HEY guys! (:

EeeEeeE! =/

its the holidays! =/

sobs! ='/

i MISS 1E!

okay, woke up around 11plus today?
hahas' xP JEROME was LATE for maths class today. =P
actually not his fault lahhs'
he received the news at 1am yesterday? think so' yupps!
hmms'
oh yeahh' and i composed a song yesterday! ((:
i call it "star light, star bright."
is a very SHORT song lahh'
but i liked the tune LOTS!

Star light.

Star bright.

I wish I may.

I wish I might.

That you will be here tonight.

For every hope and every dream.

There will always be a miracle within me.

I know I will be strong for you and me.

okays.

wadd I've been during the past few days?

err. EAT. SLEEP. PLAY. ((:

crapp' lahs.

I very guai one lorz.

cleared up the house just now.

now its so SPICK & SPAN! (:

tee-heex.

okay.

you might not believe this.

but ESTEE KHO actually READ!

because this book just TOTALLY entices me.

The title is called "You Are Here".

Written by Low Kay Hwa, a 21 year-old student who's studying at Singapore Polytechnic.

you peeps should also get his second novel titled "I Believe You".

Its just AMAZING.

Its like so REALITY' please.

I am SO gonna read the book finish by TONIGHT! ((:

It took me like THREE nights to read can!

Modern Dance is starting tomorrow. =/ sighh.

okay, shall end here.

toodLES! ((:

'estee

1. Full name :Kho Xiao Juan Estee ;D
2. Name backwards: eetsE nauJ oaiX ohK
3. Were you named after someone: yupps! Estee Lauder. xP
4. Meaning of name: hmms' not sure?!?
5. Nickname: blackbabyme; pi gu cha(sickening!) ice tea.. blah blah. :D
6. Screen name: 'estee.
7.D.O.B: 22nd may 93 ;D
8. Place of birth: KK hospital ;D
9. Nationality: singaporean.
10.Current location: Master Bedroom
11. Star sign: gemini
12. Religion: Taoism (;
13. Height: around 154 to 156.
14.Weight: =X
15. Shoe size: size 5.
16.Hair colour: brownish black ;D
17. Eye colour: black
18. Who do you look like: MYSELF! duh. -.-''
19. Innie or outtie: dunno. =X
20. Leftie or rightie: right!
21. Gay, straight, bi or others: LESBIAN! bleahz. xP kiddin' (: PURE GIRL.
22.Best friends: Riffin! xP (err, someone dun get JEALOUS hor. =X refering to a gal.) 1E family tree! (: Wei Chong. KangQi.<-(my JIES & KORS!)-> Nicholas. Tessandra. ZzzzZ so many lehz!
23. Best friend you trust most:Riffin! (as usual, dun get jealous!)
24. Favourite pals: Joanna- Darx!(:
25. Best friend of opposite sex: Riffin! (no JEALOUSY! to someone. =X)
26. Best buddies: TOO many to list lahhs!
27. Boyfriend or girlfriend: uhh.. darling. =X
28. Crush: DEAR. <3
29. Parents: Tabatha & Albert.
30. Worst enemy: Not so worse until WORST lahhs'.
31. Favourite online guy: Darling. =X
32. Favourite online girl: Shu Ting. (:
33. Craziest friend: Darx JOANNA! Mummy SI HUI!
34. Advice friend: hanRIFFIN. ;D
36. Person you cry with: my DEAR ah-mahs! (:
37. Any sisters: Chanel.(:
38. Any brother: Jerome.(:
39. Any pets: used to. =/DIED! ='/
40. Disease: nope! (:
41.Pagers: agree with lynn: old-fashioned.
42. Personal phone line: hhuh?? =Z
43. Cell phone: ****8713
45. Pool or hot tub: Pool.
46. A car: not yet.
47. Your personality: shall leave that to the TAGGERS at my blog. (:
48. Driving: NIL-.
49. Room: bedroom.
50. What's missing: CHOCOLATES!
51. School: dunmanSECONDARY.
52. Bed colour: mattress!
53. Relationship with parents: TOP SECRET!
54. Believe in yourself: SOMETIMES.
55. Believe in love at first sight: Yupps! but it didn't happened to ME.
56. Good listener: Don't ask me.
57. Get along well with parents: definitely NO! but sometimes lahhs'
58. Save email conversations: YUPPS! for certain people!
59. Pray: for good results.
60. Believe in reincarnation: I am a TAOIST. hello?!? what do you think?
61. Make fun of people: more to like people making fun of me?
62. Like to talk on the phone: ALMOST everyday to a certain person can?
63. Want to get married: EDUCATION & CAREER first.
64. Like to drive: Prefers riding a motorbike. (:
65.Motion sickness: SOMETIMES.
66. Eat stem of brocolli: Depends if its SOFT or HARD.
67. Eat chicken with fork: yeps.
68. Dream in colour: meaning?
69. Type with your finger on home role: huh?
70. Sleep with stuff animals: not animals but my BELOVED care bear aka BUBBLES.
71. Next to you: my DEAR handphone.
72. On the walls of your room: I don't have a room of my own.
73. On your mousepad: Precious Moments. ((:
74. Dream car: BLACK. <33
75. Dream Date: silence. =X
76. Dream honeymoon spot: PARIS ! <3
77. Dream husband or wife: why think so FAR?
78. Bedtime: IRREGULAR. (:
79. Under your bed: NiL-
80. Single most important question: How'd I know?
81. Bad time of a day: not able to sing well.
82. Your worst fear: DARKness.
83. The weather is: cooling.
84. Time: 8.40pm
85. Date: 28/10/06(WINNIE'S birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!)
86. Best trick did on someone: can't remember
87. Theme song: 只对你说 Sarang Heyo.
88. Hardest things about growing up: Learning to live by each day.
89. Funniest experience: it's difficult to remember something that happened so long ago.
90. Scariest experience: going to HAUNTED house at Escape Theme Park I think'
91. Silliest thing you have ever said to a teacher: did i even said anything silly? hmms'
92. Scariest thing while you are with your friends: being left alone with someone who you can't communicate?
93. Worst feeling: ACCUSATION & MISUNDERSTOOD.
94. Best feeling in the world: to be LOVED.
95. Choose 15 to do this quiz:
shuTING.
bryAN.
riffIN.
siHUI.
joANNA.
liJIN.
amaNDA.
kangQI.
zerLINA.
nichoLAS.
weiCHONG.
sianPEI.
jerrOLD.
judaXIL.
moSES.

okays.
its the LAST of school today!
really hope that TIME could just STOP.
1E'06 really really ROCKS!
but I know that it would never happen for we all have to be seperated sooner or later. =/
but in our hearts.
1E'06 will FOREVER remain as 1E'06.
and this song: What I've Been Looking For
will FOREVER be 1E'06 class song yeahh'? (:
HEARTZ' 1E'06!

got back results today.
received a packet of chocolate from Mdm Radiah.
for improving by 4.1%. (:
but still not that happy with my results though i felt i had put in my best. =/
but whatever happens, I WILL work hard next year!
no matter what, MUST get into 3C'08!(meeting shu ting there!) xD
JIAYOUS!
we can make it!

'estee

NO more HATRED i guess.

FINALLY!

got the chance to BLOG. >_<
wells.
yesterday went to watch DEATH NOTE!
it just ROCK lahhs !!

"L" SUPER cute! ((:
Light is SHUAI! ((:
but of course "L" ROCK LOTS!!

hehe.
LOVE the show!
SO gonna watch DEATH NOTE THE LAST NAME !
can't wait for it at DECEMBER!
must watch yeahh'?
hehex.
after watching went to took neos.
so CUTE! xP
i shan't say WHY. =X
kangqi & nicholas.
ehh...
hahas'
ok lahhs'
dun go and probe them about it horz.
gotta go Aranda to visit my xiao-gu-gu lexz.
so TOODLES! (:

DEATH NOTE rocks! ((: LOVES! <3

'estee

*CRIES*
wahh!! just watched finish I Not Stupid Too.
guess wadd?
like 7/8 of the time I am crying lahh'!!
so EMO lorr me.
actually, I AM!
not the first time that I'm crying while watching a movie.
but is just SUPER touching and all lahhs'!
I kinda used up the remaining 1/2 of the tissue box lahhs'!
which means 85 pieces!! -.-''
Now my eyes are so SORE and SMALL liaos. x/
but its worth it i guess'

Jack Neo Films are SUPER touching man!
so gonna catch all of his productions.
sobs sobs. ='/
its just UNEXPRESSIONLESS.


hmms' talk about school today.
well, we spent like ALL of our time in hall today?
hmms' never went up to class cept to place and take our bags. (:
now here i am ALONE. (x
enjoying the PEACE from the outside.
ta-DA! xD

'estee

to SOMEONE:

You asked me to take charge for the group yesterday and now you are coming to tell me that you aren't happy with me for taking charge.
Is it my fault?
or should I say, DID i even wanna take charge?
Is it even MY fault that those people kept asking me questions abt the team.
Firstly, ask yourself.
How many times have you said things BEHIND my back that ruined this FRIENDSHIP?
Many times you have just break this friendship into a situation that I have NOTHING TO SAY.
and basically is always about things that I am being MISUNDERSTOOD.
Your common test Lit marks.
Was I even desperate to know it?
But what happened?
You make ME the one that was desperate to know it and therefore I wanna open your table to see.
But did you even get the facts right?
NO!
I DIDN'T EVEN GIVE A DAMN TO YOUR LIT MARKS!
but you make it sound as if I am so DESPO to know it when it wasn't me.
Never Mind.
Learned to FORGIVE&FORGET.
fine!
but seriously, I canNOT tolerate this ANYMORE!
Don't blame me for dao-ing you.
There's nothing else I have to say to you.

'estee

I didn't had an intention to write your name so that it wouldn't be KNOWN to anyone.

but its OBVIOUS of who you are.

And i have no intention to embarrass you.

speakUP'-estee'

yupps!
FINALLY a post from saturday till now rights?

hahas'
TODAY is THE most UNITED day EVER!!!
1E'06 totally ROCK my LIFE!
this day is FOREVER remembered by ME!
The people who sang in front of the teachers ROCK even more!
BRAVERY!
Thanks to these people, my LIFE was filled with no REGRETS to be in this class. (:
-Amanda
-Si Hui
-Shu Ting
-Ezati
-Halima
-Shaun
-Yikai
-Jeremy
-Jonathan
-Eugene
-Danny
THANK YOU people! YOU really rawk today! TOTALLY! (x

and not to forget the WHOLE of 1E'ians that made the restaurant a success! (;
heartz you all!

and last but not least, the person that i REALLY wanna thank most.
Jerome. (:
thanks for his advice yesterday!
appreciate it LOTS!
and because of his words made me wanna make today a FUN and 1E day! (x

1E! we shall all work hard towards our goals and dreams.
MOTIVATION is what we should really have.
I believe we all can achieve big things and be the GREATEST person.
Always TOGETHER as ONE.
Will always be there for each other.
1E! JIAYOUS!

'estee HEARTZ 1E'06 FOREVER!

'estee

today was a BORING day.
practically did NOTHING at all.
only did TWO posters for the Marketing & Publicity Team and 3 bookmarks.
yeahh;
the bookmarks are to be given to 3 of my FAVOURITE teachers!
-Mdm Radiah((:
-Mdm Sharifah((:
-Miss Cheong((:

hehex. xP
haiz.
boredd' gonna find something to do!
toodLES! xD

'estee

someone is very proud of you
someone is thinking of you
someone cares about you
someone misses you
someone wants to talk to you
someone wants to be with you
someone hopes you aren't in trouble
someone is thankful for the support you have provided
someone wants to hold your hand someone hopes everything turns out all right
someone wants you to be happy
someone wants you to find them
someone is celebrating your successes
someone wants to give you a gift
someone think you ARE a gift
someone hopes you are not too cold, or too hot
someone wants to hug you
someone loves you
someone wants to lavish you with small gifts
someone admires your strength
someone is thinking of you and smiling
someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on
someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun
someone thinks the world of you
someone wants to protect you
someone would do anything for you
someone wants to be forgiven
someone is grateful for your forgiveness
someone wants to laugh with you about old times
someone remembers you and wishes you were there
someone needs to know that your love is unconditional
somebody values your advice
someone wants to tell you how much they care
someone wants to stay up watching old movies with you
someone wants to share their dreams with you
someone wants to hold you in their arms
someone wants YOU to hold them in your arms
someone treasures your spirit
someone wishes they could someone is very proud of you
someone is thinking of you
someone cares about you
someone misses you
someone wants to talk to you
someone wants to be with you
someone hopes you aren't in trouble
someone is thankful for the support you have provided
someone wants to hold your hand someone hopes everything turns out all right
someone wants you to be happy
someone wants you to find them
someone is celebrating your successes
someone wants to give you a gift
someone think you ARE a gift
someone hopes you are not too cold, or too hot
someone wants to hug you
someone loves you
someone wants to lavish you with small gifts
someone admires your strength
someone is thinking of you and smiling
someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on
someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun
someone thinks the world of you
someone wants to protect you
someone would do anything for you
someone wants to be forgiven
someone is grateful for your forgiveness
someone wants to laugh with you about old times
someone remembers you and wishes you were there
someone needs to know that your love is unconditional
somebody values your advice
someone wants to tell you how much they care
someone wants to stay up watching old movies with you
someone wants to share their dreams with you
someone wants to hold you in their arms
someone wants YOU to hold them in your arms
someone treasures your spirit
someone wishes they could STOP time because of you
someone can't wait to see you
someone wishes that things didn't have to change
someone loves you for who you are
someone loves the way you make them feel
someone wants to be with you
someone hears a song that reminds them of you
someone wants you to know they are there for you
someone is glad that you're their friend
someone wants to be your friend
someone stayed up all night thinking about you
someone is alive because of you
someone is wishing that you would notice them
someone wants to get to know you better
someone believes that you are their soul mate
someone wants to be near you
someone misses your guidance and advice
someone values your guidance and advice
someone has faith in you
someone trusts you
someone needs you to send them this letter
someone needs your support
someone needs you to have faith in them
someone needs you to let them be your friend
someone will cry when they read this time because of you
someone can't wait to see you
someone wishes that things didn't have to change
someone loves you for who you are
someone loves the way you make them feel
someone wants to be with you
someone hears a song that reminds them of you
someone wants you to know they are there for you
someone is glad that you're their friend
someone wants to be your friend
someone stayed up all night thinking about you
someone is alive because of you
someone is wishing that you would notice them
someone wants to get to know you better
someone believes that you are their soul mate
someone wants to be near you
someone misses your guidance and advice
someone values your guidance and advice
someone has faith in you
someone trusts you
someone needs you to send them this letter
someone needs your support
someone needs you to have faith in them
someone needs you to let them be your friend
someone will cry when they read this

FOUND this very MEANINGFUL'

so DECIDED to post it.

-hugs&kisses™-

yeahh'

so went out to do IPW with Si Hui & Joanna. (:

had lots of FUN and happiness with them.

ESPECIALLY the 1hr hang out at POPULAR.

hahas' was arguing about the different colours and so on.

intended to be like yesterday walk to my house then the both of them take 21 from there.

but because of the 1hr quarrel @ popular.

so we finally decide on the items and left. (:

then the both of them take 65 and I took 81.

sat on the bus alone listening to my mp3.

i skipped dinner today.

didn't really feel like eating.

yepps; (x

ok, shan't post anymore.

gotta go work on the posters now.

ta-da! (:

'estee

POOH!

hehex. shan't tell you why i said "POOH!"
bleahz. xP
yupps!
so sad' didn't get to blog yesterday.
for some reasons.
yupps; so here i am early as 9.23am to blog! (:
wells, will be very BUSY this weekend. =/
have to go cousin's house to stay cause her exam next week.
then im like going over to help her?
hmms'
yepps;
but ain't sure if im goin today.
but MOST probably tomorrow. (:
just HOPE she can make it next year. =/

and yeahh' HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHY! (:

yeahh' so let's talk abt yesterday!
WOOTS! can say its the HAPPIEST day.
have you seen one WHOLE family of GIRLS singing while walking?
NO right? hehez. xP
its just so COOL!
with shuTING,siHUI,joANNA.

SOBS! SOBS!
1E is GONNA be SEPERATED soon!
no more -FAMILY
no more -1E'ians'06
no more -hangouts with the girls
no more -LAUGHTER
no more -mummies & ah-mahs & DARX!
SOBSSSSS! ='/

SORRY to start off with a cheerful smile and now a CRY.
must brace up ESTEE KHO!
1E'ians will still MEET UP!
it's not the END yet!
JIAYOUS!
we can still hang out during the holidays!
YES! we CAN!

To the WHOLE of 1E'ians:
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon and there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep,
I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

It's ALWAYS hard to say GOODBYE.

For all the TIMES we had TOGETHER,

will ALWAYS be ETCHED right in our HEARTS.

We will never know the FUTURE.

For what will we BECOME.

But till now, keep the MEMORIES close to you.

And i WILL do it TOO.

'estee

peek-a-boo!
heex. (x
had MATHS & CL PAPER 2 today!
hahas' should be able to make it?
though i didn't really studied Chinese. =X
but i did studied like HALF. so yeahh' can le bahs.
shuTING, liJIN NEVER even studied.
but they are born PURELY CLEVER.
so no studying is like no HARM for them? (:

anyways' after exam went to TmartMAC to study with shuTING. (x
saw haoCHUEN.
he kinda challenged us to play doTA.
well, it has been long since i played.
but yeahh' haven install yet. so tooBAD.
maybe next time bahx. (x

gonna be mugging in a while.
it's SCIENCE tomorrow!
YEAHH'!
and after that would be BASKETBALL! BASKETBALL!
& even more BASKETBALL!
I promise I will be tanner as ever man!
heex. xP
can't help it!
miss IT TOO MUCH LEXZ! x/
but there will also be hangouts lahhs' ((:
LOVE-LEY! x)
most probably with shuTING, joANNA, liJIN, siHUI, wanJIE, wenSHEE, jiaYING, unDRAM, euGENE, auSTIN, daNNY. our ONE-BIG family! (x
just remember, 'estee™ LOVES YA! xD
ok, shall get started with my muggin nows. (x
tooDLES! xD

sarang heyo. <3

'estee

thought only GIRLS would be childish in FRIENDSHIPS.

didn't know that GUYS are the SAME too.

even though you can't FORGIVE him,

at least TRY TO.

you DIDN'T even TRY.

and you just can't be BOTHERED.

even with a 9 months FRIENDSHIP?

and i thought it was STRONG.

didn't know the friendship just BREAK over something STUPID.

Wei Chong, it's not I don't wanna HELP.

IS just that, I CAN'T do anything to HELP.

maybe it's BEST this way? let them be.

I have nothing more to SAY.

when he ASKED me not to INTERFERE.

-USELESSme.-

Was reading through my archives, and came across this post that i wrote on the month of may?
found it was SO true.
so yeahh' (: enjoy READING! xD

Life is just bitter. sweet & sour.
Things will not always be in your favour.
But you have the chance to create that Fate.
Fate decides your happiness.
In order to obtain happiness.
Dreams come into the picture.
So whatever happens.
Just remember to brace yourself up.
This is just the beginning.
Journey is far.
Success is nearer.
Live life as usual.
Work harder.
Failure leads to a learning journey.
Time is precious for the power is in your hands.
Achieve that dream.
Life will be Sweet.
Continue slacking.
Life will be Bitter.
Sad always.
Life will be Sour.

heyheys! ((:

have everyone been mugging hard? (:
JIAYOUS wor!
myGOD! myGOD!
now watching "I not stupid 2"
cannot stand it le lahh'!
Joshua actually so DUMB in the show arhs?
bought 2 3G phones some more!!
WAHHHHH!!!
then lend ppl their phone?
$4 per day?
myGOD!
hahas'

forget abt the show.
so FUNNY!
heh-hehs. xP
well, have been studying GEOGRAPHY the WHOLE DAY!
woots! getting more & more to LOVE it! x)
but HISTORY still rawks more!
YEAHH'!

and myGODNESS!
PSI: 150
think we dunn need ta go to school liaos. x/
hmms'
so everyone listen up!
must jiayou wor!
its just 3 MORE DAYS.
JIAYOU! JIAYOU!
NITEZ! NITEZ! (:

'estee

I didn't knew it would affect me so much.

maybe I should really just FORGET it.

but is it that easy to FORGET?

I'm sorry that he affected me more than you.

but i assure you that I will try to FORGET k?

give me TIME.

I BELIEVE TIME will be the BEST thing I need now.

toFORGETisEVERYTHINGiNEEDnow.

Guess I should write a UNDERSTANDABLE post.
yeahh'
exams started yesterday.
think it should be ok with History?
just couldn't find something that is 8 mark for the 8 mark question.
yepps;
but it's ok ESTEE KHO!
jiayous! x)

shall be working HARD & studying SMART later. and for the WEEKENDS.
LOVE-LEY. ((:
shall get going now.
sorry for the very short post. =X

'estee

can I really unlock it myself?
is it really possible?
can I really do it?


YOU made me say something yesterday.
SOMETHING that I NEVER EVER wanted to say.
because of this matter i dropped a tear when I sang a song, I'M SORRY!
I SHOULDN'T HAVE done that.
SORRY! ='/

AND not to FORGET!


THE WHOLE OF 1E'ians.
THANKS for bringing 'estee™ here.
WILL LOTS OF APPRECIATION & GRATITUDE.
THANK YOU 1E'IANS!

'estee™ heartz 1E FOREVA!

如果有一天我再也不能留在你身边帮助你，要答应我， 不能放弃！永远不能放弃！应为你知道在精神上，我会永远在你的旁边让你靠住我的肩膀。是个肯定我们明年不会同样班，所以如果你需要我的时候，我可能不会在你身边。希望我们永远会是一个大家庭！　我爱你！我的大家庭！　

To my DEAREST ah-mahs & mummy. ((:
& not to forget our ONE-BIG-FAMILY!
Joanna, Eugene, Austin, Wen Shee, Li Jin, Jia Ying, Undram, Wan Jie, Hao Chuen, JudaxiL, Jia Yi, Danny (Qi Qi aka Fillipino Maid).
LOVE YA ALL LOTS!

'estee

heys! thanks for all the people who wished me good luck for FYE!
I'll work HARD & SMART hidayah! ;)

yeahh' went out to study at mac yesterday.
was supposed to study with UNDRAM.
but in the end she was sick, so yeahh' left me and JudaxiL. (:
then i called ah-mahs and asked her if she wanted to join us.
then after that when we reach then she decided to! (x
yupps; studied history! o.O LOVELY. xP

hmms; and yeahh' after studyin accompanied JudaxiL to buy her pencil case.
she LOVED the one me, shu ting, li jin got. but then she kinda restricted herself to buy it?
cause Jia ying, Wan Jie got the same as us.
so yeahh' actually wadd JudaxiL said was RIGHT.
I wasn't that happy when they bought the same one.
but, haix. dunn care liaos.
yeahh' and yesterday that JudaxiL keep on suan-ning me.
win liaos lorr! x/

enough about the pencil case. and yeahh' just to add on.
JudaxiL bought an extremely-COOL pencil case. sobs! )':
but NVM Ju, I dunn give a DAMN already!

after buying the pencil case, we went home.
took 18.
and yeahh' after that i was sleepy that i drop dead on my bed at 7.00 den woke up eat dinner.
after that go bathe.
den sleep again!!! ZzzzZzzZzz

SORRY ah-mahs for not being able to keep you company yesterday nite!
my APOLOGIES!! x/
sorry!

think i'm gonna go back to my physics lexz!
byes and JIAYOUS everyone!!

'estee