i . don't . know . why .

`x estee x`

friends come and go,
when you realise they're really gone,
you'll feel that little emptiness inside.
only to know that by following this group of friends,
the other group will just slowly leave you one by one.

just who are real and true ones?

`x estee x`

hello peopleee! :D
many things happened!
all the way from monday night till...now!
i'm still vomitting away! :/
but oh well, heck! :)

much disappointments this week! :/
got back amath and emath test.
i could have swore i said that emath was like sooooooooo easy!
and that its a confirmed pass!
but who knows?!
CARELESS! CARELESS! CARELESS!
oh yeah one thing people!
REMIND YOURSELF TO PUT YOUR FINAL ANSWER AS 3 SIGNIFICANT FIGURES!
OR YOU WILL END UP LOSING 3 MARKS BECAUSE OF THAT! wtf.

i learn not to disappoint myself again.
seriously, i changed a bit too drastically.
in terms of character and work attitude.
LOOK! i can even forsake the computer DURING WEEKDAYS and STUDY! :)
*maybe that's a lil' too not estee.*
like a HUGE sense of achievement going around there!
and i love it!
perhaps i'm getting the drive from the people around me.
maybe i'm starting to work under stress, zerlina! :D

i shall skip through the whole week and talk about yesterday!
choir ; section bonding! :D
i had to sit in for choir not because of a sore throat,
but more to a very weak stomach.
like i can just seriously vomit anytime from eating that hokkien mee for lunch!

so so, come travel with me for alto is nice after all! :D
big'sis! , i ♥ alto tooo! :D
yeah, so section bonding!
out of the few games we played,
i only played one!
the one that we had to form a line from our names, b'day, blah blah blah.
pizza, pepsi ; couldn't eat but could enjoy the look of altos eating! :D
really look forward to choir campppp! :)

alright, papa rushing me to dota with him le!
so toodles~! {:
i learn to ♥ the tiniest bit of happy thingsmoments.

`x estee x`