What if?

What if, I say I want to leave silently?

`x estee x`

Hot & Cold

I really wish I was in Paris nowwwww!
...On second thoughts, I think I'm uploading all my photos on FB!

You're hot then you're cold, you're yes then you're no, you're in and you're out, you're up and down.

`x estee x`

CNY.Eve :D

It's Chinese New Year Eve! :D
Right, watched Transformers last night on DVD! :)
Hahaha, first time use daddy's computer to blog.
Okay, not really exactly new.
New cause it's a new big screen,
and thus it is like so so cool! :P

hahahaha, okok.
Oh, woke up at 1145hrs today and headed to Mama's house to pass her the hamper.
Ate at 201 Afghanistan Restaurant. o.o
yeah, then home sweet home!

Oh well, Happy Chinese New Year's Eve everyone'! :D

`x estee x`

OMG! :O

These few days have been total madness.
Within a week,
I scolded CL fuck you,
I shouted at a very very close friend of mine during P.E ): ,
I shouted at CL, again.
Seriously, I don't like people to betray my trust.
If I say I trust you, I really do.
So don't do anything stupid to break my trust!
But all has past now, but still very disappointed with CL. >:(

Oh oh oh ya~ oh my godddddddddd!
DID I MENTION, I LOVEEEE 4D2 TO THE BITS LAH! :D
WE ARE SO FREAKING BONDED, AS COMPARED TO LAST YEAR LAH!
HAHAHAHA, I AM SO HAPPY! ^.^
OH MY GODDDDDDD~ I THINK I AM NOT IN THE STATE OF BLOGGING NOW ._.
PHOTOS PHOTOS? YES YES! ^.^

`x estee x`

A Lost Friend ):

Dear estee,
thanks a lot! 14 February 2007! Happy Valentine's Day! Okays, celebrate
with your friends alrites! xD Thanks for always being there for me whenever I
needed you! Really glad to have you as a part of the family tree <3

Hahaha! Guess what! I emo-ed over this for 10 mins! ): Irissss~

`x estee x`

seven minutes, thirty-five seconds of love.

seven minutes, thirty-five seconds of love.

`x estee x`

Happy happy happy! :D

I am happy happy happy :D because:

1. I went to Bugis Junction and Vivo City yesterday and shopped my lungs out!
2. I bought 2 tops and 1 bottom for CNY from Outfitter Girls yesterday!
3. I really really loveee the red/black polka dotcheckered top that I bought cause it reminds me of my childhood dresses!
4. I also bought a green casual top from Esprit/EDC!
5. Oh, I forgot to mention this. The other top from Outfitter Girls is the same green as the top I bought from Esprit/EDC! :D
6. I ate Pastamania's Banana Dessert Pizza for lunch yesterday!
7. I managed to catch the really nice and pretty scenic view of the night sky at Vivo's highest floor!I really agree with Brother that it is really romantic there! I wish.. I wish..! :)

He made me realise what is love at first sight, you made me realise what is love.

`x estee x`

Physical & Mental Distraught

I'm getting fragile and frailer now.
Mentally & physically.

Don't know why, why am i not and looking forward onto Monday.
19 Jan 09, judgement day.
Operation - Yes, No?
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I am all down and worn out.
I am broken, because the shriek has reach to an extreme.
An extreme of don't know why, don't know how.

Love - Paternal love.
Is it really that important to me?
So why do I always respond in this manner,
if it doesn't bothers me?
My heartfelt words - yet who understands?
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Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

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I realised, I dislike people who tries to act like they know me and understand how I feel...

`x estee x`

From Alto to Soprano.

Okay, I really don't know why I still can't get over the fact that I'm in Soprano now.
I mean, it's cool, really.
But as cause I've been singing Alto ever since I stepped in DmnChoir,
therefore explains the blank state.
But at the same time, I think it's because the nostalgic moments that Altos shared and bonded,
make me feel... sad?

I still remember the day when I first step into my first sectionals,
Winnie, Jie Ling and Amy were my first SLs,
and they welcomed me happily. :D
Then my first year of choir wasn't really much as I did not participate in SYF and the Europe Tour'07.
But came Sec Three, I suddenly bloomed from that muffled girl to a person who practically blast her voice now.
Then there was "I Believe" concert, St.Regis Hotel Performance on my birthday, Speech Day, Interact Club Installation Performance, and Dunman's 45th Anniversary!

Yeah, the the next batch of SLs,
Kang Qi, Shermaine, Leon!
Then there was Nisya, Judaxil and Sheri!

I think I should be getting over it pretty soon.
Beautiful memories are etched deep within the heart. :)
Right, gambatte Estee Kho Xiao Juan! :D

`x estee x`

Change?

Today, I almost opened my damn mouth to scold a close friend of mine 'fuck you'.
Wow, I think this is so scary.
Estee Kho is changing,
It's difficult to remain calm and compose like last time.
It's tedious to keep giving in all the time.
It's hard to believe that I'm changing,
and I totally do not want that to happen.
Cause I know what the outcome will jolly well be,
A Bitch.

`x estee x`

Choir auditions.

Wow, lots of things happened today.
Choir auditions.
Took 1F with Jing Yong.
Even though I had to shout to communicate with them,
cause they complained i was soft[?!],
I'm still content that they brought me laughter this afternoon.
Thanks Ya Kai for accompanying me while that Jing Yong keep leaving classroom,
to look for chio bus'.
It was nice seeing Jerrold and the rest.

`x estee x`

Humans

Human nature, human reaction, human behaviour.
I am sick and tired of all this shit.

`x estee x`

:/

It actually shows how much you care.

`x estee x`

Tonight - FM Static

I remember the times we spent together
On those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together
Were not enough
And I used to feel like dreamin'
Except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait

I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus
And how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad
Sometimes not having you here
I sing

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight...

`x estee x`

Choir Farewell ' 08

`x estee x`

Back to School! :D

Goodbye 2008 and Hello 2009! :D
Okay, first day of school today!
I felt like I didn't even sleep at all. o.o
haha! But oh well, it wasn't what I expected.
I swear it was really weird okay!
Like you don't get to sec the '08 batch. -.-
I always get this feeling lor!
Last year like that, this year also like that. ):

But yeah, it's nice going back to school! :D
I wanna studyyyy! :)
& I think our new classroom is really cooooool!
Oh and I am so so happy today!
MING WHEE, MUAHAHAHAHAH!
I was telling him to watch out during one of our conversation during the holidays!
YAY, now he's the Chairperson & Shi Hui's the Vice-Chair!
Then Yi Jia is welfare and Samantha is Resource! :D
I believe in you peopleeee!

Haha! Oh yep, photos next post! ;)

`x estee x`