"I don't wanna close my eyes,
I don't wanna fall asleep cause I'll miss you baby,
and I don't wanna miss a thing."

I so do not know why I am listening to all these emo songs.
Kathy, 'Estee doesn't wanna emo.' ):

`x estee x`

PEEK-TURES! :D

Lmaoz at thee name! :D

Today's record! :D
ANGEL:D
ANGEL:D

Happy 1 Year Friendship Angel! <3
Withh.lovee!

`x estee x`

Happy Birthday Jia Yu! :D
and Today's one year anniversary with Angel! :)
Thank you so much for the belated present and one year anniversary present!
Withh.lovee<3!

& right now, choir's learning 'Seasons of Love'! :D
'Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes'.

Classes for me have been funny and serious.
Oh kinda 'scolded' Titus yesterday, :/ !
I felt so guilty after that, but Ming Whee was giving me the thumbs up!
Even if its the right thing to do, I still feel guilty towards Titus! ):
I'm soooooooooorry! :/

Ok, off to dinner now!

`x estee x`

Finshed chinese project, like finallyyyyy! :D
Right, anyway!
Happy Birthday Regina Cheng Wen Yu aka NU REN! :D
Surprised that I still remember your birthday bah?! ^^

8 minutes past 12, and estee is sleeping~! :)

`x estee x`

Woke up at 0930hrs and headed to the market with mummy after my morning ablution.
It's been so long ever since I woke up so early with the purpose of marketing with mummy!
Bought lots of nutritious food cause Sister will be discharge!
Proceeded to the supermarket and I'm happy happy!
Cause mummy bought chocolates! ^^
& its Cadbury, to be precise! :D
Okay, have I mentioned this?
I haven't been eating chocolates and sweets for a period of time.
Then I found out that I get really thirsty and exhausted easily.
I think I am suffering from low glucose level lah! ):

But its okay, I won't have to suffer anymore!
As long as I consume chocolates and sweets!
Okay, this is so my nonsensical theory.
Right, so I did not went to the hospital to fetch sister.
Instead, I slept back after one hour of lunch.
Woke up at 1500hrs and slack.
So I think I've slacked too much and its mugging time now!

Oh, and last but not least!
Thanks for those who wished my sister! :)
& Those who were there to cheer me up!
You know who you are, so yes.
<3!

And I'm happy now.

`x estee x`

New Kids On The Block - Summertime
Do you remember,
Or should I rewind,
To that summer when you caught my eye,
I played it cool,
The weather was hot,
You had the beauty and the beach on lock.

With your flip flops, half shirt, short shorts, mini skirt,
Walkin' on the beach, so pretty,
You wasn't lookin' for a man,
When you saw me in the sand,
But you fell for the boy from the city.

I was like, "hey, girl, can I get your number"
I remember what you told me too,
"Don't call after ten"
But you know that I did,
'Cause I couldn't stop thinkin' 'bout you.

I think about you in the summertime,
(Oh oh)
And all the good times we had, baby,
Been a few years and I can't deny,
(Oh oh)
The thought of you still makes me crazy,
I think about you in the summertime,
(Oh oh)
I'm sittin' here in the sun with you on my mind.
You're my, my summertime.

Do you remember,
I'll never forget,
Touchin' your body all soakin' wet,
The water was cool,
The feelin' was hot,
Kissin' on you while the ocean rocked.

In your strapless sundress,
Kickin' back, no stress,
As long as we was together,
'Cause we were feelin' young love,
And we couldn't get enough.
Baby, I could reminisce forever.

And now I'm like,
Hey, girl, don't you know I miss it,
And I wonder if you miss it too,
Never thought it would end 'til it did,
Now, I'm here and I can't stop thinkin' 'bout you.

I think about you in the summertime,
(Oh oh)
And all the good times we had, baby,
Been a few years and I can't deny,
(Oh oh)
The thought of you still makes me crazy,
I think about you in the summertime,
I'm sittin' here in the sun with you on my mind.
You're my, my summertime.

Spoken: Break it down.

Summer ended,
Winter started,
It got colder,
When we parted ways,
(Spoken: I like this part.)
As the seasons change.
(Spoken: Bring it forward, bring it back)
Winter melted,
Spring I felt it,
Summertime will never be the same,
(Without you. My summertime.)
My summertime.

I think about you in the summertime,
I think about you
(Oh oh)
And all the good times we had, baby,
We had baby
It's been a few years and I can't deny,
I can't deny
(Oh oh)
The thought of you still makes me crazy,
Makes me crazy
I think about you in the summertime,
I'm sittin' here in the sun with you on my mind.
On my mind,
My summertime.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, oh yeah.

`x estee x`

Speech day performance was a blast! :)
I actually woke up at 6 plus on a Saturday!
HEE! :D
Okay, i took so bloody long to bun my hair.
So by the time I left house at 0735hrs, I reached school at 0743hrS?
Yep, met Sandra then Teresa came, followed on Vivien!
Juniors make my day! :)
Zerlina & KangQi, I know juniors like me made your day too! :P
Haha! :D

Met up with Kathy and YY.
Dearest Kathy was burning with fever! ):
So entrusted her with Derrick, Lol!

Home Sweet Home, used the comp for a while then napped till 5!
Proceeded to the hospital to visit Sister!
Then afterwhich, went Geylang with Family w/o Sister, Mama, Er-yi & San-yi! :D
Headed back to CGH again cause Sister was hungry!
Waited in the car while mum and brother delivered the food up to her.
Thought about some matters.

And now here I am! :)

`x estee x`

Was at the hospital again.
Thought everything had settled down.
But instead it got more complicated and I even heard words like 'scans' and 'surgery'.
:/

`x estee x`

Happened to be hopping past Yi Han's blog and saw this quiz, :) !

Your dating personality profile: Romantic - You know exactly how to melt your date's heart. Romance comes naturally to you and is an important component of any relationship you have. Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love. Funny - You laugh often. People never accuse you of lacking a sense of humor. You don't take yourself too seriously.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Romantic 2. Big-Hearted 3. Funny 4. Athletic 5. Liberal 6. Adventurous 7. Wealthy/Ambitious 8. Outgoing 9. Traditional 10. Practical

Your date match profile: Outgoing - Shy and timid people are not who you are after. You need someone with a vibrant personality to breathe life into a relationship. Romantic - You need someone with a traditional understanding of romance. A true romantic is a must-have in any potential date. Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart.

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Outgoing 2. Romantic 3. Funny 4. Adventurous 5. Athletic 6. Practical 7. Big-Hearted 8. Conservative 9. Traditional 10. Wealthy/Ambitious

Take the Dating Profile Quiz at Would I Date You

`x estee x`

Woke up at 0745hrs this morning and it isn't a Tuesday, so I'm late! ):
But, it doesn't make much difference about detention!
Reported to Mr Wong and requested to do my Animation.
Of course, he allowed me to go up! :D
HEE!

Yeah, so starting of the day was E.M.O period! ):
But it got much better after/during english cause I decided that I should not emo!
After school was nice!
K.E.Y sat down and talked,crapped,laughed at each other's stupidity and dumb retarded photos! :D
Thank you so much girlfriends! <3
You both are very much appreciated!

It felt so wrong today.

`x estee x`

1o FREAKING DAYS.
TELL ME HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE WITH IT FOR 10 FREAKING DAYS.
WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN?!
I WANNA SEE HER NOW, NOW, NOW!
NOT 10 DAYS LATER.
NOW, LET ME SEE HER NOW.

HOW CAN YOU FALL LIKE THAT,
STAND UP YOU IDIOT.
STAND UP AND SCOLD ME.
STAND UP AND SLAP ME IN THE FACE.
240708 ;
She's much better now! :)

`x estee x`

Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don’t read the questions until you have named the 20 people. At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this.

1. Zerlina
2. KangQi
3. Riffin
4. Tracy
5. Jerrold
6. Kathy
7. YuYing
8. Titus
9. JingYu
10. Desmond
11. Gordon
12. Ming Whee
13. Yi Jia
14. Mark
15. Iris
16. Bryan
17. Judaxil
18. Nisya
19. Teresa
20. Yi Ling


How did you meet #14?
Mark
Dunman Secondary School, ever since last year's geography trip.

What would you do if you didn’t meet #1?
Zerlina
My life would be so lost without her, she made a very huge impact on my life.

What if #9 and #20 dated?
Jing Yu and Yi Ling
Maybe Yi Ling is too tall for him.

Will #6 and #17 date?
Kathy and Judaxil.
They're both girls?

Describe #3.
Riffin
Simple, No Riffin = No Estee.
He's my papa.

Is #8 attractive?
Titus
He's a great friend, but maybe attractive sounds wrong.

Describe #7.
YuYing
Best girlfriend I ever had.

Know any of #12’s family members?
MingWhee
Totally not.

What will you do if #18 confesses to you that he/she likes you?
Nisya
She wouldn't cause she is straight.

What language doesn’t #15 speaks?
Iris
English, Chinese, Brain language.

Who is #9 going out with?
JingYu
No one.

How old is #16?
Bryan
Sixteen.

When was the last time you spoke to #13?
Yi Jia
On the bus just now?

Who is #2 favourite band/singer?
KangQi
Too many that I don't know?

Is #19 single?
Teresa
Yes, from what I know.

What is #10 last name?
Desmond
Desmond?

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
Gordon
Never, ever, ever.

School of #3?
Riffin
Dunman Secondary School.

How does #5 talk?
Jerrold
Emoish-ly.

Where does #6 live?
Kathy
Tampines.

What’s your favourite thing about #4?
Tracy
Best BCP too.

What’s the best thing about #20?
Yi Ling
She'll always be there to let you have a good laugh.

What makes #17 a good friend?
Judaxil
She's a good listener.

When was the last time you saw #14?
Mark
It seems like days since I last saw him.

Five people you want to do this: Zerlina, Riffin, Kathy, YuYing, Titus

`x estee x`

230708 ; Learning Journey

The funny Rebecca Auw.

YY outside S7.
YiJia,QE,YY.
Random road.
Rubber Tiles.
XinJie,HuiMin,Rachel.Erh,Samantha'?'
TingXuan & AuwAuw
AuwAuw waving enthusiastically!
The two 'haunted,freaky' chandelier.
Exterior,

Structure.
Back to the olden days,
typewriter.
Judge's Office.

Sister's in hospital, Girlfriend cried. :/
Someone tell me why is this happening?
Sometimes, it gets really tiring to see unhappiness spreading.

Anyway, special thanks to Riffinpapa for sending me home, yet again!
Papa, you know what, I really miss him! ):

If only , you're here for me to lie on your shoulder.

`x estee x`

190708 ; Mama's Birthday!

`x estee x`

Saturday was dearest Granny's birthday!
Happy Belated Birthday!
Pictures up next!

& TODAY,
IS BELOVED SI HUI'S BIRTHDAY! :)
&, &
REGAN'S BIRTHDAY,
&, &
SERA'S BIRTHDAY,
& LAST BUT NOT LEAST,
WEN XIN'S BIRTHDAY! ^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)

`x estee x`

THIS LITTLE LIGHT OF MINE~
Okay, so today was a really really long day! ):
Woke up at 0555hrs and reached school at 0630hrs!
School's really freaky scary in the morning!
Saw Shaun, but didn't get to say Hi.

So tried to find my E Math worksheet in my Chemistry File.
And the freaking thing that pissed me off was that my worksheet was all along in my file, behind my E Math Test! ):
Never mind, 15 minutes later Richard reached school, finally!
Followed on AuwAuw came!
Hahahahaha! AuwAuw is such a cute name lah! :D

* To be continued tomorrow when I'm free! *
yep, so PE was first up!
played basketball again, this time with Kathy, YY, Tits, Yi Jia, Med, MingWhee & Jeremy.S! :D
super funny!
the girls pawnz the guys with 13-1! :)
then SS was up next.
went through a lil' of 'Bonding Singapore'!
Finally! , Singapore history! :D
*Skip skip skip*~

After school, choir immediately.
Met Mark, The Juniors(Teresa,Sandra,Vivian)!
Lunched first then meet at Hall!
String Ensemble,Guitar Ensemble and Concert Band were there too! :D
Rehearsed, then it was the Interact Club Installation performance!
Over and done with! :)

`x estee x`

`x estee x`

YOU STUPID IDIOT IMPERSONATOR,

I KNOW THAT YOU'RE IN COMPUTER CLUB.

DON'T EVEN BOTHER HIDING YOUR IDENTITY.

GET A LIFE, SERIOUSLY.

I HAVE PEOPLE FROM CHOIR, GUITAR ENSEMBLE, STRING ENSEMBLE AND CONCERT BAND TO PROVE I WAS AT SPEECH DAY REHEARSAL AT THAT POINT OF TIME, LOSER!

I TOTALLY HATE AND DESPISE PEOPLE LIKE YOU.

`x estee x`

BOOMBABAYA! :D
Estee is happy because:
-She scored a perfect grade of A2 for A math & E Math Test! :D
-D.I.S.C PROFILING was nice and fun and crazy and high! :D
-The class tee was nice and nice and nice! :D
-She is able to talk to dumbdumb again, without feeling awkward! (:

misses&loves<3!

`x estee x`

OH MY GOD, MY SUPER TALENTED AH LIUUUU!
I am starting to fall for his voice! :D
Enjoy people! :)

`x estee x`

I remember hating GSGW and DMKM for at least 30sec just now!
God, why do you both even have to mention ... !
... : neves-ho-ytnewt :D
Try guessing!
But ya! It seems as if they know something lor!
But I really have to wait and see,
what's gonna happen...

Oh well, back to a bit of mugging then teevee! :D
okay random,
but alteeee is loveee<3! :)

`x estee x`

The Seasons ; Autumn

Fallen leaves are whispering a tale
About the beauty of the Autumn Queen,
And of her skin, so smooth and pale,
And of her eyes, of which we dream.

And fools and ignorant are those,
Who think that Autumn is the death of things.
She’s just a lady, that comes so close,
That of her touch, nature falls asleep.
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A Heart’s Desire

Ahrataneb II, 28th Empror or Neär, sighed and watched the two young men standing in front of him. He had been much like them himself once: handsome, proud, confident – and madly in love with exactly the wrong person.

Nehreb, on the right, returned his gaze somewhat defiantly, his red, albino eyes sparkling. As always, he was dressed extravagantly yet impeccably; the blue, gold and silver of his clothes contrasted starkly with his smooth ivory skin and long silvery hair. And as always, Ahrataneb wondered why he had let the boy become such a clown, and worse, such a stranger to him. He always had to look hard to see some resemblance of himself in his son’s pale features, and at times he even wondered if Nehreb was truly his. But that was a question not worth the effort of answering, he had decided long ago.

Next to Nehreb – close but not touching – stood Coriander, or Corian, as his family and friends had taken to call him – undoubtedly something that had been started by Nehreb. Unlike Nehreb, Corian’s appearance seemed to be a homage to both his parents; he had his mother’s fair hair, sky blue eyes and sunny smile, and his father’s height, strong features and stubbornness. And of course that uncanny ability to know others’ emotions.

Even now, Ahrataneb was not sure he was alone inside his own mind, and made an effort to avoid certain memories. Memories of another pair of star-crossed lovers, of two friends long lost. But how was that possible, with those same two friends staring at him from behind those azure eyes?

Nehreb softly scraped his throat and shifted his weight to his other foot. He stole a glance at Corian, and Corian glanced back. They were waiting for him to speak, Ahrataneb realized. He felt he needed another moment to gather his thoughts, though, and let his gaze wander beyond the two young men, to take in the Great Hall stretched out before him. At this particular moment, he was grateful for the pocket of relative silence that enveloped him and the boys; the rest of the Great Hall was filled with light, laughter, talk and music as the courtiers, diplomats, lords and ladies, and bureaucrats of his court were indulging in their favourite pastime: gossip. He had ordered the court not to approach the dais where his throne stood, in order to be able to talk to his son and Coriander in peace and quiet. He knew his wife, that damned woman, would be close by, though, trying to overhear their conversation. Her curiosity was near insatiable, as was her appetite for gossip. And standing before him was the juiciest bit of gossip this court had known in years.

He took a deep breath, and shifted in his seat. His back sent outraged protests up his spine, and he cursed his old age, and his throne. The thing was a splendid symbol of Neär’s wealth and grandeur, but was as comfortable as the rocks upon which his castle was built.

‘Well,’ he said. ‘Obviously, you two know why I have summoned you.’ They looked at each other, sharing a secretive little smile. But both their smiles faded into a serious expression once they turned back to him.

‘Yes,’ Nehreb said, ‘I told Corian what you said before dinner.’ There it was again, that defiant look. It was a look that said, ‘no one has ever cared what I do or don’t do; why should it start to matter now?’

‘Good. Then you both know that I don’t think this is a good idea. Nehreb, this doesn’t become a Prince of Neär. And Coriander, your grandparents will not approve.’

‘They didn’t approve of my parents’ relationship either, Sire,’ Coriander said. ‘But my parents didn’t let that stop them.’

‘No, and they paid a higher price for it than you know,’ Ahrataneb answered, while a vision of another, taller, older man briefly replaced the boy standing in front of him. Like father, like son, as the saying went. He hadn’t been able to prevent Coriander’s father from throwing away everything in pursuit of his heart’s desire; would he be able to stop Coriander? Or would his feelings get the better of him, once again?

‘In any case,’ he continued, ‘that was an entirely different situation. Back then, it was about social status; the heiress of the Second House running off with a minor lord? It was unheard of, to say the least.’ Nehreb opened his mouth to say something, but Ahrataneb cut him off. ‘I don’t mean to say that your liaison is any less unheard of, but there’s more at stake this time. Corian, your grandparents forgave their daughter in order to preserve the future of their House, but your relationship with Nehreb is destroying all that. Did you completely forget about your duties as heir of the House of Emberval?’

‘I did not ask for that kind of responsibility, Your Majesty,’ Coriander said.

‘No, but you have it, and you can’t just simply ignore it.’

‘No. No, I can’t,’ Coriander said softly, and looked at Nehreb. ‘But I can’t ignore my feelings for Nehreb either.’ Nehreb blushed slightly – and prettily, a somewhat detached part of Ahrataneb thought – and smiled. Then, he turned to Ahrataneb, pleading with his eyes for – what? Leniency, acceptance, mercy? All of those, and more? He sighed gravely; he sympathised with the two of them, simply because of what had happened twenty years ago, and he knew it. He was going to let them walk away, like he had let Vervain and Myria walk away. The only difference was that this time, no one would be walking away with half his heart.

‘Father,’ Nehreb said. ‘Who knows what the future will bring? I mean… this,’ his hand searched for Corian’s, almost of its own volition, it seemed, and clasped it tightly, ‘doesn’t have to mean that Corian will never marry, or that… We’re still young, and although I of course want this to last more than anything in the world, it doesn’t mean that it has to. Anything could happen. Why not let us have this chance? Let’s worry about what will come when it arrives. Please?’ Ahrataneb sighed, closing his eyes for a second. The thrumming of voices and sounds around them pounded on his skull, making it hard for him to think. But what was there to think about? Deep down he’d already made his decision, and like twenty years ago, it was bound to be the wrong one.

‘I can’t stop you,’ he said. ‘As your Emperor, I could order you to give each other up, but…’ But because of who you are, and who your father was, Corian, and who I was, I can’t. He didn’t say that out loud, though, and searched Corian’s face for a sign that the boy had picked up that thought, but could find none. ‘I can’t stop you,’ he repeated. ‘But I beg you… be careful. And Coriander, don’t be surprised if your grandparents disown you because of this, and send you back to your father’s lands.’ His last words, meant to be stern, came out weak and futile, but Coriander nodded as if he was fully considering them. Then, both he and Nehreb bowed, and walked away, their hands still linked.

Ahrataneb sagged in his throne and watched them go, watched them disappear among the crowds. Again, he had failed. Again, he had battled against love, and lost.

The crowds were closing in on him again. Before long, there would be someone who wanted to talk to him – most likely, his wife, demanding to know what kind of trouble their youngest son had worked himself in this time. And if there was one person he could not tolerate right now, it was his wife. In fact, there was only one place he could be alone, or rather, alone in the company of ghosts from the past.

Quietly and as quickly as his old, broken body would let him, Ahrataneb left the Great Hall, and for the moment, left the world to those young enough to think it could be changed.

`x estee x`

Human Figure Drawing ;

I feel very much accomplished for animation today. :)
Though something happened just now, but I still proceed on with the drawing of Human Figure Drawing.
So now I am left with English and E Math.
Get going Estee Kho, mugging period starts now.

The tears that wept was very much cause of the hurt and not the pain.
Even though it scarred on the exterior,
The pain will always be even more on the interior.
I have myself to blame for being rude at first,
but I'm very sure I am not the only one.
But then again, I'm the only one that is being dealth with.
It never change, does it?

`x estee x`

Met mumsy, eryi and mama at TM just now with sister and kz.
Separated from sis and kz and went to Singtel with mumsy while aunty and mama proceeded on with their massage at 'Wan Yang'.
Dined at Han's ; ate Fish & Chips.
Home Sweet Home.

Most probably cutting my hair tomorrow.
Hope that my fringe will turn out okay.
(something happened, didn't go to the salon in the end.)
1.53am and I am not in bed :/ .

Homework
; English
; Animation
; E Math
That's all I guess.

I wanna start mugging, motivation please? :(

`x estee x`

The Bottom Line
Protect your feelings from aggressive people by avoiding controversial topics.

In Detail
Your deep feelings about a controversial issue might not be received well by the company you'll be keeping today, so try to avoid bringing it up. It's a privacy matter -- right now you won't really want to get into heavy details about things with people who you don't think will understand. Protecting yourself from criticism is the right thing to do right now. There is some aggressive energy around you that should be countered with a mysterious smile and a diplomatic 'no comment.'

`x estee x`

I just don't know what to do anymore, okay.
I know this friendship is one of the closest.

`x estee x`

Random Photos ;

Casper! :)

090708 ; Prataaa Pon.


ver.#1 ver.#2

`x estee x`

i kinda miss the times when we would play bball everyday.and not give a care
bout homework nor going home early.life was like a dream. a really sweet one
with all ur friends in it.as a chapter ends, a new chapter of our lives
begins.with new friends, new experiences and probably new love.but my greatest
wish is to relive one day of what i used to have. just one day.the katong
laksas, queenstown shoppings, seoul garden celebrations, the daily bball, the
usual late night confs and the weekend movies. but all of that has disappeared.
that is how much life can change in just 2 years.

source:http://mousebyte.blogspot.com by Han.

EMO.IN.PROGRESS.

`x estee x`

Jon McLaughlin - So Close
You're in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

As life goes by
Romantic dreams will start
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

`x estee x`

Didn't have the time to blog properly yesterday cause
1) I was totally drained out.
2) I didn't have much time on the comp.

I managed to blog the things that made me laugh/happy.
But now, I'm gonna blog the thing that made me sad.
I TOTALLY MISS LEON HO
AS A PART OF ALTO! :/
I know he'll totally do well in Bass, but its just so long!
From the day I was in alto last year till now, time really pass that fast!
Ya, its not as if he's out of choir, no big deal.
But I don't know why the blow was quite a harsh one yesterday.
I guess the other altos could understand why. ;(
No more bitchings and 'laughing my ass off' with Leon anymoreee! ):
We will miss you Leon! =/

Ok, and we welcome:
1) Si Hui
2) Joycelyn
3) Wan Jing
4) Reena
to Altos! :)
AND NOT TO FORGET,
PEIKHENG FOR COMING BACKK! :D

`x estee x`

Are you crazy?
-aryacrazey
He miss you.
-Himizue
So hot leh.
-Soholeh
She got dye hair.
-shegodieh

HEHEHE. :D

`x estee x`

SYF OPENING PREVIEW :D

`x estee x`